tahukahh

tahukahhhh..

-saye da abes exammmmm!! alhamdulillah.

-saye akhirnyee keluar dari kepompong waiteata setelah 1 bulan terpenjara. huahuahua.. saye sgt gembiree tahap maksimass!

-saye pegi queensgate arini. beli 2 cardigans n 2 tshirt. and makan espetada kt nandos.

-saye jadi liaison lincoln uni for besatu games.

-saye tak saket pale ariniiiiiii!!!

-tapi agak sedey dan takot dan cuak sebab pagi tadi saye tnye tian tian how she felt about our analysis exam. tau die jawab ape? "that's not bad". uwaaaaaaaaa.. "tongongnyeeee" saye!! saye sangat2 berharap chris atkin tak sampai ati nak bagi saye grade fail. huhu..

-nyesal pi tanye tian tian. now it haunts me so much.

-saye ter-rindu mamat2 pandai di kelas saye. huahuahua..

-saye check student record smlm dan arini. sbb saye taw result saye takkan kluar dalam mase tedekat ni. ngeh3.

hmm

saye geram bole takk? huhu.. maybe kecik ati sket. saye kan sensitip. hahaha.. tapi tak bermakne saye amek ati. tadi time mkn saye cam buat muke stress sket kot. saye risau pasal exam esok. banyak study tak bermaksud paham. byk study sbb saye mmg tak paham. bile saye kate tak phm dan susah, saye betol2 maksudkannye. tapii nape ade yang tak percaye. ingat bile saye study banyak saye bole paham ke? ingat saye nii pandai tahap dewa ke? ataupon saye tak layak nk ckp susah or tak paham? saye pon mcm dorg jugak. tak sume bende saye bole paham. at least kasik laa support cakap saye bole buat ke. ni takk. bole pulak tak pecaye bile saye ckp susah dan tak paham. saye rase macammm.. ntahlaaa. saye anggap diorg gurau2 je. takkan saye nk marah bile dorg ckp camtu plak kan. saye bukan mcm tu. kan bagus kalo mereka memahami ape yg saye rase. bile dorg tak pecaye ape yg saye ckp.. saye rase lagi tension nk amek pekse esok. saye tak pandai. sbb tu kene study gile2. tak mcm dorg. study sket pon bole pass. saye tak marah. saye tak amek ati. really. just sedey.huhu..

byebye analysis

i took a late shower lasnite. near 12am. something tat i rarely do. i took a very long one. as if it could wash away my headache and of course my frustration and sadness towards analysis exam. 32 marks already gone to a waste. i never expect questions like state Liouville's thm and prove it from Cauchy integral formula or Cauchy derivative formula. there are NEVER question like that in last three years exam. Another question is something about Langrange's form of Taylor's theorem + remainder theorem. i didn't read about all that and i really don't know what the exact form of that theorems are. now only 68 marks left. and i have to get 50/68 to barely pass this course. would that be possible? i'm not really confident my answers for the rest of the questions that i attemped would meet Chris's standard. i just hope the other 7 troops feel the same. else i would be in big trouble! there are just 8 of us taking the exam btw. hmm..maybe joshua could get 100. ok make it the other 6. or wait.. maybe 4. coz the other 2 guys who always sitting at the back row are also smartasses. huaaaaaaaaaa..

perhaps it's only me who tongong ( cik elle, 08) in that class! haha.. interesting~

but i still believe Allah will help me. there is a thing called miracle. who knows it's for me this time.

i'm glad that my sis got the letter that i sent like 2/3 weeks ago. hahaha.. there is harta karon in it. i really dont want it to be lost in the mail.

still not done with exam. hakhak. menarik tertarik exam memang the bomb!

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you get to get go
you get to get going
the world ain't slowing down
for no one

kopiko

saye tak penah pecaye kopi dapat ilangkan mengantok. tapi di kale musim peperiksaan ini, saye minom kopi untuk ilangkan ngantok walopon tak ilang jugak. haha.. ia adelah semate-mate untuk sedapkan ati yg saye ade usahe nk ilangkan mengantok. hahaha.. ape-ape ajelaa!

same case bawak buku/notes pegi mane2 kalo ade comin exam. walopon pade hakikat nye takkan bace dan takkan sentuh. asal ati sedap sudeyh. ngeh3~

nerd kah itu..hmm..

from wikipedia- nerd refers to a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests that are age inappropriate rather than engaging in more social or popular activities.

oh begitukah?? sOoOo saye bukan nerd la. hahaha..

saye tak suke study. saye lagi suke membuang mase dgn perkare2 yg kurang berfaedah and less mind-challenging. tapi buat mase skrg, saye kenelaa study instead of melagha. sbb saye dibaya untuk belaja. itu adelah satu tanggungjawab. huahua.. lagipon saye study time skolah n time nk exam ja.

esok ade exam. tapi semaken melagha pulak. adesh! sebenanye.. saye sudah pasrahh. huhu..

bad boy

i should be studying now!! haha.. but cannot go (dgn nada yg cik izah suke ok). tadi bace blog kaknuha pasal good girls fall for bad boys. hmm.. bukan nk ckp saye adelah good girl (gud la jugak kot. haha..), tapi saye rase saye adelah dalam itu golongan gud girl falls for bad boy. as far as i could remember pencerah2 agong saye (except lecturers) fall dalam category bad boy. not bad bad. u knoww.. but not gud gud. paham?? hahaha.. abaikan.

yang penting saye mudah terattrack, terjatuh, tercair, terminat dan tertunggang terbalek dgn kaum adam yg mempunyai trait seperti itu. huahua..

kenape? hmm.. ntahlaa. saye rase mereka lebey macho kot. haha..

saye juge mudah tersuke dgn lelaki yg athletic, maen sport. contohnye volleyball. tgk die serve bola, set bola, n esp time buat spike. fuiyyoo.. cayak2. sbb itu time skolah dulu saye maen volley. sbb saye suke usha mereka maen. and pencerah agong saye pon maen volley. huahua.. tp after spm, saye da tak penah dgr pasal die lg. frenster die pon saye takdek.

perhaps after this i should fall for gud boy plak. hahaha..

or mamat pandai tahap dewa seperti joshua
or mamat cute dan pandai seperti mamat yg kuku kecik tu (xtau name. haha..)
or pensyarah mude, pandai dan comel sperti lecturer math214/07

apesal kene ade pandai ni? hahahha.. mungkin itu adelah satu lagi trait yg buat saye tercair. hmm..

"pandainyee die. cair cair." haha~~

merapu apekah ini??

bye2 algebra

done with algebra. takmo elaborate. huhu.. saye dah takmo belaja algebra lagi daaa!!!

tadi time nk register name tok amek exam, kite dgn confidentnye kasik calling card kat orang tu. teperanjat die. hahaha.. kite tak prasan ponn senanye itu ialah bukan student id card. haish!! cuak punye pasal. sebbaekk id card yg btol2 mmg ade dalam beg. tapi..kalo takdek id card, bole je amek exam kot. tapi after exam kene pegi identify diri kat office.

pasni analysis n statistic plakk. adekah saye satu-satunye pelajar malaysia di wellington yg abes exam 25june? down gile. huhu..

time breakfast pagi tadi, borak2 sket ngn dak2 ni. then tetibe terkluaar topik wmso book record. hahaha.. cik jenii.. ape kate anda buat wmso book record. then kite nak apply untuk orang yg paling lame tak kuar rumah. hehehe..

^-^

anywayy..berusahalah!! gambarimasu!!

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inginnya ku mengeluh
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mencari jawab pasti

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raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

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mungkinkah semua tanya
kau yang jawab

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itu pula dirimu
ku bersumpah akan mencinta


this song reminds me about samura. hehe.. de sorg mamat ni maen gitar ngn lagu ni. cairr!!! hahaha.. saye mahu seseorang yg bleyh maen gitar untuk saye.

esok exam. bedeba2. semoge dipermudahkan segalenye.

little thing

tadi rumah kami ade tetamu. doktor aseng datang untuk meng-operate laptop cik elle. haha.. in particular, to insert a new ram. now laptop cik elle is faster than ever. hahaha.. and mine? doctor said tinggal nyawa2 ikan. hahaha.. dont mind laa. i just use my laptop to save pics, docs, ym, songs, and a bit of typing2. perhaps after finishing my exam, i will look for an additional ram and ask kay to format my laptop.perhaps mintak tolong aseng kaa. mane2 laa. if rajen and ade mood laaa kan.

my first exam is this saturday. i don't feel like i am ready for it. i don't know why everything seems difficult. i really hate this feeling. maybe i'm so nervous for the fact that my exam is one after another. not 3 days in a row though. but still 21, 23 n 25 can be considered as berderet kan?

by the way, i asked aseng about my headache. and he said it could be migrain. byk jenis saket kepale and migrain. so btol kot. saye amatlah senang dpt saket kepale. since i was little. kalo time skolah, bleh kate everyday saket kepale. and everyday jugak laa telan paracetamol. haha.. but now saye cube untuk kurangkan.

saye sangat laa tidak sabar untuk habiskan exam sbb saye da tak larat nk tahan saket kepale ni. saye nak cuti dan rehatkan kepale dan otak saye.

saye ade buat status "saye perlukan semangat. de sesape nk kasik?" kat ym. and adelah beberape ym saye. mekaseh atas semangat2 anda. anda buat saye gembire. haha..

sometimes.. a little tiny weeny thing that you do can make people happy without u realize it.

hindustan mood

mengantok gilee time study tadi!! haha.. then tetibe kua topik hindustan. cik izah sebot tajok2 cite and i try to recall the song. huaaaaaaa.. it really remind me about my good old days. dulu zaman muda2 esp form 1,2,3 rasaa cam tak penah miss tgk cita industan evry week. plus all the girlsl in my family mmg satu kepale. sume akan tgk hindustan. ayah opkos tak bole lawan. kami conquer tv. hahaha.. and anip time tuu kecik lg. takdek perasaan ngn tv. acher plak blom ade lg. ngeh3~

cik izah kata kalo ade hindustan language kt sini mesti kite amek. hmm.. rasenyee btol kot. coz for me their language is very beautiful. i did learnt some hindustani words though while wacthing their movies. but noww daa lame gile gile tak tgk cite hindustan. soOoOo lupe laa kan. haha..

beta/beti - anak lelaki/perempuan
dos - fren
pooja - bulan
shadi - kawen
zindegi - life
bol - cakap
pyar- sayang
mera nam- name saye

p.s. abaikan the ejaan. for sure salah. hahaha.. and the meaning..am not really sure. ngeh3~

suke ngn lagu dlm movie "gangga". can't really recall the exact title. but lagu die lebey kurang "tere menti gangga, tere menti jumnaka, bola radha bola radha bola ke nehi" and suke dgn instrument yg mamat tu gune.. taktaw name ape. huhu.. die maen gune tgn.

banyak lagi lagu/cite industan yg best.

arghh!! hindustan mood!! vs study. huahuahua..

plane

saket gigi datang lagi. oh oh. saye sangat teruja! apesal laa wisdom tooth ni takmo tumbuh sekaligus. ni sket2. i can't afford to layan my saket gigi now. not until i finish my war. war?? yeah WAR. the real war. hAHahahA.. i'm crying in the rain..

today my hommies went out to buy some food so that we are able to live in the next two weeks. hAhaha.. coz we nearly run out of food. ayam tinggal 4 ketol sajos. sayoq pon da abes. sardin da abes. udang tinggal skali masak. teloq zealth! huhu.. gile kesian. but saye tak pegi. sedikit rase bersalah di situ. huhu.. tapi sayeeee.. saye.. saye just tak bole. demit. saye tak bole dan takmo kuar dr rumah nii pon sampai laa abes exam. thanks for their understanding. huhu.. oh saye tersangatlah merane. fullstop.


if ...

if ...

if ...

if and only if.

they are words. and words that all i have.

^when everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind. not with it^

i have to be a plane!

p.s. saye penah berangan nk kawen ngn pilot. ahahaha..

zephyr

arini birthday kaklang.

^hEpY BUrFdAy KakLaNg!!!^

sebbaek tak lupe. maklumlahh. bile tak skolah.. ari dan tarikh melayang ntah ke mane. hehe.. arini otak saye terase amatlah berat. kenape?

jengjengjeng..

sebab dipenuh oleh ilmu analysis. saye ulang. analysis. ahahaha.. the toughest undergraduate math paper. believe it or not. walaupon baru bace sket.. rase mcm nk temuntah2 daaa.

kenape saye amek??

ntahlaaa. mathematician kan gile. saye mathematician (kot). so by transitivity.. saye dotdotdot. ahahaha.. oh tidak! saye bukan.

p.s. doakan saye pass sume paper sem ni.

taktau transitivity ape?? pegi jumpe mathematician. hahaha..

tadi call angah. she and her frens are searching for a house to rent. they only have less than one month to complete their studies. i've read in utusan that our country need more nurses. so i hope she will get a job soon after she's graduated. leh mintak doit from her. ngeh3~

mamat got silver in sukma. congrats!

math dan lelaki

cik izah kata rambot pendek nampak muda. hahaha.. leh caya kaa? rambot sudah semaken panjang. wuwuwuwu.. kali ni mcm takmo potong. jeles tgk org rambot panjang. tp rambot pjg cepat putus + senang saket kepale. keguguran rambot third year nii amat menakotkan. hahaha.. patotlaa lecturer2 math ku yg lelakii kelihatan seolah2 botak dan rakan2 sekelasku yg laki2 ponn menghampiri botak. tapi lecturer pompuan ade plak rambot. lebat lak tuu. contohnye Ivy. hmm.. kenapekah?

sume lecturer math ku ialah lelaki. is that mean lelaki lagi pandai math than perempuan? hmm..
shud ask my frens at other uni. wat survey psl gender lecturer math dorg. hahaha..

oh cepatlah abes exam! saye nk buat survey ituuu. haha..

unstable

sakit kepale yg amat sgt :(

Ya Allah.. berikan ku kekuatan. permudahkan segala urusanku. amin.

cinta

aku lihat
aku dengar
dia, mereka, kamu
jatuh cinta
dilamun cinta
bercinta
putus cinta juga
heh =P

aku lihat
aku dengar
dia, mereka, kamu
bahagia
merana
menangis
ketawa

menangis..
kerana terluka
kerana kecewa
oleh cinta
ada juga kerana bahagia
haha..

ketawa..
kerana gembira
kerana bahagia
oleh cinta

ops!
ada juga yang ketawa kerana sedih
hmm..

cinta oh cinta
penuh ceria
penuh hiba
penuh warna
penuh cerita

jatuh cinta
indah. noktah.
kalau tak percaya cubalah
rasa macam..
makan tak kenyang
mandi tak basah
tidur tak lena
tipikal! haha..

putus cinta
sangat merana
jangan sesekali terasa ingin mencuba
tapi..kalau tak percaya juga
cubalah..haha..

rasa macam
lagu tiada irama
tarian tanpa rentak
simfoni tidak harmoni
hambar dan sepi

semua itu
aku tak tipu
aku tahu
kerana aku
pernah lalui jalan itu

tapi aku
dia, mereka dan kamu
andai pernah kecewa
andai pernah terluka
seringkali terlupa

masih berani
masih mampu untuk menyinta
dan
masih mampu untuk bercinta

pelik kan..

dan yang lagi pelik
masih mampu menyinta dan bercinta
lebih dari apa
yang kita pernah ada
dan pernah rasa..


-nma-


hahahaha.. teringin nak bercerite pasal chentaaa sbb terbace kisah orang.

sekian..terima kasihh~~

menyanyi

saye tidak mahu merungut tentang analysis ni. tapiii.. saye tak mampu! kenape saye rase die susah? adekah die betol2 susah? atau kepandaian saye sudah semakin merosot? adekah ia cume psychology saye sahaje yg selalu memikirkan ianya susah sedangkan ianya adelah senang? saye keep fighting dengan otak saye bahawe saye akan dapat memahami analysis ini. tetapi setiap kali saye cube menyiapkan assignment ni, hati saye hancur luluh, berkecai. saye terase seperti hendak menangis. tetapi apelah yg ade dengan air mata. ia bukan penyelesai segale masalah. saye sangatlah susah nak menahan air mate. agak-agaknya air mata saye tersangat banyak sampai die senang nk mengalir keluar. atau empangan air mate saye tidak kukuh. hmm..

saye terase persekitaran saye sedikit berubah. suasana dan orang-orang. mungkin saye berfikir terlalu banyak. mungkin analysis menyebabkan saye menjadi super sensitif terhadap bende2 kecil.

saye perlu seseorang yang membuat saye mahu menyanyi.
saye perlu seseorang untuk menyanyi untuk saye. :(


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menyanyi kerana sedih
menyanyi kerana rindu
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