oh my

by Gin Wigmore. current fav song.

jalan2

I spent 5 days in Auckland. with hazi, izz, cik yah and cik izah. currently i'm in Christchurch. the main purpose of this visit is souvenir hunting/shopping. hehe.. i'm going back home for good this coming 18 December. dunno when i'm gonna have chance to come here again. :( . living and studying here really has taught me a lot.. about life, about friendship, about myself..

will be back in wellington this wednesday. graduation on Dec 15. something that i've been waiting for all this while!

summer is in the air! happy summer holiday :)

alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah..



it's a first class honors!!!

i know i cant thank u enough but..
thank u Allah
thank u Allah
thank u Allah
thank u Allah
thank uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

=)

this is the best gift in my life so far. thank u Allah.

my sister's keeper

watching my sister's keeper last nigh with haz. i want to cry so badly at some scene in the movie but izzu was there so i have to control myself heheheeee. so i nangis sikit2 je. (yeah right! hahaha).

i think the movie kinda slow, but in a positive direction. not slow as in boring. got some flashback to how anna was brought into the world, how kate growing up, how taylor came into kate's life, etc. it plays with our emotion. so touching. if u a soft hearted person, i'm pretty sure u will end up crying. haha..

i dont know how it feels like being in anna's shoes. she was so little and so fragile to be of a help to her sister. and being kate, i wonder how she could survive in the last 14 years. must be tough babeh!

death is hard to face aye? it is even harder for people who love you, who dont wanna lose u.

overall it's a nice movie. worth my time.

p.s. in some way, the movie is different from the book. maybe i should later read the book. think it's gonna be wayyyyy better (wayyy sadder) than this movie. hahaha.

p.p.s. congrats to a friend of mine for the good news. i'm happy for u :)

besday jeni

November 11, 2009.

guy fawke's day

Nov 5, 2009.

joli kotak

last week (12 nov rasenye), kami berenam pegi amek kotak kat office nzvanlines. 30 kotak ok. i repeat 30 kotak!! makcik tu tanye camne kitorg nak bawak kotak tu. then kami cakap naek bus. pastu die gelak. mesti die tak dpt imagine. cesss sungguh. berat ok!! gelak je. patotnye tolong ah anta. kite orang paling lemah time bawak kotak tu. hahahaaa.. sakit tangan 3 ari.

nasib baek makcik bus tu kasik kitorg naek bus. cuak gak la kene halau. tak consider sewa kereta sbb mule2 kitorg just nak ambil 18 kotak. so kalo 5 org yg pegi, 2 org bawak 3 kotak and lagi 3 org bwk 4 kotak. so takdek ah merana sgt. tp A ikot and die nak 12 kotak. OMG! so thats where 30 boxes came from. each person have to carry 5 boxes. seriously tak kelakar ok!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tak dpt nk cite perasaan time bwk kotak tu naek bus. rase cam nk nyorok je dlm kotak tu sampailah bus tu stop kt uni. huhu.. sebbaek kat new zealand. kalau bawak kotak naek bus kat malaysia mesti dah kene gelak and perli ngn org2 dalam bus tu.

sebab tu kite suke tinggal kat sini.

tak dpt nk cite explicitly how we felt that time. no words can ever express our experience. yang penting memory bwk kotak aritu merupakan salah satu peristiwa yg tak dpt dilupekan dlm hidop ini. hahahaha.. hanya kami berenam yang tahu.

skrg 17 nov. esok 18. lusa 19.

then 20 nov. ape?? 20 nov lah!

kak izz buat makan2 ari kamis. tak surprise langsong. hahaha..

cite laen, i bought high heels setinggi 4inch = 10 cm. HAHAHAHA.. jgn jatoh tergolek mase graduation sudah. considered as birthday present tok diri sendiri :D

arini bought new sunnies. yg lame da tetinggal dlm keta sewa izu. :(
considered as another birthday present. :D

hahaha.. nak sedapkan ati.

cuti nii duet mengalir bagaikan air hujan.


p.s. first time birthday kat new zealand

smile, you

hyunsoo oppaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i like uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

hahahahaaa.. now tgh melayan cite smile, you. mule2 tengok sbb nua kate ade name liza. cett.. punyelah kite pecaye. benci ko!!!!!!!! hahahaaaa..

anywayyy laayan je lah. best jugak cite tu.

ayah and anip masok hospital ari ahad aritu. sbb telangga lembu. dorg naek moto time tu. tp alhamdulillah dorg da ok da now.

i'm so worried bile ayah kua naek moto or keta. sbb die senang gile telelap. kalo takdek org becakap ngn die, mule ahh die tesengguk2. bahaye oh. rase mcm tanak kasik die drive or bwk moto je. tp mane ade driver kan. huhu..

i'm officially free. no more assignments, tests or exam. just anxious waiting for my result.

berharap semua kan baek2 saja.

0911

now kite kat cotton level 5 plak. konon nak study la kan. hehehe.. cant wait for

091109

sebab itu adelah hari last exam!!! weeeeee~~

las thursday was Guy Fawke's day. awesome fireworks! and that night was my first time ever been on that "dangerous & scary" thing. haha.. kite tak penah naek roller coaster, ferris wheel, even merry-go-round selama hidop nih. malam tu tetibe je high. berani pulak nak naek. anyway it was so fun. pasnih bole lah nk try naek bende2 laen plak. hehe..

perpustakaan

kite menulis straight from vic library niii. pegi uni tok study. huaaa.. impress dengan diri sendiri. heheheee..

but nak balek da ni. lapo meng!

hmm.. semlm ade satu berite sedih. ibu kepada sorg sahabat kite telah meninggal dunia. kite harap die tabah menghadapi dugaan ini.

utk peringatan kpd diri sendiri, hargailah dan sayangilah org yg berada di sisi kite sbb kite tak tahu bila mereka akan meninggalkan kite buat selamanya. sesungguhnya yang hidup pasti akan mati. dan mati itu adalah paling dekat dengan kita.

someone said, a best life to live is a life full of love.

ciao!

483

i cant stop eating!!!!!!

asik lapa je arini. tapi da bace bismillah sebelum makan :D. so cane cane? haha..

just finished reading the king of torts by john grisham. a very good beginning but gets a bit boring through the middle. ending was okay. just another story about law firm, lawyers, lawsuit etc.

but i like the figures (i mean the fees they got for cases they handled). involve quite a lot of zeroes. million, billion, private jet, luxury yatch, big house, porche. haha.. but the lawyers earned them by manipulating people. dirty money. tak berkat. hehehe..

will read another book called biostatistic. hahaha.. good for stat483 exam :D

november

welcome november :D

what's so special about november?

1. it's the month i was born!!
2. well my sister born in november as well
3. ruzaini's birthday
4. hazirah's birthday
5. will finish exam hence vic uni life this coming november 9

i vaguely remember how many times they celebrate my birthday back home. well it's not that i care so much. we dont have the money to make a proper birthday party like other people had. and i dont mind if there's no celebration at all. and i dont really mind if there's no one in my family wishes me happy birthday. it looks a bit sad.. but maybe it is because the way we were brought up. we do love each other but we dont really know how to express it. for me it is just another day in my life hehehe..

this year will be my first and last time having birthday in new zealand. haha.. before this i always going back to malaysia (nov-feb) for summer holiday. this year i'm waiting to attend my advanced graduation ceremony which will be held on december.

well happy november everyone!!

happy

i dont wanna do this anymore.

i should stop.

stop not because i'm giving up, but because you do not give a damn about it.

life is just a bowl of cherry
sometimes it is sweet filled with worries
dont be afraid
when things go wrong
just be strong

soul

what's wrong with you?

you are given hope but hope is not what you seek

you pretend not to understand when in fact it is obvious

you want someone to hit you hard on your face so you can wake up to your sense

you prefer the truth yet you shut your ears so you hear nothing

untitle

exam pukul 2.30-5.30pm.

wouldnt it be nice if ap wish me gud luck?

wouldnt it be nice if you wish me gud luck?

ape?? tak nice? hahahaaa.. fine!


permudahkanlah Ya Allah. amin.


doakan along dapat A ye mak :D





i wish..

dreams

ok second entry for today. haha..

people say "fight for your dreams"

i have many dreams. not sure whether all of them are possible to accomplish.

a friend told me that everything imaginable is possible to obtain. which implies i can get what i want, i can get what i dream of, provided i try hard enough.

do i try hard enough? or did i tried hard enough?

other friend told me, if we didnt get what we want, that's because He has a better plan for us.

keep dreaming, keep hoping, keep praying, keep living.

the world aint slowing down for no one..
it's a carnival calling out to u
it sounds like a song
hits u like scripture
u paint the picture
with colors squeezed from ur hand
werent u the kid
who just climbed on the merry-go-round
hey look, the world aint slowing down

the world aint slowing down by ellis paul. suke :D

spell "s" "o" "n" "g"

i'll be there for u
when the rain starts to pour

hehe.. it's raining actually. windy n cold!

a very "convenient" study environment for student like me heheheee :D

i'll be there for u
like i've been there before
i'll be there for u
cause u'r there for me too

songs do remind me of specific person or specific time or specific place.

jika teringat tentang dikau
jauh di mata dekat di hati
sempat terfikir tuk kembali
walau beda akan kujalani
- teringat mase duduk asrama time form 2. time tu kat sek.men.batu kikir. dekat je ngn rumah tp gatal nk dok asrama. tahan setahun je. mase form 3 dok rumah balek. haha.. kite suke melalak lagu nii mase iron baju kat dorm. hehe..

kini dengarkanlah dendangan lagu
tanda ingatanku
kepadamu teman
agar ikatan ukhuwah
kan bersimpul pada
- zaman SAMURA (sek men sains muar). the good old days! miss the school, teachers, frens, dewan makan, court volleyball haha. sume2 la.

dikejar bayang-bayang resah
bila hatimu masih tak berubah
enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
belaian cintaku ini
- spider in the house!! relaku pujuk. kite mmg suke suara tam spider. lagu ni reminds me of jaz. hahahaha.. he's married on 2006. awal gila mamat nih kawen. mase umur 22. he has a reason that until now kite tak tau patot percaye atau tak.


hidup kite penuh dengan lagu. tp kite realise that kebanyakannye sume lagu2 yg dah lame. mcm hidup dalam memory. mungkin bila dah balek malaysia nnt akan update dengan lagu2 baru. heh.

i dont know which one is more worst..
not being able to remember or not being able to forget.

pelangi cantik!

wahai hati
ada apa dengan cinta manusia
sehingga engkau alpa dan leka
menanti ternanti bagai nak gila
dihujungnya cuma duka dan sengsara
wahai hati
carilah cinta Ilahi
kerna ia cinta yang suci
cinta abadi cinta hakiki
membawa kita ke syurga pasti
wahai hati
jangan engkau lupa
jangan hanyut dibawa arus dunia
hidup ini cuma sementara
bila Izrail mencabut nyawa
yang tinggal hanya cinta kepadaNya
yang tinggal hanya cinta dariNya

andainya engkau tahu
kiranya engkau peduli
wahai pemilik sekeping hati..


p.s. petang tadi ade pelangi. cantik. bukan senang nk nampak. suke2 :D

mamat laundry

best jugak berebot buat laundry ngn mamat seblah rumah nii hahahaaa. terperanjat berok dia tgk byknye baju yg kitorg nak basuh :D
sorryy bang!

kami terconquer semua washing machines and dryer. sementara menunggu baju dlm machine siap di basuh, die pon berkate "tinggalkan satu dryer tok die pleaseee". kite senyum je. haha.. mesin basuh tu plak buat hal. asek terstuck je bile spin. penat nk btolkn. mamat tu pon da tak sanggop nak tunggu lalu dia pon merajok dan berkata "i'll do it tomorrow". heheheee.

semalam kami buat bacaan yassin dan solat hajat. jeni kate die merajok ngn kite sebab tak ajak. huhu.. tak tahulah merajok btol2 or maen2. if btol2.. i am so very sorry!

ptg tadi kua joging dgn daye. kat kelburn park lah mcm biasa. but this time tak dpt nk round park tu sbb mcm ade msians yg tgh maen bola. seganlah. kite kan takdek hidung. hahaha.. tapi tak sure sgt btol ke tak tu msian sbb tak pakai lense. haha.. but daye kate mcm je. then kitorg jog straight to everton and jln2 yg ade di situ.

hmm.. 29hb nih da start exam. tapiiiii kite belum start study lagi. bile nak ade mood study niii???? hb takdek kat rmh since siang tadi. pergi ke rmh izz kot. mesti pegi study. huaaaaaaaaaaa!!! haruslah start belaja niii. cuak oh! beliau sgt bersungguh-sungguh.

kite sgt malas belajar sepanjang tahun ini =(

sahabat

baru lepas berbual dengan daye, hazi and izz. about the past, present and future. hahahaaa...
i love hanging out with them. i love spending time with them. i love talking to them. most of all, i love their presence. even when we have nothing to say at all.

their presence makes me feel like "hey u r not alone or hey u r a normal person u have friends!!!" hahahaaa..., their presence makes me feel comfortable. makes me feel happy. loved, appreciated. that's not too much aye? hahaa..

it's the same feeling you got when you are at home i guest.

well friends are indeed very important in our life kan? beside family members i mean.

no man is an island. remember? i cant imagine how people can have no friend. i cant imagine how they can stand being alone?

i hate the feeling of loneliness. i feel suffocated, cant breath. cewahh!! no air no air. it's like all oxygen in this earth has been absorbed by a giant pump? and none left for me. haha.. or maybe it's like i'm in the middle of Pacific Ocean, with broken boat, cant swim, no life jacket, no radio communication, all i can do is waiting, waiting and waiting for other ship to come and save me before i get all drown and died. hahahaaaaa tragik gila. tsktsktsk. tipu niii.

well.. everyone hates to be lonely kan? enough said.

lonely..
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody
for my own
-Akon

hehe... hope things gonna be the same when we are all back in malaysia.
hope everyone stays the same. even after you guys get married. (and i'm not! hahahaaaa =P)

my flight ticket has been confirmed today. December 18, 2009. i miss wellington already.


p.s. i hope the pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams.

just wondering

sometimes she wonders..

how people perceive her.

what people talk about her (if they ever did la haha..)

and if they did.. was it a bad or a good thing.

sometimes she wonders..

is she too arrogant?
is she too shy?
is she too antisocial?
is she too taciturn?
is she too reserved?


she thinks everyone but her makes lotssss of friend here.

haha..

she wonders how many knew her existence here.

she wonders how many of them will say "oh i know her" when u utter her name.

sometimes she wonders why is she like this? hahahahaaa...


truth is.. she's not arrogant. she thinks she talks a lot. and no she's not antisocial. she would love to hang out with other people.

it is just that she doesnt know how to begin.
it is just that she doesnt know how to start.

but then.. maybe that implies she's SOMBONG.
is she that sombong? is she is she?


p.s. grandma said, sometimes we have to take into account what people talk about ourselves for they can see our mistake our weakness.

p.p.s. i think she's doing fine. she's just wondering. u know.

dan aku terus..

menyanyi lagu ini untukmu
walau berjuta mendengar
lagu ini hanya untukmu

hehehe.. ade sape2 nk maen gitar lagu nii utk kite?????????????????





^_^

hari ini dan semalam

semalam..

dpt chatting ngn S. lame gile da kitorg tak borak. masing2 busy. die jarang online and kite jarang call. haha.. i'm so glad that we finally have some time to catch up on things. hehe.. glad to know that u r doing fine babe.

u said u are no longer with him. i said "hahaha.. yeke? so now ko single ke taken?" and u replied "penah ke aku single?"

hahahahaa... sengal ah ko!!

i'm happy as long as u r happy =)

why for some people love is that easy ha? it's like sekali petik jari sepuluh datang.

not for me though. haha..

she told me to berkawan dgn lebih ramai lelaki so that peluang lg cerah. hahahaaaa.. wot the??


hari ini...

me, cik izah and saghahh pegi open house held by pali, qilah, fazuin, iqa n jo. so dapat lah makan nasik kerabu. sedap2.

oh arini sabtu. sabtu means Nur Kasih! hehehe..

susahkan hidup bermadu? mesti akan rase jealous punye ah kalo ternampak suami kite tgh berkasih syg dgn org laen depan mate. huhu.. tak bole tak bole!


esok..

ade potluck klik klik welly. tapiii cik izah kate esok hujan. so taktaw la nak pi ke tak. lagipon assignment byk tak siap lagi ni. hehe..


anywayy..

nenek i kate.. no one knows what tomorrow brings. so live life to the fullest!

esok tak semestinye ade untuk kite kan? hmm~~

the rain is falling on my window pane

but I am hiding in a safer place
under the covers staying safe and warm
you give me feelings that i adore


it's raining! it's raining! sukeeeee hehe.. bunyi hujan mendamaikan jiwa kan kan?
tapi hujan yg biase2 mcm malam nih la.

bila dah lebat sangat, takotlah pulak. dulu mase kecik2.. kalo hujan turun lebbbbattttt gile and time tu pulak mak and ayah takdek kat rumah.. mesti kite nangis. hahahaaa.. klaka2.


they start in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
wherever you go


hmm.. arini hari last lecture. maksudnye takkan ade lagi lecture to attend kat VUW unless kite sambong master or PHd wOW! kat sini. hahahaa...

perasaan? sedih + happy. sedih sebab maybe pasnih takdek peluang lg da blaja kat VUW. sedeh sebab tak dapat jumpe lecturer2 yg disarangi. sedeh sbb tak dpt jumpe pencerah2 agong di kelas. hehehe.. happy pulak sebab tak sabaq nak abes belaja (buat mase skrg laaa). penat oh study!!!! heppi sebab takkan ade new assignment. heppi sbb da tak payah gune R or Excel. heppi sebab tak payah pening pale pikir mcm mane nk siapkan asgn!


what am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

tragedi oktober

ok,
kite sememangnye sukeeeeeeeeeee memblogging di kala kerja sangat byk betimbun-timbun!! :D

dan,

kite sememangnye sukeeeeeeeeeee melalak kuat2 (menyanyi kuat2 bukan menangis ok) bile tension tak tahu nk buat keje mane satu dulu.

tadi,

cik izah telah melayan kite berkaraoke di utube selame hampir 2 jam. hehehe.

kawan kite cakap die berazam takmahu ******* sorg budak ni until budak tu ******* die dulu. mampukah die lakukan? haaaa.. kite tunggu dan lihat. kenape kawan kite nak buat camtu? sebabbbbbbbb.. die kate asyik die je. so die cakap die nak tunggu pulak.

usually, i dont mind waiting for others.
and most of the time, i hate people waiting for me, so i ask them to go/to start first.

sometimes.. i wish people can wait for me.

but I (you) should know by now that waiting is (very) painful. dang! hehehe..

bak kate nenek i, penantian itu suatu penyeksaan.

indah sinar sang suria
merdu irama sang bayu
tiada seindah wajahmu
tiada selembut suaramu

gud luck fren.

semua kan baik-baik saja

duhai hati
mengapa bersedih tentang duniawi
bila akhirat itu suatu yang pasti

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hadapi dengan senyuman
semua yang terjadi biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua... kan baik-baik saja
semua... kan baik-baik saja
semua... kan baik-baik saja


relakanlah saja ini..

take care

For me,

"take care"

is just a simple word
yet has a very deep meaning.

saying take care to someone shows that s/he has a special place in my heart,
that s/he is someone that i care, that i love and afraid of losing.

i dont simply throw that word to random people.

i noticed that some people like to say take care to everyone, whether or not that everyone matters in their life. why eh?

and i noticed that some people usually saying take care at the end of conversation (especially bile berchatting). why eh?

do they really mean it? or is it just a longer version of full stop or a "goodbye"? haha..

of course i dont go spitting any curse vocab that i've learnt at you if you say take care to me; "you" who has nothing to do with me and my life..

kite terime je if org cakap take care.

but the thing is.. i will ponder about your intention/honesty. hehehe..
and sometimes will lead to misunderstanding.

so, dont sukehati say take care to me if you dont really mean it.
how i hate it!


i read somewhere,
hate is just a word for someone you love but no longer believe in.

betol ke betol ke? haha..

ntah.. kite tak penah lagi benci orang. rimas dgn org penahla. sungguh tak best perasaan itu. rase bersalah dgn org tu pon ade. rase cam diri sendiri sangat jahat. alhamdulillah sebbaek perasaan itu dah hilang. tanak lagiii huhu..


p.s. saket perot da ok. alhamdulillah.

hari yg indah

arini matahari tak merajuk dengan i!! suke suke =)
cuaca yg indah.. tapi angin macam biasa la. i pegi mane2 pon nk ikot. hehe..
hmm.. nnt bile da balek msia mesti i rindu angin wellington ni.
kat msia pon ade angin.. tapiii tak same lah dgn angin wellington!
hehe..

angin..
walaupun kite tak nampak die..
tapi kite dapat rasa bila ia ada..

begitu juga dengan kewujudan Allah..
walaupun kite tak nampak Allah..
tapi hati kita..seluruh jiwa raga kita dapat merasai kewujudannya.

nak tahu? i selalu impress dengan orang yg pandai tulis sajak. pandai sungguh bermain dengan kata-kata. i suke je nak tulis sajak. tapi tak retiiiiiiii!! takde bakat. hahaha..

arini i macam ade mood nak buat sajak. sebab i heppi!! kenape heppi?
rahsia lah! hahahahaaa.. tapiiiii tak reti la kan.

hmm...

jiwa rasa gelora
kasih pada teruna
bukan kerna intan permata
kerna budi bahasa..

HAHAHAHAAAA obviously nih bukan sajak yg i nk tulis. tetibe terklua lagu ni pulak.
takdek kena mengena dgn mood i arini ok. yg nih lagu untuk org berchenta. tak sesuai langsong untuk i! hahahahhaa.. next pls.

smlm i call mak. cakap nak kawen. hahaha.. mesti mak terperanjat. sebab i never brought this thing up before. dan2 je cakap nk kawen. she said boleh je. pergilah carik org yg sesuai. that's a green light no?? hahahaha... boleh kawen awal yeay! errr apekah?

next year boleh mak? 24 isnt that early no? lambat dah tu. isk3 =P


\/ ^_^ \/

10 Oct

kamu tahu tak "istiqamah" itu adelah suatu perkara yg amat susah untuk dilakukan??

huhu..

mase cuti mid sem aritu.. kite berazam nk start buat assignment applied math. alih2 sampai bukak uni tak sentuh pon.

pastu now.. berazam nk siapkan at least 1 assignment sehari. tapi tak siap jugak! alasan tak siap ialah sebab susah.

rase otak da lembab gile. mungkinkah Allah da kurangkan nikmat kecerdasan otak? huuuuu...

tak baek fikir mcm tu. sebab Allah sayangkan sumorg. kalo die tarik any nikmat pon, semuanya ade sebab dan adelah yg terbaik utk kite kan?


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ade sorg kawan kite ni. die bergurau ngn kite. mengaku die da betunang. kite pecaye gile. haha.. sebab die takdek reason pon nak tipu kite kan. arini die ym kite ckp die tipu je.

iskisk.. tell me a lie and i will believe u.

kenape kite mudah percaye kat org eh? i mean mudah percaye kat org yg bergelar seorang kawan.

please dont lie to me. ever.


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cite laen?

hmm... sekarang ni kite selalu fikir.. kenape kite yang kene mulekan?


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ahhh.. abaikan!!


fighting!!

jLo

syawal untuk kali yang ke-23. alhamdulillah. syukur padaMu ya Allah. keranaMu aku masih lagi bernafas hingga ke saat ini.

hmm..tetibe tepikir macam mane la ekk ghopenye syawal kite 22 years ago? adekah semeriah sekarang? hehe.. walaupon berjauhan dgn keluarga.. but syawal here tetap meletop. itulah kepentingan ade kawan2. takdeklah sunyi kan.

kitorg buat "open house" ari kamis malam. takdeklah open sgt. sbb tetamu yg datang sume adalah by special invitation. kire mcm open house to close frens only. hakhak. siap ade tetamu istimewa lagi. hahahaha.. tapi kite tak tego die pulak. isk nyesal jadi sombong. actually bkn nk sombong but expect org laen yg mulakan conversation.. tapi smp abes majlis tang tuuu jugak. haish! in conclusion, padan muke to diri sendiri.

nua said its 2009 not 1980 anymore. but still!!!! urghhhh.

anywayy.. salam aidilfitri. maaf zahir dan batin sumorg.

eh?

eh baru perasan last post pon pasal hati.

d'oh!!

kaca is gelas

orang kata..
hati itu umpama kaca..
sangat fragile..
andai terjatuh boleh retak, boleh pecah..

jika kaca,
bila retak..masih boleh cantum guna gam..
tapi kalau dah pecah berderai?

hati manusia kalau luka, kalau patah..
tak boleh tampal,
tak boleh gam.
tapi orang kata..
masa boleh jadi penawar.

namun seperti kaca yang dicantum semula..
walau serupa namun tetap tak sama.
begitu juga hati manusia..
mungkin boleh sembuh dengan masa,
tapi..



p.s. cakap bagi pihak orang yang kecik hati/ terluka hati/ terpecah hati/ u name it hehehe

hati

hari sabtu adelah hari yg paling ku tunggu2. sebab?? nur kasih la. hehehe..

alhamdulillah.. tanpa ku sedari arini da 15 ramadhan. cepat sungguh masa berlalu. terutamanya macam waktu sekarang nih. tgh cuti sem. tido pon boleh la lame skit. hehehe.. kalo lame sangat makroh! =P

tadi ku ade terbace status seorang kawan pasal menjage hati. senang nk sebut tapi amat susah untuk dilaksanakan. ingat senang ke nak jage ati? ati mak ayah, ati adek beradik, ati kawan2.. susah oh!

kadang2 jika kita da terlalu rapat dgn seseorang, kita semakin menjadi tidak aware yg tutur kata kite sudah melampaui batas sehingga menyebabkn kawan kita terasa. mungkinlah niat kita cuma untuk bergurau, tapi mungkinlah si kawan tu terasa, walaupon dia tak amek hati sbb dia tahu kita bergurau kan.

tapi nak kata kita lebih aware dengan orang yang tak rapat dgn diri kita tak jugak. sebab kalo tak rapat/tak kenal lagilah tak tahu ape yg boleh menyebabkan dia kecik ati kan. hmm.. susah nih!

itulah manusia.

berguraulah berpada-pada,
jagalah tutur kata,
jangan lebih ketawa,
kelak mengundang duka.

hehe.. ^-^

guru

aku tertarik dengan artikel ini.

http://www.nst.com.my/articles/03jrr/Article/index_html

.:

Memang sistem pelajaran di Malaysia berorientasikan peperiksaaan. Namun ia juga turut dipraktikkan di negara-negara lain. Bagi aku, ini merupakan salah satu cara untuk menilai sejauh mana kefahaman dan penguasaan pelajar2 terhadap ilmu yang diajar.

Masalah terlalu "exam oriented" bukan sahaja dialami oleh pelajar Malaysia. Malah aku percaya setiap institusi pendidikan di luar negara turut mengalami masalah yang sama. Ini berdasarkan pengalaman aku yang belajar di New Zealand. Prestasi akademik aku disini masih dinilai menerusi peperiksaan. Tetapi di universiti aku, terdapat juga subjek2 yang dinilai menerusi "internal assessment" sahaja.

Contoh masalah (ini aku quote dari artikel tersebut):

1. The education system is too examination-oriented, placing a heavy burden on teachers to complete the curriculum and students to "regurgitate" what they have been taught.

2. schoolchildren are not being taught the skills they need to compete in the 21st century workplace.

3. School teachers and university instructors lament that they have insufficient time to complete the syllabus so non-examination subjects are given less emphasis and sometimes completely ignored.


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Ini pendapat aku untuk masalah

(1)

Aku tidak boleh menjawab persoalan mengenai bebanan yang dipikul seseorang guru. Ini kerana aku tidak berada di tempat mereka lagi. Tapi aku percaya mengajar bukan suatu tugas yang mudah. Walau bagaimanapun, aku masih tidak nampak, tidak faham dan masih tertanya-tanya bagaimana sistem pelajaran berorientasikan peperiksaan (SPBP) dianggap sebagai bebanan yang berat terhadap seseorang guru untuk menamatkan kurikulum dibandingkan dengan sistem lain. (by the way, sistem apa lagi yang ada.. hehe.. ye aku kurang pengetahuan/ignorant).

Adakah banyak masa diambil untuk menyediakan kertas peperiksaan sehingga mengganggu guru tersebut untuk mengajar?

Apakah jika kita mengubah sistem peperiksaan yang sedia ada dapat meringankan beban guru dan memberi ruang kepada pelajar untuk lebih memahami apa yang diajar?

Bagi aku walau apa jua sistem yang diamalkan, beban yang terletak dibahu seseorang guru masih sama. Tugas seorang guru bukan hanya untuk memuntahkan ilmu-ilmu pengetahuan tetapi perlu mendidik mereka menjadi insan yang berguna untuk agama, keluarga, bangsa dan negara. Ini termasuk aspek tingkah laku, pertuturan dan cara berfikir.

Memang pembentukan peribadi dan sahsiah seseorang pelajar bermula dari rumah. Tetapi aku percaya guru juga berkongsi tanggungjawab yang sama.

Itu definasi guru bagi aku.

Sebagai seorang pelajar, aku rasa aku layak untuk memberi pendapat berkenaan SPBP. Aku adalah hasil daripada sistem ini. Aku sangat tidak suka mengambil peperiksaan. Rutin sebagai pelajar adalah belajar, membuat assignment/homework/kerja sekolah dan peperiksaan. Selepas peperiksaan, aku lupa apa yang aku telah belajar. Mungkin tidak lupa semua :D Tetapi aku tidak ingat semua.

Walaubagaimanapun, bagi aku ada peperiksaan atau tidak, bukan alasan kukuh untuk menghalang pelajar mencerna apa yang diajar. Bagi aku, masalah faham atau tidak ini bergantung kepada individu itu sendiri. Jika aku tidak faham semasa di dalam kelas, kenapa aku tidak terus bertanya atau berjumpa dengan guru itu sendiri pada masa lain untuk penerangan? Usaha itu penting. Banyak masa diperlukan untuk persediaan peperiksaan bukan alasan untuk tidak faham. Malah selepas ada usaha untuk memahami, peperiksaan bukan lagi satu masalah besar. Betul tak? Kalau dah tahu atau dah faham, maka peperiksaan jadi lebih mudah dan tidak dilihat sebagai suatu bebanan.

Kadang-kadang aku belajar last minute hanya untuk pass. Tetapi peperiksaan itu sendiri membuat aku sedar apa yang aku belajar. Dalam tidak sedar, aku masih memperoleh sesuatu. Kan?

Aku setuju dan sedar wujudnya masalah ini. Mungkin sistem pendidikan di negara kita harus dirombak dan dinilai semula. Cuma aku masih mahu mengekalkan sistem peperiksaan, namun dengan pendekatan yang lebih baik atau lebih lembut.


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Untuk masalah (2), lain kali ok! (berzaman la nak tunggu kot..)

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Ini adalah pendapat peribadi aku yang naif, kurang pengetahuan dan tidak banyak tahu mengenai dunia luar, mungkin ada salah faham dan yang seangkatan.

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p.s. esok last day lecture for the first half of semester. weeeeee~~

cerita lift

semester nih aku beralih angin sket. for 2 and a half years i've been doing math marking. but for this semester i chose to mark statistics assignment instead. i also got 2 extra hours per week doing statistics help session. which implies more money. haha..

sebot pasal duet nih, aku geram gila!!! sebab scholarship belom masok lagi. tak sistematik sungguh cara mereka uruskan biasiswa. ada certain yg da dpt n ade yang belom dpt. but those yang da dpt, duet diorg kurang 900+ plak. apekah?? nak bayau sewa rumah lagi. nk beli food lagi.

tadi mase nk masok lift, there was this one guy. he reminded me of my clumsiness/ignorancy. haha.. the lift stopped at level 3 (to pick me la). pastu mamat tuh kua. aku ingat die memang nak stop kat level 3, tapi bile aku da masok dalam lift, button level 4 dah tersedia menyala. haha..aku tersengih. mesti mamat tadi nk pegi level 4 tp die terus je klua membabi buta. bila lift tu stopped kat level 4, aku nampak mamat tu kat tangge. confirmed!

btw, aku bukan nk pegi level 4. membazir letrik je naek lift utk 1 tingkat. 2 tingkat boleh consider lg kan? hehehehe.. please conserve energy!

motif cerita lift tadi ialah, aku ialah seorang yang macam tu. selalu tak perasan lift da sampai level berape. main menonong je (klua membabi buta) everytime pintu terbukak. tapi kadang-kadang2 aku buat tak tau malu masok balek. hehe..

minggu nih last week of lecture before mid sem break. after that i got 6 more weeks of lectures and then i'm done.

eh, belom lagi! exam dulu. lupeee.. hehehe..

entah?

wah wah. sudah sangat lame tiada entry baru. ntahlah. nak kate busy, aku rasa semester nih kurang sibok compared to last semester. cumanya.. aku tak tahu nak tulis ape.

entah. entah. dan entah.

yang aku tahu, sangat banyak perkara berlaku di sekeliling aku, di tempat aku, dan di bumi ini. cuma aku adalah seorang manusia yang sangat2 ingnorant. sangat tidak ambil peduli. sedih kan jadi macam aku?

aku perlu perubahan. cuma mungkin aku yang tidak mahu berubah. konflik diri? entahlah. aku pon tak tahu.

ops. lagi word "entah" yang keluar dari mulut aku.

hahaha.. oklah aku akan cuba untuk menulis selepas ini.

buat masa sekarang, peribahasa "hangat-hangat tahi ayam" paling tepat untuk mendescribe perbuatan aku.

:D

semoga keluargaku, rakan-rakanku dan juga kamu dijauhi virus H1N1. berhati-hati ok?

update?

~heyyo! am still kicking and alive.

~except being buried by books and papers! (heeee.. tipu je =P)

~having crush on anastahir but found out he's got a girlfren.. sakinah name beliau.
uhuhuk.. patahlaaa hati. HAHAHAHAHA.

~scratch that!

~but anyway.. i still like his singing.

~got exam on 18,19 and 22.

iff

some men are born great. others have greatness thrust upon them.

i'm demotivated and spiritless.

if and only if.

terbang~

aku ada ruang sendiri
jangan tanya kenapa dan mengapa
dewasa adalah aset aku
ceria selalu hingga ke tahap maksima
terbang bersama aku
jangan tuduh aku jahat sebelum kenal
aku tahu apa yang aku buat
tapi kamu tak pernah tahu!
hidup ini mesti bebas
makan, minum, bermain..
atau jangan buat apa-apa
ini adalah kehendak termaksima aku
tapi dihujungnya pasti ada sempadan
ingat tu!

lost

easter break officially ends today. urghhh am so lazy to go to uni.

boleh tak kalau nak tido lame lameeeeeee dan bile bangun je da dpt honors??

why it must be this hard?

demmit. why should i care so much about passing this course?

because u cant fail pandai. because u cant take failure. betol kan?

NO la pandai. it is just that i never face it before.

tipu. u r a failure all the way through your life. u fail this and that. remember? except ur grades. sure u can handle this one.

how can u say those were failures? the grade doesnt even exist for those things.

ahh well u can grade it urself. u knew it.

whateverrr! i have to pass this one.



other thing,

pernah tak...

kau rasa hidup seseorang itu mudah?
kau rasa dia tak layak terima semua itu?
kau rasa kau deserve bende tu lebih dari die.
kau rasa dia mengada-ada tapi masih dilayan dengan baik.

pernah tak...

kau fikir ada perbuatan kau melampaui batas?
kau fikir ada insan yang terasa hati dengan perlakuan kau?
kau fikir kata-kata kau itu kesat?
kau fikir seikhlas manakah pertolongan yang kau berikan


p.s. i am lost

sibukk

aku sibuk. sibuk dengan hal duniawi. setiap saat aku memikirkan bila aku akan dapat menyiapkan kerja sekolah yang diberikan oleh guru-guruku sebagai bekalan waktu cuti. aku sibuk memikirkan apakah code-code R yang betul untuk assignment statistik. aku sibuk merisaukan diri dengan persoalan luluslah aku/dapatkah aku menamatkan honors pada hujung tahun ini.

kadang-kadang aku terlupa masa itu hak Allah. nyawa itu hak Allah. kadang-kadang aku terlupa, andai aku mati esok adakah aku sudah cukup bekalan untuk dibawa menghadapYang Maha Esa, adakah aku akan mati dalam iman, adakah aku akan ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang diredhaiNya.

sungguh aku jauh beribu batu daripada kedua orang tuaku. daripada adik-adikku. cuma ada rakan taulan disini. aku mahu mati di sisi mak dan ayah, di sisi adik-adikku. sempatkah aku memohon maaf kepada mereka, kepada semua orang yang pernah kusakiti, yang pernah ku kasari, yang pernah ku umpat, yang pernah ku ambil hak mereka dengan sengaja atau tidak.

setiap kali solat, aku ucap sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidup dan matiku hanya untuk Allah, tuhan semesta alam. cuma kadang-kadang aku tidak sedar akan itu. aku tidak menghayati maksudnya. begitu juga dengan bacaan-bacaan yang lain. solat sepatutnya mendamaikan hati. menenangkan jiwa.mehindarkan diri dari perkara keji dan mungkar. namun tidak aku rasai nikmat itu... kerana sesungguhnya aku sangat lalai.

tunjukkan kami jalan yang lurus, iaitu jalan orang-orang yang Engkau telah kurniakan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan jalan orang-orang yang Engkau murkai, dan bukan pula jalan-jalan orang yang sesat. [ayat 6-7 surah al-fatihah]

itu doa aku setiap hari. cuma aku tidak sedar. cuma aku lalai.

masa itu hak Allah. nyawa itu hak Allah. semua yang di langit dan di bumi itu hak Allah.

love is messy?

aku mahu test ego aku.

i'm the one who will usually give in at last.

lets see how high is my ego this time. haha.

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i love to hear how married couple met. how they fall in love.

hehe.

most stories that being told to me were about arranged marriage of their parents/uncles/aunts.

its amazing on how these people can stay together and stand each other at the early stage of their marriage (provided it was a 100% arranged marriage and that they never knew each other before).

i'm pretty sure the feeling of love will develop, will be there along the course. if not at once (say "jatuh cinta pandang pertama" when the guy puts the ring on probably? hehe), then it will for sure be built slowly, each second each minutes each day between the two of them. as the saying goes "tak kenal maka tak cinta".

so yeah when they were living together under one roof, they have lotsa time to fall in love kan? hahaha.


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what im trying to say is.. they still make a good couple and a happy marriage that lasted till the last heartbeat.

so the question is.. whether love/boyfren/girlfren-thingy-before-kawen is relevant?

well this is a very subjective one. provided that NOW we're not in those era.. where guys are more nice/more baek/more trustworthy. is it? hahaha. there might be some guy to run into me with a parang for this statement. huhu.

however provided that statement is true, it is relevant for us to know our partner first, before deciding to get married. kan?

BUT as we can see/hear, there were cases where marriage that being built on this platform got messed up and ruined.

BUT note. not all.

AND note. not all arranged marriage succeed.

oh crap.

this is getting more complicated and tougher.

i got combinatorics to think of. AND it is more important and relevant for me at this moment. hahaha.

anyway the conlusion for this crap is (i think)..
the choice is always upon us. we're big enough to make decision. so yeah..think! and think wisely! with your brain. not your heart. (BUT sometimes following our heart is better kan hehe).

"LU PIKIR AHH SENDIRI"

p.s. life is messy. love is messier. (Catch and Release 2007)

cOmel

this is sOoOo cuteee!!

membuatku tersenyum =)

tsk tsk

it is horrible when you cant understand something that you have to understand.
it makes me feel like wanna cry.
it makes me feel like wanna run away.
deep into the jungle or high above the sky.
it makes me think i'm so little in that world.
it makes me think i am stupid.
it makes me think i dont deserve to be there.
it is terrifying and suck when people near you keep smiling as if they understood that damn thing.
urghhh!!

postitive thinking aint a solution here.


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monink!

ke kiri ku buntu
ke hutan ku hilang
ke timur ku kosong

aku terus bosan dan tertekan
seperti waktu yang terus saja meninggalkan

aku jauh ke dasar kerak bumi
yang belum pernah diterokai

warna ku rindu
jiwa ku biru
menanggung cintaku
umpama si buta yang melihat syurga
umpama lampu yang mempunyai hitam
lalu menunggu aku terus

kini malam tiba lagi
kala ditinggalkan cahaya matahari
dibebankan
dengan bunyi rinjisan hujan

seperti mahu saja aku mengejar
gunung yang besarnya tidak terdakap
seperti itu jugalah
rindu aku pada ...

kini harus aku terus menunggu
atau hilang saja aku di lautan yang luas


.:selamat pagi cinta:.

cuti yeay!

i told Peter that Combinatorics was difficult. he said "math is hard. u just have to keep going". haha maybe he was assuming that i wanna drop that subject. or maybe it really was an honest thought/moral support for me. heh heh. i am dying to kick combinatorics out of my head! ops.

Easter break starts 13 april. means i have 2 weeks of holiday. no class. no lectures. sounds great isnt it? i only have a few things to do during these 2 weeks break. only a few things. yeah rite!

1. project stat482 computational statistics - still havent got ideas/topics

2. project stat435 time series which involves R (R is a statistical software which isnt user friendly at all haha). just got the question yesterday. oh lupe number (1) uses R as well. demmit.

3. assignment 2 stat435

4. COMBINATORICS ASSIGNMENTNSS!!

5. math409 test will be after this break. not sure the exact date.

6. probably will have another math409 assignment. have to wait till tomorrow to find out if any. pls Colin no assignment for the break!! if only he read this.


sOoOo sikit kan?

**menangis** haha!

happy coming easter holiday. which isnt a holiday at all. what a great life! -duh-

hatii

ada kalanya hati itu sangat teguh. tiada apa jua dapat mengubah setiap perkara/tindakan/keputusan yang diambil/dilakukan.

namun ada waktu hati itu lemah..

sehinggakan seringan-ringan perkara kelihatan amat berat untuk dipikul/dihadapi.

mencari semangat dan kekuatan bukan perkara mudah. ada yang tewas dalam perjuangan. tetapi mengalah sebelum memulakan langkah bukan tindakan cerdik pandai.

harapan merupakan sesuatu yang mampu memberi sinar dalam pencarian.

apabila hilangnya harapan itu, maka hilanglah semangat dan kekuatan. lantas hilang tujuan. dan ketika itulah hati dilemahkan.

persoalan hati itu suatu yang subjektif. kadang kala pemiliknya sendiri tidak berupaya untuk memahami. pelbagai soalan diajukan.

teguhnya hati/lemahnya hati itu bergantung kepada individu. jangan sampai hilang punca/arah. hidup itu penuh dengan dugaan.

jagalah hati. bila ia lemah, kuatkan. Dia sentiasa menjaga kita. usah gentar.

pbhttt!!

my fren posted this on fesbuk.

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Notice: These tips are applicable for Malay girls’ blogs only. My international friends may think it’s weird but our cultures are different so they may not think that these tips are cool.

How to Write a Girl’s Blog.

1.Talk About Fun Things

Leave it to men to write intellectual blogs, your blogs are about your sweet memories, hobbies, dream and fantasy. Say that you don’t care about the politics and economy because they’re boring so you don’t wish to think about them even for a minute. Talk about your favorite movies, shoes, food, actors and etc. If you want to do something fun in the future, say that you can’t wait for the fun moment. Don’t forget to also tell people about your dream and fantasy.


2.Show Your Shopping List

I have never met any girl who doesn’t admit that she’s a shopaholic. Thank God, they help to keep the economy moving but unfortunately their spouse’s wallets are getting thin. Make a list that shows the stuffs that you want to buy or you dream that you could have them. It’s better to show pictures of the exact things that want to add to your HUGE collection. I’ve seen body parts being added in the list as well. Oh, those girls probably want to have a plastic surgery someday.


3.Talk About Your Stress

I would make an official statistic if I have time but for now, I believe that 98% of the word ‘stress’ in all blogs in the world is in girls’ blogs. Rant about your school, work, co-workers, assignments and everything so you can to tell people how stressed you are.


4.Talk About Your Crush

Guys have crush too but they don’t write about it in their blog. Girls have to describe how in love they are since they first met the ‘handsome guy’. Explain the details like the guy’s hair, chest, eyes, arms, smile and etc. Don't do that if you're not single. Instead, talk about your boyfriend and say that he’s really sweet.


5.Add Background Image and Music

Don’t use plain background color. Instead, use fancy background image with suitable color that makes your blog looks ‘cute’. Be sure the background image is fancy enough to make it’s hard to read your posting. If you know how to do it, add background music as well. It may be annoying as hell but who cares, it’s your blog!


6.Simplify Your Words

This is more obvious in girl’s IM, Facebook wall post and SMS rather than in blogs but there are some girls who also simplify words in blogs as if they’re too lazy to move their fingers. This is an example: “ble ah nk abes prjk nie, dh tensen dah ni.. tringin nk gi shah alam jpe membe, windoo kat diowg..kes kes kes.. nti ujonk bln ak ngan bbdk ofis gi trip kat sabah, abes duwet gji ak, hahaha..rse mls nk gi tp dh diowg ajk so ak on je la ;-)”


7.Decorate Your Blog with Capital Letter and Symbol

This is not interesting. ThiS iS iNteRestiNg ;-). Don’t mAkE yOUr bl0g lO0k plAiN and dull, usE cApiTaL letteRs and sYmb0Ls to dEcorate iT. Don’t uSe 1337. 1337 aRe fOr n00bs, nOt giRLs.


8.Show Pictures of You and Your Friends

What kind of girl’s blog that doesn’t have pictures in it? Shows you and your friends’ pictures and say that you really miss them. It could be old pictures or photos from your recent holiday trip. Be sure the pictures are cute and you don’t look fat in the pictures. Be sure all your female friends look nice in the pictures too or they will be ranting about it in the comment section.


9.Show That You Know About Brands

Don’t take it wrong, it not about the brands of cars, basketball shoes, laptops, game consoles, cell phones and operating systems. It's about the brands for fashion. Share your knowledge about the nice brands for shoes, perfumes, skirts, make ups, dresses, handbags and anything that you’re dying to have them. Remember, it has to be the latest brands, not the old ones.


10.Talk About Entertainment

This might be confusing because anything can be entertainment. For me, seeing Dr Khir Toyo loses in election in an entertainment. What I mean about the entertainment in girl’s blog is MTV, Hollywood, filem Melayu, America’s Next Top Model and the new album of a handsome rock singer. If you have a lot of knowledge about them, then why talk about the economy? Talk about the entertainment!


11.Poems and Lyrics

If you wrote a poem, then share it in you blog. If there's a song that touches your heart, the share the lyric in your blog!


12.Overall
Here’s a good rule of thumb. The more people’s IQ drop when they read the blog, the better the blog is.


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well..

1. maybe he's not the one who wrote this in the first place.

2. i dont know what was the writer's intention. maybe saje2 nak kongsi pendapat or maybe berniat untuk mengutuk kaum perempuan?

3. i did most of the things mentioned. so what? macam lah lelaki yg tulis blog tak buat. and macamlah perempuan mat saleh tak buat.

4. aku rase writer ni memang saje nak kutuk perempuan melayu.


pbhttt!!

Bday N Wii

today kami celebrate birthday dayang.

after that kami menggilaaaaaaa maen Wii. we sport. we fit. we cheer. heh heh.

in conclusion, harini sangat penat sampai tak larat nak tulis in details.













\'-'/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYANG!!!



p.s. photos courtesy of mohammad izzuan termedi. grazie mille!

RAM

laptop aku previously gune DDR2 533Mhz ram. tapi speed yg asal time aku beli laptop ni ialah 400Mhz. aku, cik izah and cik sarah nak upgrade ram. disebabkan kitorg buta IT, kami pon tanyalah beberapa orang yang pakar. actually kami tak payah nak susah2 tanye if kami gune ram yang same speed. tapi disebabkan ram yang sale tu speed die 667Mhz, kene la tanye orang. kang kalo dah beli tak compatible naye je.

so ade yang kate 533 bole je kalo nak gune 667. and ade yang kate tak bole. nanti die tak detect. or cair. and pendapat yg paling up sket ialah nnt laptop tu meletop (hahaha..ops..maybe org tu exaggerate sahaje.) but being me, yang naive hakhak, innocent and buta IT haruslahhhhh percayee kan?

one of us memang sah2 tak mahu gune 667. tapi aku dan lagi sorang amek tindakan berani mati(konon la kan) beli jugak.

nak tahu result die?

bolos saja ram itu!

hahaha. bolehhhh bang. actually kalo DDR2 ram bole je nak upgrade speed lagi tinggi. for example mcm laptop aku yg asalnye speed 400Mhz, bole je nak gune 553, 667 or even 800.

anywayy aku berani sampai 667 je la. 800 tu semacam tinggi sangat. kang meletopp. hehehe =P


p.s. sometimes we have to act and think differently than we used to do. sometimes we have to take risk. maybe it will trouble us. but it will definitely make us discover and learn something new.

spie5

weekend yang relax gile!

.:ini kami:.

penggune totallyspie5. heh heh.

beriani

the little taste of mathematics =P

mathematical logic

combinatorics

rase macam nasik beriani yg tak berape nak gam + kurma ayam yang aku makan dinner tadi.


haha.. tipu gile! that beriani and kurma ayam were far far more better than mathematics.


and one thing for sure..
one feeds my stomach. the other one makes me hungry.

rasa..

cepat sungguh masa berlalu...

rasa baru semalam ambil upsr.
menangis time ambil result. sebab dapat 4A 1B. hahaha. budak2. sains dapat B. actually da expect. sbb time sit paper tu aku diserang sakit kepala. tapi sbb sume kwn2 rapat aku dapat 5A, aku rasa sedih la kan.

rasa baru semalam ambil pmr.
time result keluar, aku on the way balik kampung belah ayah aku. aku singgah sekejap kat sekolah. tapi result belum keluar lagi time tu. so aku terus balik kampung. aku pon taktau kenape aku tak tunggu sampai result kua. then petang tu dalam pukul 2 or 3 aku pi sekolah balik. semua kawan2 aku da ambil result and dah balik pon. da takde student lg da time tu. aku sorang je. aku pegi office and mintak result. tetibe makcik kerani tu cakap congrats. haha. rasa macam blur la pulak. lagi satu, aku terlepas sesi fotografi untuk budak2 yang dapat stret A. ade 4 orang termasok aku.

rasa baru semalam ambil spm.
aku sekolah kat sains muar time ni. so datang sekolah sehari lebih awal dan tido kat dorm dengan junior. ambil result kat dewan. ikut kelas masing2. sebab result dah ada dengan guru kelas. tak ikut turutan pon. sape rase dah sedia nak tengok result pegi mintak kat cikgu. aku tunggu kawan aku ambik dulu, then baru aku ambik. alhamdulillah. 100+ dak2 sekolah aku dapat stret A time tu.

dan..

rasa baru semalam jugaklah aku jejak kaki kat bumi wellington. tup tap tup tap dah 3 tahon berlalu. dah dapat degree pon.

cuma tinggal setahun je lagi. setahon jeeeeee lagi untuk habiskan honors ni.

tapi..

tadi haz and izzu dah drop combinatorics. dorang amik differential geometry pulak. membuatkan aku kembali berfikir adakah aku telah membuat keputusan yang betul.





tolong aku.
aku harap masa akan berlalu dengan pantas tahun ini.

potensi

aku ada assignment due hari jumaat ini. masih belum siap. tapi tiba-tiba aku dijangkiti penyakit malas dan bosan.

"malas" yang aku hidapi tidak meliputi semua perkara atau aspek dalam hidup aku.

contohnya, aku malas buat kerja sekolah tapi aku rajin meluangkan masa aku dengan aktiviti yang kurang berilmiah. kurang saja. bukan langsung tidak.

"bosan" pun sama. aku cuma bosan mengadap buku berunsur akademik tetapi aku tidak bosan dengan buku berunsur kurang-berakademik.

aku tidak tahu dan tidak faham bagaimana dengan sikap cepat malas dan cepat bosan yang aku hidapi ini boleh membawa aku ke tahap ini.

mungkin aku bernasib baik.

atau mungkin.. seperti dalam cerita 'Jo dan Faridah'

*** you've got the potential!***
***P to the O ti the T to the E to the N to the T to the I to the A to the L***
***POTENSI***
*** P-O-T-E-N-S-I***
***awak ada potensi!***
***potential dalam bahasa inggeris. potensi dalam bahasa melayu***

ahh. sudahlah!

we've all got inborn potential. cuma kadang-kadang kita tidak sedar dengan potensi diri. banyak tidur mungkin. atau banyak berangan?

sOoOo.. kesimpulannya..

hoi! kau tak reti nak bangun ke? nak tunggu 'potensi' kau mamposs?

ops. kesatkah bahasa ku? minta maaf.

combinatorics

everyday class aku start pukol 9am. except ari rabu. punyela malas kan nak pi class pagi-pagi. namun aku harus kuatkan semangat. heh heh.

arini rase down gile lepas class combinatorics. ntah ape2 ntah yg colin tu ajar. ibarat masok telinge kanan kua telinge kiri. subjek tu depends 100% on internal assessments. so sangatlah cuak memikirkan mcmmane nak jawab soklan2 assignment die nnt.

anyway petang tadi aku pi joging kat kelburn park. angin sangatlah kuat. tapi stil nak pegi jugak sbb nak bace buku malas and dah tido pon before asar tadi. cam agak ramai orang gak la kat situ. some tengah practis maen cricket. rasenye laa. i'm not very sure sbb tak pakai spek or contact lenses. haha. ade gak yg tengah joging. and maen bola sepak. sume mat saleh la tapi. malaysian tak nampak pulak. lagipon if ade dak malaysia nak maen bola, dorang selalunye maen kat boyd wilson.

this coming may 20 is my graduation day. cik izah ade presentation on that day. so she couldnt come. hopefully jeni can make it there.

pesta makan

hmm kehidupan aku sebagai honors student masih belom terserlah lagi. aku masih tidak pasti lagi dengan subjek2 yang aku ambil. ntahla. kalau nak tuka pon sebenarnye aku takde pilihan. so tepakse ahh stick dengan subjek tu. aku suke 100 level math sahaje. integrate and differentiate. tak payah nak serabot kan otak dengan theorem yang berbunga2 bahase die.

since ari sabtu aritu rezeki aku melimpah ruah. my food marathon started last saturday with bbq party at flat 3 waiteata. last year ade fish n chip. and banyak bende yang kitorang boleh makan compared to this year. kali ni kami cuma makan burger cosLo (haha) and sayo sayorAn panggang. alhamdulillah. masih beruntung. cume xdekla sesedap makan nandos kat courtney place. heh heh.

then after that bbq party, we went to ila's house for their house warming party. lots of delicious food! on sunday pulak, we went to everton 21 for kay's birthday party. mereka tempah food from Cinta. aku melantak mi goreng hot cinta dengan suka hatinya that i feel like i dont wanna eat any more mee goreng for the next one month. hehe.

and todayyyyyyyyy... university hall's pizza nitEE! ade vege and seafood pizzas. yang seronok nye we had a game before the pizzas arrived. we are given a hundred dollar note during our entry (fake one opkos). during the game, we had to challenge anybody with that money and collect as much money as we can. u can do whateva u want. tossing coin. play scissor, paper n stone, or we malaysian played burung, batu dan air. haha. i lost the only note that i have to Ain. arghhhhh. then after that, Hanna (she was my RA last year) gave me another two hundred dol. yeayy! but anyway i also lost that money to Shaza and Fred. huhu. i'm not that lucky with 'gambling' huh. Fred managed to collect 14 hundreds. i tot he can win the challenge but there was this girl with 37 hundreds in her hand. wOw!

i was SoOoO kenyang makan pizza. but bile balek rumah, i open the periuk and makan nasik+sambal ikan bilis. haha. penat o cik izah masak. i just being NiCE. (haha alasan si kuat makan =P).

nonaa

haz sudah bertunang. ila juge sudah. dayang, sarah, and cik izah bakal bertunang. end or this year or takpon next year.

hmmm..

aku mahu bertunang juge. or kawin terus. aku tak kisah. mane2 yang datang dulu. mungkin aku patot suruh mak ayah aku start carikkan jodoh untuk aku? tapi aku nak jugak carik sendiri. jatuh cinta dan bercinta. ops.

aku tak boleh la kan nak carik sendiri ni. sebab..

1. orang yang aku suke tuu selalunye lemak berkrim disukai ramai. susah nak bersaing2 ni.
2. aku antisos? mungkin.
3. aku sombong dan tak pandai bercakap? mungkin juge.
4. aku kekok dengan opposite gender. sbb hidup aku dikelilingi wanita2.

aku suke orang yg tinggi. tak gemok. tak kurus sgt. ala2 sebesar Awal. or pierre andre. rambot tak skema. panjang serabot2 pon takpe. rambot perm macam Tajol dunia baru or vokalis Hujan pon aku suke. aku suke orang yang nampak cool dan macho. hahaha.

aku tak suke perokok. tapi aku selalunye tersangkot kat org camtu. buktinye ialah jaz seorang perokok. haha. mungkin merokok nampak mocho? hmm. aku tak setuju.

anywayy abaikan bende di atas. sebenanye aku teringin nak masok pengacara jemputan Nona. itulah angan2 aku sejak Nona mula mengadakan pertandingan tersebot. heh heh.

p0c0

menari poco-poco. pada waktu malam. with friends that u treasure. will be one of my sweet memories that some day will lit a smile on my face n lighten my heavy heart when i'm standing alone near the window, getting all worried, waiting for my love ones to come home safely.

really it doesnt take too much effort to build one sweet memory with people that u care/love. just do any activity together and enjoy that very moment.




aku nak cakap yang seriously aku tak reti menari.

haha. tapi..

aku akan buat yg terbaek untuk memperbaiki step poco-poc0 aku. hakhak.

juxtapose

firstly hepi birthday to razif. aku kenal dia masa buat preparation kat uniten. i dont know him that much. but i can say that he's a nice guy, suke buat lawak. dia sambung honors kat vic uni this year. now ni ade banyak budak2 ppou kat sini. selain razif, ade haz, izu, sarah, dayang, ija, ila, pali and kung. bile masuk class, rase mcm kat malaysia pulak. sbb banyak malay. and rasa macam.. kami yg conquer class tu. hehe. conquer in terms of bilangan lah. i cant say anything in terms of understanding the materials that we've learnt. it's like "apekahh itu?"

today's the end of the first week of the first trimester. still not busy yet. i'm still marking 100 level math assignments this year. nothing much has changed about me and my life since i've finished my undegrad degree last year. i'm still that person that u've known before. i'm still staying at flat 5 waiteata though i've moved to a different room and have new flatmates. i'm still eager to get pin legs haha. i know dayang have heard that for million times! i still cant let out my anger towards other people. i still want to take care of other's feeling though it means i have to ignore my own feeling.

i wonder how it feels to be different than what i am now. i'm not saying that i'm a nice girl. but u can say that i'm nearly one. haha. anywayy i think maybe i should be more honest towards myself and people. marah bile rasa nak marah. say it out load whenever ada rase tak puas hati dengan orang instead of keeping it close to myself. would that make anyone around me turn away and leave me?

i dont have new years resolution for this year. and i dont think i ever had one. i mean the one that i really mean it as a resolution. untuk suke2 jwb org tanye maybe la ade. kot.

oh aku harap more bahagia akan datang untuk aku tahun ni. bukan nye selame ni aku tak bahagia. cuma i realllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy hope that He will topup my bahagia level. hehe.

ops dayang n sarah da ajak ber-poco-poco. ciao!

kapal terbang kertas

i'm still here. in wellington. doing honors. yes people. honors. despite of my thousand vows i made to myself before this that i'm not gonna do it. heh heh.

well.. i can say that interesting things happened on my way back to welly. i'm not feeling very well a day before my flight back. i arrived in Kota Kinabalu at 12am. my next flight was at 9.50 in the morning. by the way its domestic airport is different from its international airport. huhu. kenape aku tak tahu? so i took a cab to go to the international airport that is just 5-10mins away and it cost me rm30. sooo expensive. huhu.

oh before that in LCCT, i have to pay rm45 for the extra 3kg of my check-in luggage.

both handles of my luggage was broken.

malangnye!

anyway my flight that was scheduled at 9.50am get delayed because of a serious fluid leakage. malang lagi.

so we all waited in the departure hall until further notice. i told u before that i'm not feeling well. i threw up 2 times while waiting for that plane to get fixed. however, we discovered that they gonna take a longggggg time to fix it.

fyi, royal brunei flight transits in bandar seri begawan before flying to auckland. in that situation, i think of nothing but my connecting flight to auckland which is at 7.30pm. that i'm gonna miss it.

fortunately, there was another flight to bandar seri begawan at 6.05pm. i prayed hard that everything will go smooth. no more delay. no more fluid leakage. and that i will arrive in bandar seri begawan just in time for my next flight.

in the meantime, we all been transfered to Novotel Hotel in KK for a few hours. free food. free room. but worries suffocating me still.

i can only breath out a relief after that 6.05pm flight landing safely in bandar seri begawan. i went straight to the transfer desk to pick up my boarding pass. after a few clicks, she told me that all the seats in economy class were full and she had to upgrade my ticket to business class. hehehehehe. senyum lebar :D. *petanda naseb malang ku sudah berakhir* hopefully.

i arrived safely in auckland the next day. as scheduled. and took another flight to wellington.

best o naek business class! hehe.

that's all about my journey back to welli!

p.s. banyak polis cute kat KK international airport that day. haha.

update

update setelah lame berade di malaysia. hahaha. many things happened i guess. a week after balek i registered myself for driving classes. oh sangatla panas time belaja tu. sebbaek register tok kereta sahaje. kalo moto skali aduh sure cik izah tak kenal kite kt welly nnt. hahaha. betambah hitam. da la mmg itam pon.

first test jpj kite fail. kat jln raye. hahaha. tak suke gile pakcik jpj tuu. senyap nk mam. da la ku cuak nk mampos. lg menakotkan dari estate. huhu. disebabkan die kite fail jln raye. can i put it like that?? hahaha. pastu bukit, parking n tiga penjuru kite pas la kan. next week tuu amek test lg skali. buat jln raye je la. alhamdulillah pas jugak. this time jpj die baekkkkkkkkkkk!! hahaha. cikgu kite ckp "kamu ni asal pass je jpj baek. kalo tak pass jahat". ahahahaha.. biase la tu kan?

hazirah bertunang!! ngn izu of course. congrats tu both of u. n hari yg same handphone ku hilang. ade org amek la kot. kalo misplace haz sure da jumpe by now. anywayy my instinct pon ckp ade org amek henpon tuu bile kite tgk da takde atas meja solek tu. takdek rezeki. tapi GERAMMMMMMMMM kepade org yg mengambil nye. huh.

pastu a few days later p maxis centre. sebbaek kene rm10 je utok dpt nombor yg same. kalo x kite gune nombor baru la kan. tp sebenarnye tak suke nk gune nombo laen. rase seperti nombor itu sudah sebati ngn diriku. cewahh. hahhaa. so for my frens, u can contact me using the same number ok.

hmm.. ku rase takot ngn instinct sendiri. sebab ia selalu nya betol.

p.s. sampai welli 22 feb.. huhu.