kehidupan

setiap orang itu unik
ada keistimewaan sendiri
tinggi lampai kecil molek
pendiam peramah
kadang-kadang ada persamaan dengan orang lain
tetapi kita masih unik

adakah kita memahami diri sendiri sepenuhnya?

kadang-kadang kita memaksa diri
kadang-kadang kita menipu diri
buat apa yang kita tak suka

hipokrit kah itu?

tapi bukan itu ke kehidupan?

kadang-kadang kita senyum bila sedih
kita senyum bila marah
kita senyum bila benci

macam makan cili padi
sangat pedas
tapi kita masih mampu tersenyum
seolah-olah manis macam madu

kenapa perlu semua itu?
kenapa perlu berpura-pura?

hipokrit kah itu?

kehidupan. hidup. kita hidup dengan kehidupan. kita hidupkan kehidupan kita.

cuma tenang dipermukaan
dan didasarnya bergelora
persoalan demi persoalan
membelenggu akal dan fikiran
tidak ku temu jawapan

26, 21, 22

called paksu just now to congratulate on his newly born baby girl. baru jaa lahir semlm tapi da ade name =). but lupe laa kan. nor *something* akidah. pjg sangat. huhu.. paksu daa ade 3 kids. and all girls! haha.. girls rulez~

then paksu tnye bile abes. i said end of this year if tak sambong buat honors. and then he went on and on asking and persuade me to sambong. heh heh. nyesal bitaw paksu. huhu..

paksu: setahon je lagi long. biar abih sumo sonang.
me: along da maleh laa paksu. hehe..
paksu: ado bezo ko sambong ko tak sambong?
me: hmm.. kalo sambong nanti sonang laa nk buek master ko phd ko.. tapi along bukan nk buek master pon. nak jadi cekgu yo.
paksu: sambonglaa. kalau boleh sambong, sambong laaa.
me: (ayakk) tapiii mak koba takpo. hahaha..
paksu: tuu omakk
me: cehhh. huhu.. tapi kalo sambong da ompek tahon along tak ghayo kek msia. huhu..
paksu: takpolaaaa. nanti da abihh ghayo laaa pueh2.
me:huhu
paksu: nanti kua umo bapo? 26 ek? mudo laei.
me: haaaaaaaaaaa?? oh tidakk. hahahaha..


26 tuu mudo ko paksu oiiiiiii?? paksu kawen umo 21 ok. so kalo ikot standard paksu..along shud be married laa by now. cess~

aiman gyver

jom layan iklan petronas sempena hari kebangsaan ke 51 tahon inii.

=(

wisdom tooth kuu mengilaaaa arini. saket. called like 20 numbers but no dentist available. fully booked konon. huhu.. so pegi vuw student health. ade doktor but no dentist. got a temperature. 38.4. memang demam. gum around the tooth swelled. pipi pon swelled. was prescribed amoxycilin, ibuprofen n paracetamol. she said tak bole cabot lagi until the infection fully gone. tak bole cabot like NOWWW keeeeee?? =(

omsik. nak balek malaysia. omsik. omsik. omsik. sedeh. saket. saket. =(

saket amat

demam dan saket gigi yg amat sangat. nk bukak mulut besaq2 pon xbole. tadi nk makan ponn berchentaa. huhu.. cik izah ajak p jumpe doctor. tp kite ckp tunggu smp isnin. huhu.. aritu wisdom tooth ni da stop growing. tapi now die nk kua balek. dgn sangat mengganazz plak tu. huhu.. saket gile teramat. adekah akan kene operate?? sbb gigi tuu semacam sgt rapat dgn dinding pipi and semacam takdek space utk die. huhu.. takotnye!! cik izah kate takdek pape. takkan kene operate. tapi saye tak pecaye. O Allah.. please lessen this pain.. =(

meroyann

cuti semacam sudah bermulaaa bagi diriku. walauponn officially it'll be started this saturday. ngeh3. sbb esok ngn luse kite just ade satu class jaa. saye suke final sem nii!! bersusah payah dolu, bersenang-senang sekarang. hahaha..

let's recall some of lagu2 dangdut yg suatu mase dulu kite terhafal. huahuahua..

*bolehlah boleh datang ke rumahku
asal kau jumpa dulu orang tuaku

*100% cintaku
hey hey hey hanya untukmu

*dimataku dihatiku dijiwaku hanya ada kamu
matamu senyummu
buatku jadi tak tentu

*cinta oh cinta
penuh ceria
berwarni warni aneka cinta
cinta oh cinta
makin cinta makin indah
yang tak kenal cinta
jadi dicari salah sendiri
tak kenal cinta
cinta oh cintaaa

*bosan bosan bosan bosan bosan
dengan tingkahmu
pergi pergi pergi pergi pergi
dari sisiku

*duh aduh aduh aduh
aku tertipu
duh aduh aduh aduh
aku merana
duh aduh aduh aduh
aku sengsara
duh aduh aduh aduh
robek hatiku

*sengol-sengolan, cubit cubitan
aku bernyanyi kau petik gitar
senandungkan cinta
bunga berseri kumbang menari
asmara kita makin bersemi
semoga abadi

*pasir putih tepi pantai
ombak saling berkejaran
kau lari aku mengejar
di antara deru rindu
kita berdua

*dia tidak cantik mak
dia tidak jelek mak
yang sedang2 saja
yang penting dia setiaaa

*terang bulan malam ini
kerlipan bintang seribu
yang ku damba saat ini
hanyalah engkau yg satu
di dalam hidupku
panas panas panasnya mentari
tak sepanasnya cintaku ini
kepadamu yang aku kasihi
hingga akhir hayat ku nanti


hahahaha.. ade lagii nii. sambong next time. percayelahh kite mmg hapal lagu tu. huahuahua..

hail

sebelom terlupe.. tadi wellington hujan batu. dont know wheather it's a good thing. but that was my first time experiencing hail. hehe.. gumbira gumbira. hail sudeh. snow bile lagi nk turun kt wellington?? hehe.. here's a pic taken outside of my house.

nampak that small ice?

p.s. other than hail, i really really hope that malaysia can get at least a gold to bring home in Olimpik. go go team badminton!!

1% of evrythg

"it is very difficult to find someone special in life. but right now, i realize that everyone can be someone special for others. even if it's only a 1% chance. it's not that difficult. just make it happens. everyone has a special thing inside them. use it as i did, even it's just 1%. i wish that everyone can find that special thing, that 1%. everyone has that 1% but it depends who can find and use it. when you find that 1%, then life will be happily ever after. it's only 1% to be special. let's find that 1%"

huhu..if only life is as simple as that.

oh korean drama.. you make me live in my wonderland and never want to let go.

ayah salu cakap "pecayelaa dgn cite bohong tuu" bile die caught me menangis tgk tv. ahahaha.. sebab die suke tgk "kisah benar" sajo as in berita, 999, majalah 3, those sort of things. but kite always "melawann" ahahaha cakap it's really happen in real life. and cerita2 tersebut nk kasik pengajaran dan nasehatt kepade para penonton. heh heh.

but crite2 koreaa tuu btol2 wujud ke dalam real life?

kawen contract. love conract. tak suke sesame sendiri but then end up falling for each other and live happily ever after. huhu.. fairytale fairytale. but still... i wanna believe it. hehe..

lucky

this evening i found cik izah's earring while i'm trying to fix the blockage in our bathroom sink. lucky eh? ahahahaha.. it fell into the sink some time ago and we thought it's gone forever. heh heh. sile belanje saye makan ye cik izah. huahuahua.. subang keramat tu. kuang3~~

penah tgk movie just my luck? best gile kalo se-lucky itu. ah-ha.

i'm not that lucky lucky. but i am lucky enough to have live this life till this very moment. maybe esok luse.. malaikat maut datang menjemput. sape tahu kann?

p.s. cherish evrythg we have.

sile vacuum bilek

my advanced graduation form has been submitted to the school office today. weeeee~ hopefully i'll pass all my papers this semester so that i can have enough points to graduate. the ceremony will be held on 9 dec. my parents wouldnt be able to come tho. huhu.. sedey2. jeni, dayang and the cameraman aka kak farah also cant make it. they are all going back home on november. majok ngn jeni esp. ahahaha.. sebbaek cik izah ade and she already confirm grad this comin dec sebab da ade enough points.

will be quite/super busy this week. and next week also. got assigments to mark this weekend, have to study for multivariate test which will be on monday, statistics assignment to be handed in also on monday and statistic's project due on wednesday. should i skip the statistic's assigment? haha.. coz the mark doesnt count towards the final grade but we are compulsory to hand in at least 75% of the assignment. so tak buat 1 esemen kire ok laa kan. takponnnnn.. buat half je. heh heh.

last night sangat tak productive. the reason was the flu. menjadikan saye tak mahu buat any aktiviti berilmiah. haha.. tgk chuck, rearrange bilik, survey2 pasal shipping + melagha ape lagi ntah. asik betanggoh je nk buat keje. cube kalo start study multivariate mlm tadi. huhu.. cepatlaaahhhhhhh cutiii. ketidaksabaran!

p.s. semacam makan oranges dgn sgt byk. tapi still dpt flu. makan berlebihan kah smp jadi reverse effect atau my immune system da lemah ataupon petanda bilikku gile berhabokk. da bape lame tak vacuum ek?? haha..

regret

i think i fall in love with frank sinatra. hahahaha..

this is a song by him, My Way. some may describe this song as mengantok, lagu org tua, etc. ade aku kesah? haha..

And now, the end is near,
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life thats full,
I've traveled each and every highway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention,
I did what I had to do,
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course,
Each careful step along the highway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill, my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels,
And not the words of one who kneels,
The record shows I took the blows,
And did it my way!

just want to point out about regrets. did i have done anything that i regret later in my life? aaaaaa.. not very sure. but maybe this can sum it up.

"Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention,
I did what I had to do,
And saw it through without exemption"

haha..

i always want to be a doctor before i chose this PPC programme, which i'm certainly aware that i'll become a teacher not a doctor. decision made. period. maybe at one point, along these 4 and a half years of studying, i've regretted this decision. but maybe not, not even once. yeah. definitely sure. no regret. ahahaha.. but somehow, undeniably there are times that i wonder what my life would be if i do not leave matriculation. do i really really become a doctor? dah la pemalas. tido banyak! camne nk on call. huhu..

anywayy.. i'm so adamant to become a doctor at that time because i don't know what else to be. feel like no job suits me right. ahaha.. of course laa bile tgk tv akan terpengaruh nk keje mcm tu. but in the end, i'll always end up with doctor. however, i'm thinking about teacher a few times while watching this japanese drama series, Great Teacher Onizuka. heh heh.

dont worry my fellow students. i am a teacher. a real one. hahaha.

ayuni

sebelom terlupee, nak wish selamat hari lahir to ayuni. i'm pretty sure u'll read this. hehe..

and nak bgtaw mlm tadi ang dengan nazri ade dalam mimpi kite. nazri nk bwk ko kua makan, pinjam tarago someone yg seolah-olah pn.siti (jpa) sbb pn.siti adelah mak angkat nazri. die ade skali ahh dalam kete tu. then kite ngn wan(kot), p kejar korg sebab nk wish burfday. then nazri terus ajak ikot p makan. so kami pon ikot ahh.

tapi tetibe dalam tarago tuu ade plak dak2 jpa yg kantoi exam. and bile smp satu tempat nii, pn.siti suh depa2 turun and buat satu game untuk determine naseb scholarship dorg.

pastu mimpi da jadi semaken merepek. haha..

in conclusion, i wonder why in the first place i dream about u? huhu.. maybe i'm thinking too much about when is exactly your burfday. coz u r so secretive about yours kann. hehehe.. do you remember the trick i used last year? i said i wanna look at your passport. something to do with the visa. and you gave yours. ahahaha.. kene tipuuu! actually i wanna look at you ic no. heh heh =p.


selamat hari lahir ayuni~

^-^

feeling

cik sharifah just reply my email today. i asked her about whether i will be imposed any disciplinary action if i do not do Honours. and she reply this.

It is our policy that all students graduate with honours. However, those who fail to do so will not be taken any disciplinary action but bear in mind, you will have some difficulty in the future. It will be impossible for you to further your studies (Masters,PHD)if you graduate with a GD (general degree) not to mention there might be a difference between a teacher with Honours and a teacher with a GD in terms of salary.

sOoOo that's mean (in my understanding of course), i can choose my own path.

if i decide not to do, i should understand and accept the consequences of my action i.e. less paid, difficult to further Master/PHD. heh heh.

i had this feeling before, when i had to choose whether to stay and fight for my analysis course or give chris the white flag and surrender from the battle. ahahaha.. i chose to stay and fight. and miracle happened. i made it! Allah wont put your effort into a waste. keep that in mind.

however, now it is a different story. i feel like i dont wanna fight anymore. i feel like i wanna go home for good at the end of this year. one more year of KPLI and i'm done. a teacher, that's what i am then.

it's the matter of feeling and choosing the right thing. can i trust my feeling? because now it's telling me not to do honors. hahaha.. i hate making decision.

duhh!! perasan gile macam dpt buat honors. sekali sebenanya tak layak pon. hahaha..

elle persuade me to do it, she gave me 1001 reasons why i should do. but i still can seek comfort in cik izah. ahahaha..

kuatkan hati, percaya naluri. huhu..

keputusannya.. biarlah rahsia. huahuahua~

bridge

last nite, aisyah taught me a gymnastic step called bridge. it was difficult to push my shoulder and head up at first but after a few attemps i managed to do it. heh heh. semacam bangga sebentar. in other word, BANGGE SIOT! ahaks~

me doin bridge

i know it's not furrfect. but there's a room for improvement kan and my grandma salu ckp prektis makes furrfect. ahahaha.. (ceh. takdek keje nk prektis buat bende alah ni tiap2 ari. gilo apo! huhu..)

buah cempedak di luar pagar,
ambil galah tolong jolokkan,
saya budak baru belajar,
kalau salah tolong tunjukkan.

hehehehe :D

kelepong

aisyah came to our house this morning. she and cik izah study together for their comin com law test. heh heh. study ke kak? ceq dengaq ampa dok gelak2 jaa. me and cik izah fasting today and we have prepared food for bersahur during the nite (semangat. hehe..). but unfortunately i didnt hear my alarm clock this morning. BUTTT cik izah did woke up. BUTT she didnt woke me up!! huhu.. kehampasan sungguh.

but i cant put the blame on her tho. coz i know why she didnt do that. AHAHAHAHAHA.. gelak guling guling. sorry cik izah =P

anywayy i'm pretty happy today coz aisyah knew what kueh kelepong is. her grandma is from negri sembilan and always use that word when refering to ondeh ondeh@ buah melake as other people might call it. hmm.. i wonder wheater there are negri sembilan-ian yg taktaw ape itu kueh kelepong. might ask pali or hazirah. hehe.

sangat takdek mood nak buat assignment. i dont know what am i doing with my time today. pejam celik pejam celik it's already 9pm. huhu.. time is running faster than i can imagine.

it's 1 syaaban 1429 hijrah today. lagi sebulan Ramadhan menjelma. kite penah denga bahawe selaen Ramadhan, Rasulullah SAW paling banyak berpuasa dalam bulan syaaban berbanding bulan2 yg laen. mari memperbaiki diri, niat dan amal ibadah. semoge mencapai kemanisan iman dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaNya. insyaAllah.

demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian. melainkan orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal salih, dan nasihat-menasihati dengan kebenaran dan kesabaran. (surah al asr)

rojak

final episode of american next top model. won by saleisha. kenapeeeeeeeeeee dieee!! kenape?? i prefer chantal tho. because she's pure sweet+ innocent + cute mcm barbie. tak macam saleisha.. evry single thing she done, evry word she spoke, every smile she gave, every pose she made kite rase semcm dibuat-buat. menci menci menci!! i shud be the judge!!! AHAHAHAHA.. anywayy i just cant understand how they judge their photos especially in term of high fashion-cy.

i've read 15 pages of the lord of the rings, the fellowship of the ring. yeayy!! i skip the prologue of course! sangat bosan. huhu.. don't know when i'm gonna continue reading it. heavy reading ok! maybe when the time comes, i will completely forget what had happened in the first 15 pages. heh heh =P

neither pn.latifah nor cik sharifah reply my email. uhuuu.. cepatla cepatlaaaaa reply pls pls plssssss!!

i wanna confess something here. jeng jeng jeng. actually.. i only watch first 5 episodes (as far as i could remember) of sindarela, and i dont bother to follow the series because last semester i was extremely busy. but 2 or 3 days ago, those bloggers said they like its ending. huhu.. firstly, pardon my so called semangat enquiry yang tinggi. i went to tv3 website and homed in for the last episode. ahahahaha.. not that bad i shud say. i cant really judge. sbb tak tgk all other episodes. see.. am not that patient. huhu..

most of the time, when my frens introduce a movie or a book to me, i will surely ask for the storyline and of course its ending. heh heh. cos i don't actually like wasting my time just to find out that by the time i finish watching/ reading it, it's not the ending that i want it to be. i prefer happy ending ...and they live happily ever after, those sort of things. because i believe everyone deserve to live a happy life.

i like those words uttered by zoela before the series wrapped up.

dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya
senyum kerananya
menangis semahunya
sakit

bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata mahu rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya

for some of us finally we realize
that life isn't a fairytale
we need to start over

demi sebuah impian
tak salah untuk kita berkorban
bilamana hati kita rapuh
menghadapi realiti
nangis..
nangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkan hati kita terus rebah

sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian

in life we have to learn to let go
and keep on moving
the more you wait
the more you miss

bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi
sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip
mampu goyah
because of love
because we are human beings

mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati percaya naluri
just admit it
lafazkan cintaku mahukan dia