feeling

cik sharifah just reply my email today. i asked her about whether i will be imposed any disciplinary action if i do not do Honours. and she reply this.

It is our policy that all students graduate with honours. However, those who fail to do so will not be taken any disciplinary action but bear in mind, you will have some difficulty in the future. It will be impossible for you to further your studies (Masters,PHD)if you graduate with a GD (general degree) not to mention there might be a difference between a teacher with Honours and a teacher with a GD in terms of salary.

sOoOo that's mean (in my understanding of course), i can choose my own path.

if i decide not to do, i should understand and accept the consequences of my action i.e. less paid, difficult to further Master/PHD. heh heh.

i had this feeling before, when i had to choose whether to stay and fight for my analysis course or give chris the white flag and surrender from the battle. ahahaha.. i chose to stay and fight. and miracle happened. i made it! Allah wont put your effort into a waste. keep that in mind.

however, now it is a different story. i feel like i dont wanna fight anymore. i feel like i wanna go home for good at the end of this year. one more year of KPLI and i'm done. a teacher, that's what i am then.

it's the matter of feeling and choosing the right thing. can i trust my feeling? because now it's telling me not to do honors. hahaha.. i hate making decision.

duhh!! perasan gile macam dpt buat honors. sekali sebenanya tak layak pon. hahaha..

elle persuade me to do it, she gave me 1001 reasons why i should do. but i still can seek comfort in cik izah. ahahaha..

kuatkan hati, percaya naluri. huhu..

keputusannya.. biarlah rahsia. huahuahua~