gift

hadiah dari jennii!!



cik izah dan dayang juge dpt. tapi cik izah takmo bukak die punye until graduation day. poyoss =P hahahaha.

oh esok aku akan meninggalkan bumi wellington yang berangin-angin ini. perasaan tidaklah se-excited mase first time balek. aku pun tak tahu kenape aku pilih untuk balik awal dan tidak tunggu advanced graduation. bukanlah ade ape2 bende menarik atau yang sangat urgent pon kat malaysia contohnye majlis perkahwinan aku ke?

yang aku tahu aku akan berada di batu kikir most of the time. batu kikir tu bukan lah best sangat pun. kedai yang paling up pon ialah seven eleven. tu pon aku rasa baru bukak tahun lepas. kalau nk makan kfc kene pegi Bahau or Kuala Pilah. lebih kurang setengah jam dari Batu Kikir.

pizza hut dan McD tiada di batu kikir, bahau atau pon kuala pilah. cuma di seremban sahaja ok. yang jaraknya 2 jam naek bus. kenape bus? sebab aku tak reti drive. merempit boleh la sket2. tapii takdek lesen la plak kan. rempit antaq adek2 aku p skolah aku berani laa. hakhak.

aku tahuu cik izah mesti rindu aku punye. huahuahua. jgn nangis ye cik izah. dayang already in malaysia. jenni will be back soon after spending a few days in Gold Coast. probably will meet jenni in KL. she wants me to accompany her doing medical checkup at tung shin hospital.

anywayy if ade jodoh we will meet again soon ok.

hopefully aisyah, cik izah and dayang will get offer to do Honors. aminn.

am tagged!

Tag 8 people
-byknye! dayang, jeni & wan. hahaha.. tapi mereka takdek blog. cane cane? pastu kak farah, kak nuha, kak mun, kak min and kak zen.

Describe yourself in one word.
-paracetamolholic

Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
- anyone loves me?

Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
- hmm

How would you deal with a face to face rejection?
-smile tho your heart is aching =)

God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to Heaven. IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
- i dont love u like i did yesterday

What would you say to a person who doesn't want to believe you?
- pendapat kau penting ke?

Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
- probably

What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
- normal ahh tu. macam kau tak pernah jealous je. blah ahh!

Do you have something special with you all the time?
- myself is itself special. watpe nk bwk bende laen kan? hahaha..

Best place to cry?
- dalam bilik depan cermin. ops! kantoi nangis depan cermin. :D

Who do you love the most?
- people that matters in my life

Tell us of your dream last night?
- jumpe tam spider. tak sempat nak amek gambaq same2. frust wo!!

Ever hated someone so bad?
- blom penah lagi stakat ni.

The biggest and most hurtful lie you've heard?
- they said they care. but they never did.

The last person you had a beer with?
- none

The last person you went to the movies with?
- jaz

The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
- hmm da tak ingat laa. cell phone = alarm clock. huhu

The last person you hugged?
- dayang. sent her to the airport last nite.

The last person you yelled at?
- lupe lupe

In the last week, have you kissed someone?
- nope

Danced crazy?
- heh heh

Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
- you know why

If you could do anything, or wish anything, what would it be?
- i wish i can fly. so when people break my heart i can fly to the moon and play with the star.

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
- mecca

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
- tidak pernah

Are you old fashioned?
- proudly am

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
- both seem equally hard for me. huhu..

What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
- i think the answer should be my family. no matter how screwed up we all can be at some time, i still want them in my life.

Five facts about me:-
- i like running
- born on november 20
- kampong girl
- sensitive
- my brain detects numbers much efficient than alphabet

Five things that scare me:-
- hantu
- tempat gelap
- heart breaker
- exam
- anjing

Two songs playing in my head lately:-
- lagu korea
- kau ada dia - the lima

Five things I treasure in my life:-
- family
- frens
- ilmu
- duet. hahaha..
- harta dunia yg aku ada

geram

ops lagi satu. aku geram. geram!! tau tak!!

reason?

1. aja

2. moe

geram. huh.

bus

bus wellington:

tag on, tag off, easy as.

cinta:

let in, let go, easy as.


p.s. kene tag. buat esok. or luse. or the day after luse. or.. heh heh.

picnic

kami pegi picnic kat Oriental Bay tadii!! konon-konon akuu nk masak nasik goreng ahh kan.. last2 goreng dalam mimpi sajo. hakhak. sori guys! but jeni bwk puding roti, ade buah, kapiti aiskrim!! thx to fiqah, ade kopok, ade air mountain dew? kot. huhu.. we are having lotsa fun!! panas membakau tadii!! hangus terbakau kulit aku yg da sedia terbakau nii. sunburn duh. penat berkurung dalam bilik kasik puteh sket nk balek msia nii. hancus sudeyh! anywayy tadi kami semua pakai "circuit" hahahahaha.. actually skirt la kann. kami sajo sebot skirt mcm bunyik "circuit". huhu.. angin bertiup amatlah kencang di sane. terseksa seketika. huahuahua. seronok! =)

gambaq lagi. seperti biasa. heh heh..



















ciao!

guyfawkesday

there was wellington guy fawkes day fireworks display last nite. we all went down to the Waterfront to join the crowd.

some pics!















ciao!

p.s. arini mungkin kami pegi picnic. heh heh.

sengal

kehadapan saudari ruzaini yang berada di drummond street,

semoga saudari berada dalam keadaan sihat walafiat di samping rakan-rakan tersayang. tujuan saya menulis surat ini adalah untuk menceritakan kepada saudari aktivati-aktiviti yang saya lakukan beberapa hari lepas.

pada hari ahad yang lepas, saya, dayang, cik izah, aisyah dan teo makan malam di nandos. saya tahu saudari suka makan di sana. terdapat menu baru iaitu grilled chicken steak. saya percaya saudari belum mencubanya. betul? pada pendapat saya, rasa makanan tersebut sama sahaja seperti hidangan-hidangan yang lain. yang berbeza cuma ayamnya tiada tulang. tetapi tidak tergantung seperti menu espetada.

pada keesokkan harinya, kami semua kecuali teo pergi berjalan di westfield queensgate. saya membeli beberapa helai pakaian dan sebuah beg untuk di bawa balik sebagai cenderahati kepada ahli keluarga saya. begitu juga dengan dayang, cik izah dan aisyah.

di sini saya sertakan beberapa keping gambar yang di ambil semasa makan malam tersebut. walaubagaimanapun, kami tidak sempat bergambar di queensgate. nampaknya itu sahaja yang ingin saya ceritakan. semoga kita bertemu lagi di lembaran yang akan datang.


yang benar,
rosalinda.

HAHAHAHAHA.. sengal!

sukesuke

do not worry - we will mark them all and take the 6 best.

hehe.. suke hati!! and the feeling of taking advantage of that extra questions that i did over other people is dissappeared. hahaha.

i have finished all my exams for this semester. hence unofficially graduated with BSc majoring in mathematics and statistics! provided i pass all the exams lah. hakhak. insyaAllah. aminnnn.

i will be leaving Wellington for home on Nov 11! weee..!! but a bit worried though. coz I'll be stranded at Melbourne airport for 20 hours. huhu.. what i'm gonna do with that ample time? of course sleeping is s0o0o out of topic. i got nobody to take turn to sleep and watch over my belongings. haish! i dont know whether i can stay awake for that long. that is something that i never did before i guess. but i can sleep for 20 hours for sure. hoho..

huhu.. rasa berdebar macam nak amek exam!!

debaran

dag dig dug di dalam dada
jantung berdebar aduh cuaknyaa
sat lagi peksaaaaaaa!!

buat 2007 punye exam - "ok2. boleh kot. at least bole jwb half dgn konfiden"
tgk 2006 punye - "yg ni cam soklan tadi. takyah buat la. boleh kot. alamakk.. soklan ni plak camne. taktaw nk buat. hmm.. 06 punye cam lagi susah dari 07 la. haish. untung gile student last year"
2005 - "wahhh apsal betambah susahhhh??"

now aku da cuak. semua formula dan definition dah berterabur dalam otak. da mixed up.

estimate untuk beta adalah [(x'x)^-1] x'y

sum of square regression is y'x[(x'x)^-1]x'y

definition of unbiasedness, week consistensy, relative efficiency, uniformly minimum variance unbiased estimator, Rao-Blackwell theorem, Lehmann-Scheffe, Factorisation theorem, bla bla bla..

hoh??

mak, doa along dapat A ye? hehehehe..

psiko nye budak ni. hahaha..

mak, doa along pass ye!

pensel

tadi pensel oren aku hilang. baruuuuuuuuuu je sekejap tadi ada kat tangan. ila text aku kata nak datang sekejap. so aku pegi laa kemas bilek yg semak ni sket. pastu time nk sambung buat statistic ni balik, pensel oren itu tiada. aku lupa laa kan letak kat mana! short term memory. huhu..

then berserabot otak memikirkan mana aku letak. tak boleh buat kerja o bila pensel oren tu takdek. hahahaha.. gundah gulana. perasaan tak tenteram. korang tak pernah rasa macam tu ke? tak boleh buat apa-apa selagi tak jumpa benda yang hilang tu?

kalau pensel tu ada perasaan, mesti dia gumbira melihat betapa dirinya dihargai oleh aku. hidup tak tenteram bila dia tiada di sisi. cewahh! (rasenya ni effect caffeine yang aku ambil semalam laa)

oh aku sangat cuak nak ambil exam esok.

p.s. teringat karangan jenis autobiografi yang belajar masa sekolah rendah dulu. aku sebatang pensel, aku sepasang kasut, etc..

mata

did i ever mention that caffeine never works for me? well. good news. it works this time. tapi salah waktu. huhu.. counting sheep juga tidak membantu.

just finished bersahur. today is the last day to qada' puasa. =)

i need my sleep. pls pls pls.


something yang berkaitan dengan mata...

"tak sangka mata yang cantik rupanya hanya dapat melihat tetapi tidak memandang"

"biar tak dapat memandang asalkan jangan pekak"

"biar pekak asalkan jangan buta sampai tak nampak apa yang dicari"

"biar tak nampak apa yang dicari asalkan hidup ini tak sunyi dan sepi"

"tapi saya nampak parut nakal di bahu kiri awak"

haha.. from mr.cinderella. as far as i can remember la. ketepatan ayat tidak dijamin. huhu..



one more..

dari kerana mata yang mempunyai kuasa
oh aku tergoda
aku tergoda terkeciwa


hahahaha.. ok i really need my sleep.

merapu

huh. i can take this no more. my brain is so tired looking at these statistics' stuffs. i've been looking at these things since 7 days ago. nonetheless, i haven't been remembering much of them. huhu.. the exam will be on thursday. one more day to go. and i'm soooo not ready for it!

anywayy despite of my unproductive brain at this moment, i cannot shut my eyes to sleep. i slept till 1pm today. huhu.. plus i just took caffeine like an hour ago. am so worried about this coming exam. i've tried 2007 exam paper. to be honest, i cannot do those questions without looking at the notes/ assignments/ tutorials. haish. parah2.

tetibe terfikir benda merapu la kann..

besides that exam.. i'm also scared (very much) that no one wants to marry me. huhu.. confession confession! this is crap i know. or perhaps not. haha. i can't help but to think about it some time, say..when there is no integration/differentiation problems that my brain could work on. huahuahua..

hey betol ape! if u are still single at the age of 22, does that thought never cross ur mind? even once?

no??

guess it is just me laa kot. huhu..

ever watch Friends? i cant remember who makes deal to whom. but the point is.. one of the girls made a deal to one of the guys that if they do not get married by the age of *something* (i cant remember), they're gonna marry each other. haha..

i think i should make a deal like that hahaha..!! nonsense! but anyway i dont hv any boy friend to make a deal with laa kann. i dont have any close boy friend and i only have a small circle of boy friends.

my sis already have one. plus she's working now. a nurse at uni malaya medical centre. so the possibility for her to langkah bendul is high ok!! hoho. tak mahu tak mahu.

ok2. enough merapu. should start counting sheep.

p.s. anyone wants to make a deal? HAHAHA.

1 2 3 4 5 6 sheeps da da da

salahfaham

once upon a time;

dia: liza
huhu..saje kaco ko
bile duet nk masok ni

aku: huhu
tula. xtaw bile
dak jpa da dpt da

dia: ko ade emel cik pah x
dak jpa dpt utk 2 bln


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ok stop kat sini. apa yang kamu faham dengan ayat yang diboldkan itu?

1. dia tanya ada alamat emel cik pah or
2. adakah aku ada hantau emel kat cik pah?

make a guess make a guess. lepas teka baru bole scroll down ok. honesty is the best policy. huahua.


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continue...


aku: emel yg dulu jugak die gune. ko xdek ek emel die yg dulu?

dia: yg dulu?

aku: sharifahratina@something. huhu..
jap nk bukak emel

dia: oo. aku bukan tye emel die la. huhu
aku tye ko ade bg emel x kt die tye psl duet. huhuhu

aku: hahaha. salah tone la kann.

dia: aku phm2. ko tgh bz stdy kan.


hakhak. see.. guna YM boleh salah faham ok. bahaya.

kalau korang pilih 1, means kita sama wavelength la tu! haha..

tapiiiii... kalau semua orang pilih 2, maknanya something wrong with me la kot. hakhak =P.

puasa

masih awal. matahari pun belum terbit. mungkin ada mulut yang berbicara "paginya budak ni bangun". seolah-olah tidak percaya?

hahaha. aku faham. aku tahu aku sinonim dengan tidur banyak. ops. dan bangun lambat. tapi aku berusaha untuk bangun subuh =). lepas tu tidur lah balik. duh! tapi memang aku bangun awal hari ini. bangun bersahur. aku dalam usaha mengganti puasa ramadhan. *mungkin ada yang tersengih. ketawa kecil perhaps?*

oi! aku perempuan normal. kau tak belajar biologi kat sekolah?

tapi sampai sekarang aku masih pelik. pelik dengan lelaki.

bila Ramadhan menjelang, pastinya akan ada ucapan selamat berpuasa kan?

dalam banyak-banyak ucapan daripada kaum Adam ini, mungkin ada yang seperti......

1. selamat berpuasa. aku tahu kau puasa tak penuh.

2. kau puasa berapa hari kali ni?

3. selamat berbuka puasa. puasa tak? **sambil meletak icon smiley bergigi rapi**

what the?

sungguh mereka suka bergurau senda dengan kejadian yang satu ini.

aku tidak marah. ambil hati pun tidak. tiada perasaan barangkali dengan usikan seperti itu. kadang-kadang aku senyum. ketawa juga. anyway point aku adalah.. aku pelik.

memang lelaki suka mengusik perempuan mengenai hal itu kan?

konklusi: proven. haha.

teringat aku suatu peribahasa.

sudah geharu cendana pula. sudah tahu bertanya pula.

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by the way, ini hari ke-4 aku mengganti puasa.

ape sengih-sengih? duh!!

p.s. aku tidak lagi sedih seperti semalam. hehe.

s.e.p.i.

aku sepi
bila dunia aku terhenti
tapi dunia luar masih berputar di paksi
penuh dengan tari
tapi tarian aku mati

sepi aku bila
hilang dari pandangan mata
tiada nada
tiada gurau senda

aku sepi
bila dia menyepi

angin bawa daku pergi bawa bersama sepi.

-nma-

p.s. sepi my version

emo?

it is so cold outside. despite of the hot shining blazing sun. uhuh. i am not doing any study or revision today. the weather swept away my mood to study.

feeling a bit sad today. like a friend said, when someone appears to be strong doesnt mean s/he is strong, when s/he appears to be happy doesnt mean s/he is happy. the list goes on and on. you got my point. i'm kinda like that i think.

i dont want to write anything explicit here. about my life. about my feeling. there might be people who read it. its not that im doing something terrible that i could go to jail for that. its just that i dont always reveal my true feeling, the true me in front of any people.

there were times i felt like i'm giving up for this one thing. i always believe in faith. believe in Allah. and i believe He knows best. but u know.. sometime u just dont know. u just dont know what plan He has on you. and sometimes u just cannot wait for that to happen. u sick of waiting. worst is sometime u sick of this life.

Sepi?

sometimes i feel like i want to delete this blog. i want to stop blogging. because i dont know what to write. because there is nothing worth to write about or to mention. because i am not a good writer. because i cant put what i really want or what i mean into words. good words i mean.

raya celebration was really awesome here! open houses here and there. good foods. good friends. good company.

watched Sepi two days ago. i like it. no. i love it. better than Cinta. that's what i think. hahaha.. i told kak elun that i wanna slap those who think it the other way around. just kidding anyway! hehe. everyone has their own perception, their own thinking. it's ok.

Adam and Ilyana were sweet couple. we don't know whether the one we have now is really "the one". anything can happen in split second.

Sufi and Marya. most people dont like their story. they said it was not appropriate because Marya was someone else's wife. and most of all, she had a good husband.

but i'm sure their story happens in real life. cinta tidak datang hanya sekali. cinta juga datang tanpa kita sedari. kadang-kadang cinta datang ketika masa yang tidak sesuai. just like theirs.

it scared me tho. to think what if it really happens in my life. what should i do? be like Marya? or maybe i should ask for a divorce? haha. gile.

Imaan, Khalil and Ean. i like their story because those guys didnt have to fight over one woman. hahaha.

anywayy.. i would love to watch Sepi for the fourth time. but study is my priority now. nerd. ahahaha.. i know. but my first paper is next Tuesday. 4 days to go starting from tomorrow. and i have only covered 2% of the whole materials!! duh!

i've started to jog again. since 4 days ago kot. hehe..

i run because i want to breath. hell yeah. AHAHAHAHA. no no.

i run because i want to lose weight. (haha..sket laa)

actually.. i run..

because i like to run! wekkk =P

hati

sometime she just want to be left alone, spending time observing things own her own, sitting on a chair in a big mall, watching people passing by. yet she was terrified when no one stay by her side. she scared and she hates the feeling, the air, the sound and the smell of loneliness.

the past is over. future will come. just live the present. people said you will miss a lot of things if you keep waiting. so why did some people wait? is it because they never heard the phrase? or they did, but it is the best thing to do?

is world a better place to live today than yesterday?

heart. do we have a good heart? there are a lot of bad things happened just because of our heart. it is so scary to think that this little piece of ours could do damage to others, to the whole world. why cant we have a pure, innocent heart? why there must be a black dot on it? why harm our own self? did your heart happy looking people shedding their tears? did your heart feel glory when people bleed their blood? did your heart be at ease when others are suffering?

maybe our heart, your heart is bleeding too, suffering too, shedding tears too.. but we are so damn ignorant of our own feeling that we can't feel anything. numb.

smile. smile when your heart is aching. smile even though it is breaking. smile. what is the use of crying?

it is very difficult to see our own mistake but pointing others is like a breeze.

again random thought. heh.

jenny

saye teramat busy. ade project due on the 6th and 8th oct. sudah dapat awal2 lagi. tapi baru hari ni terhegeh2 nk buat semuanya. takdek mase nk berpenglipurlara.

anywayy.. di kala sibok2 ni, ku terfikir;

aku belajar untuk jadi cikgu. bersusah payah dan bersungguh-sungguh. tetapi ada orang yg belajar bukan untuk jadi cikgu tetapi akhirnya jadi cikgu sebab dah takde pilihan. in other words, teaching is their last resort. dan jika orang2 tersebut mempunyai ijazah lain, bukan Bsc, contohnye Engineering, tangga gaji mereka berbeza dengan kami, dan lagi tinggi?

apekah ituu? adakah kami tidak setaraf dengan mereka?

huhu..





p.s. gambaq untok jeni, di ambil di wellington botanic garden, 28 sept 08 semase tulip festival.
p.p.s. pencerah agong kuu minat lagu jenny-the click five keeeee?? i hate u jenii!! huahuahua..

dari nonie

huhu.. ni kad raye from my sis.

"pecah kace pecah gelas
sudah bace harap balas"

huahuahua.. memang kanak-kanak!




p.s. disobabkan kau koba den kodokut, den tanakk kasik kau duet ghayo tahon nii. muahahaha =P

tulip

28 September 2008
Tulip Festival
Wellington Botanic Garden

pelangi

mentari muncul lagi
membawa seribu erti
menghangatkan sebuah sanubari
yang kaku di tiga dimensi

apa mungkin kau memahami
apa mampu kau menyelami
mentafsir sebuah naluri
mengungkap seribu misteri
kisah hidup si puteri

walau jalan penuh berduri
tetaplah disisi
bersama meniti hari
melakar indah pelangi
mengalun asyik puisi

-nma-

beauty of math

have a look at this!

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111 = 12345678987654321

p.s. pasnih boleh la jawab dengan confident kalo ade org tanye 11111 x 11111 equals ape kan? haha..

Now, take a look at this...


101%



From a strictly mathematical point of view:



What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?

We all have been in situations where someone wants you to
GIVE OVER 100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?


What equals 100% in life?


Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:


If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Are represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.


If:


H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K

8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%


And:

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E

11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%


But:

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E

1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%



THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:



L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%


Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

p.p.s. Allah's love never fails you. He's The Wise. He knows the best. yakin dan tawakkal kepadaNya. doa banyak2.

hair perming

ku membuang mase lagi dengan rambot. huhu..

"Hair perms are a fantastic way to add everything from body to true curls to straight hair. Hair perms will also give you truly "wash and wear" hair style, freeing you from the hassles of setting, blow-drying, and curling irons"

menarik tertarik. ku da lame mengidam curly hair. :D

Hair perm
Getting your hair permed involves use of chemicals to break and reform the disulfide bonds of the hair. The hair is washed and wrapped on a perm rod and waving lotion is applied with a base. This solution creates a chemical action that softens the inner structure of the hair. It reacts with the keratin of the cortex, breaking some of the disulfide cross-links within and between the protein chains.

The hair swells and softens and stretches. The hair then molds around the shape of the perm rod. After a specified period of time, the hair is rinsed and a neutraliser is applied. It is the neutralizing solution that reforms the disulfide bonds of the hair and sets the new curls. Hair perms can be done with acid or alkaline hair perming solutions. Alkaline wave hair perm works best for resistant hair and Asian hair and hair with low elasticity. This time of perm is also used for normal healthy hair. Acid wave hair perms are milder than the alkaline ones and are ideal for fragile, damaged or colored hair.

p.s. my boyfren's hair should look like this. hahahaha..

ni Tajol, Dunia Baru. comel kan rambot die? orang die pon comel gak. ahaks!

p.p.s. ku patot perm kan rambot anip! heh heh.

haircut

want new hair cut! i have never tried any style before but layered haircut. that was last year, before coming back to welly. otherwise just the usual plain normal straight haircut by emak. heh heh. ku pakai tudung. cam tak berbaloi nak meng-style kan rambot. but suddenly now i have the urge to try various styles. wonder what will i look like in those. hahaha.

how bout curly hair? ku da bosan dengan rambot lurus.

macam ni..



or



or


atauu




ni ke


short?





rambot pendek macam best. tapi sayang rambot panjang gak. tapi pendek best. senang sikat. senang shampoo. tapi sayang nak gunting. heh. tapi boleh panjang balek kan. huhu.. kan best rambot boleh panjang dalam mase sehari.

or cipta shampoo yg boleh panjangkan rambot dalam mase sehari?

doremon!!

cara mamma

cara mamma,


buon compleanno
selamat hari lahir
happy birthday mak..

thank you for bringing me up
thank you for your patience
thank you for always defending me when ayah get mad
thank you for always believing me
thank you for loving me
thank you for simply being there for me

thank you for everything

i love you.


baci,
along.

malu

i just watch a video posted by my friend on his blog. it says..

"Muslim discovered a numeral system which was used by people in India. after making some modification into this system, Muslim adopted it and later introduced it to the world. the number of angle in each numeral determines its value"

i can't find those numbers on the net. so i draw them using paint. hehe.. not that chantek. but as you can see, the number of angles (in red color) in each numeral matches its value.

hebat tak mereka dan matematik?

once upon a time, Muslim mathematicians were very renowned. they dominated the field of mathematics during middle ages.

remember those names you've learned in schools? al-khwarizmi, ibnu sina, al-biruni, omar khayyam, ...

yet.. names that stuck in my brain are Cauchy, Laplace, Gauss, Euler, Lagrange, D'Alembert ...

huhu..

being a Muslim, i should have the spirit to be a great mathematician as they once did. to note, they are still very great a mathematician till this very moment!

where are the spirit? the spirit to be a great, renowned muslim mathematician, to bring again muslim's domination in the field of mathematics.

nak buat honors pon tak mahu.

i should be ashamed of myself.

kapak

macam mane nak jadi rajen balek niiii?? sepatotnye revise lecture notes and memorising formula and finishing assignment, tapiiiiiii... haish.

..selagi masih ada sinaran mentari
selagi ada getar di jiwaku
kan ku korban jiwa raga
demi cinta untukmu bunga angkasa..

oh ku suke lagu ni. sedap wo melalak lagu nii kuat2. bunga angkasa-terra rossa. kan best kalau ade mamat cute nyanyikan lagu ni untuk ku. hehe..

tetibe ku rase nak jadi penyanyi plak. ni angan2 ku sejak kecik lagi. ku selalu prektis menyanyi. kalo tak menyanyi sehari tak sah. tak normal. bukan ku ahh tu. walopon suare tak sedap. huhu..

ku suke laa kan lagu2 rock kapak melayu camtu. haha. dangdut pon layan. anywayy sume lagu kot.

lagu tomok pon boleh. HAHAHA.

..jauh mana mampu bertahan
sampai bila harus ku telan
setiap kali bertentangan tiada ketenangan

sejarah mungkin berulang
walau engkau ku maafkan
oh kekasih..

ingatkah anda lagu ni?

HAHAHA. ku takdek lagu ni dalam laptop ku. serius! ku korek2 dari dalam otak ku jee.

p.s. ku tetap cair ngn suare tam spider sampai bile2. especially bile die nyanyi lagu relaku pujuk. ku nak ngorat die ahh.

stalker

the rain is falling on my window pane.

jenni's here. she's sleeping at the moment. haha.. actually she should be in school for her group discussion. but she skip. she wanted to skip AND i told her to skip as well. do i to be blame? nay. hehe..

it's cold!! just turn on my heater. so it will take some time to heat up my room. fyi my heater kind of special. heh! all my housemates' heaters are turn off every one hour. but mine turns off every 24 hours. or more. hehe.. i never care how long it tooks to turn off. huhu.. but keep this a secret from my RA (residential assistant) ok?? i dont want it to be fixed. it will make me push the button every one hour. i'm far too lazy for it. hahaha.

kakfarah post her handwriting in her blog. i kinda inspired by it laa kan. so maybe i will put my handwriting here. hahaha..

i wonder if teachers have a nice handwriting..

they should have laa kan? otherwise how students are going to understand what they wrote on blackboard (or whiteboard nowadays. maju. hehe..)

i prefer whiteboard though. coz i heard chalk will make ur hand become rough. betol ke? what i'm sure is your hand will become all white. if tak percaye.. meet Chris Atkin while he delivering his lectures. HAHAHA.

i have no more classes with him this sem. semacam rindu his must-said-sentence in class like "do you have any comment about this" and "it's absurd". maybe it sounds plain to you but for me it's real funny. the way he said those word. his expression. i miss his white hand, his screaming, the sound of his screeching chalk (i hate that. ngilu.) . and oh i also like to keep track the shirt that he wore. stalker.

HAHAHA.

i know u did that as well. kan kan? =P

kamu

kamu. ye kamu. hahaha. walaupon kamu tak tahu ku maksodkan kamu (kalo kite same wavelength kamu tahu laa sape "kamu". heh.)

ku cume mahu bilang.. senyuman yg kamu berikan menceriakan hari ku, melakar senyuman di wajah kuu. ecececece. HAHAHHAHA. gile pe. i know it aint a real one. but who cares kannn. ahaks!

ku perasan sendiri.

ku de terbace nii;

there are 4 things that u shouldnt break; trust, promise, relationship and heart. because you cant see them. but they give you great pain.

btol3. try ahh sendiri. haha.

random

ku tengah ade mood nak memblogging la plak kan now. heh. sebenanye ku ade 2 choices. tidoq or tak tidoq. hahaha. kalo tidoq, ku nak bangon dalam pukol 4.30 pm ke. arini turn ku masak. ku da marinate ayam pagi tadi. mau bakar. pastu goreng mihun. maybe buat sambal kentang kee kalau ku rajen. ku suke gile sambal kentang ngn ikan bilis. tapi ikan bilis made in malaysia sudaa abes. ku tak suke ikan bilis made in new zealand. keras! tapi tapi tapi.. ku berkira-kira semacam berlebihan sangat waktu tidur ku kan. ku selalu tido pukol 11pm. after sahur and subuh, ku tido balek smp 9.30am. huhu.. semacam banyak ah tu kann. sOoOo tak jadik ahh. ku pilih stay up.

kalau kamu tak mahu tahu, ku ade 2 subjek je sem ni. kire free la kan. bodoh gak sebenanye ku ni. kalau ku buat honors next year sure ku merane. ku sepatotnye da bole start this sem. so next year kurang la paper honors kene amek. tapi bukan salah ku jugak. sebab kalo ikot kan hati dan perasaan ku, ku takmo buat. tapi hati dan perasaan MOE kate kene buat. hahaha. ntahla. ku tak pasti lg. ku tunggu bulan 2 nnt. ku kan suke menimbolkan masalah kepade MOE. heh.

beberape hari yang lepas ade gempa bumi. ku terase la kan. especially bile dudok dalam bilik tergantong macam bilik ku ni. haha.. tapi cik izah ngn ayuni tak rase. sebab depa sebok men-scan kertas2. rugi2. tapi ku takdek laa bermaksod ku suke gempa bumi. kalo kecik2 dan takdek menyebabkan ape2 kerugian dan kehilangan nyawa dan harta bende, ku tak kesah. cam seronok la kann bile bilek bergoyang tetibe. hahaha.. ngok.

book one lord of the ring yang ku bace sejak berminggu-minggu yg lalu tinggal sket je lagi ku nak khatamkan. best. dan takdeklaa heavy reading sangat seperti yang ku war-warkan suatu mase dolu. ku tarek balek ahh statement tuu. hehe..

senanye ku takdek point pon nak cakap ape. ku tulis jee ape yang otak ku nii proses.

oh. proton ade buat pertandingan "namakan mpv" dorang. kalau kamu kretiv try ahh. hadiah utama die mpv tu ahh. free2 jee dpt mpv sejibik. kalau kamu tak mahu tahu.. ku join contest tu. huahuahua. name yang ku kasik rahsia laa kan. nanti kalau menang.. kamu tahu gak. hahahahaha.. tapi chances nak menang tuu macam beli Lotto. satu dalam sejuta. ops. berape ehh populasi kat Malaysia now? yang ku pasti lebeh sejuta. so ayat yg betol die adelah "satu dalam lebih sejuta". haha.. ku harus tahuu nii kalo ku mahu bekerja di jabatan statistik negare.

k laa.. later.

la ragazza

hmm.. am agree to a certain extend.

what say U gadis2??

hehe..

ibuprofen

mayday mayday

current status: struggling finishing stat331 assignment. baru buat 2 soklan. HAHA. due tomorrow. got 1 week time to do. but as always.. pemalas!

health condition: worst. got heavy headache after berbuka puasa. telan 2 biji ibuprofen (terlalu byk stock..paracetamol di abandon for a while. heh.). went to sleep after isyak. woke up around 10pm. BUT diserang oleh selesema pulak. damn. running nose. tersumbat nose. oh sangat tidak selesa untuk buat assignment.

background music: lagu korea. haha..

thought: terase seperti mahu menjerit sekuat-kuatnya seolah-olah dapat mencampakkan selesema ini ja0h-jauh.

hope: semoge dapat siapkan assignment. huhu..

p.s. baju raye sudah sampai tadi.

ciao! arrivederci!

bacak!

some nice words to comfort my heart.. perhaps u too! =)

When things are down
And you are out of your mind
Remember just remember
Allah is The Kind.

When your life is in darkness
And nothing is right
Remember just remember
Through the darkness
Allah is The Light.

When nothing makes sense
And your heading for demise
Remember just remember
It doesn't make sense, but Allah is The Wise.

When times are troubled
And no one seems to care
Remember just remember
Allah won't hurt you, He is The Fair.

When your heart is breaking
And your pain makes you fall
Remember just remember Allah Sees it all.

When you are weak
And the road seems long
Remember just remember
Seek strength from The Strong.

When life is a burden
And everything is unstable
Remember just remember
Allah is The Able.

When the way is cloudy
And there is no one by your side
Remember just remember
Allah is The Only Guide.

When no one wants to listen
Or is willing to lend an ear
Remember just remember
Allah is always ready to hear.

When you are poor and penniless
And you are stuck in a niche
Remember just remember
Allah is The Rich.

When you are down in your misery
And there is nowhere to run
Remember just remember
You can always run to The One.

And when your scars are hurting
And your heart is in fear
Remember just remember
Allah is really here.

p.s. semacam lame menyepi sebab malas nak update. heh.
p.p.s. now daa 15 ramadhan. tapii ku masih seperti hari-hari yang lalu. mungkin ku tak mencuba sedaya upaya memanfaatkan bulan mulia ini. ku harus sedaya upaya!

kehidupan

setiap orang itu unik
ada keistimewaan sendiri
tinggi lampai kecil molek
pendiam peramah
kadang-kadang ada persamaan dengan orang lain
tetapi kita masih unik

adakah kita memahami diri sendiri sepenuhnya?

kadang-kadang kita memaksa diri
kadang-kadang kita menipu diri
buat apa yang kita tak suka

hipokrit kah itu?

tapi bukan itu ke kehidupan?

kadang-kadang kita senyum bila sedih
kita senyum bila marah
kita senyum bila benci

macam makan cili padi
sangat pedas
tapi kita masih mampu tersenyum
seolah-olah manis macam madu

kenapa perlu semua itu?
kenapa perlu berpura-pura?

hipokrit kah itu?

kehidupan. hidup. kita hidup dengan kehidupan. kita hidupkan kehidupan kita.

cuma tenang dipermukaan
dan didasarnya bergelora
persoalan demi persoalan
membelenggu akal dan fikiran
tidak ku temu jawapan

26, 21, 22

called paksu just now to congratulate on his newly born baby girl. baru jaa lahir semlm tapi da ade name =). but lupe laa kan. nor *something* akidah. pjg sangat. huhu.. paksu daa ade 3 kids. and all girls! haha.. girls rulez~

then paksu tnye bile abes. i said end of this year if tak sambong buat honors. and then he went on and on asking and persuade me to sambong. heh heh. nyesal bitaw paksu. huhu..

paksu: setahon je lagi long. biar abih sumo sonang.
me: along da maleh laa paksu. hehe..
paksu: ado bezo ko sambong ko tak sambong?
me: hmm.. kalo sambong nanti sonang laa nk buek master ko phd ko.. tapi along bukan nk buek master pon. nak jadi cekgu yo.
paksu: sambonglaa. kalau boleh sambong, sambong laaa.
me: (ayakk) tapiii mak koba takpo. hahaha..
paksu: tuu omakk
me: cehhh. huhu.. tapi kalo sambong da ompek tahon along tak ghayo kek msia. huhu..
paksu: takpolaaaa. nanti da abihh ghayo laaa pueh2.
me:huhu
paksu: nanti kua umo bapo? 26 ek? mudo laei.
me: haaaaaaaaaaa?? oh tidakk. hahahaha..


26 tuu mudo ko paksu oiiiiiii?? paksu kawen umo 21 ok. so kalo ikot standard paksu..along shud be married laa by now. cess~

aiman gyver

jom layan iklan petronas sempena hari kebangsaan ke 51 tahon inii.

=(

wisdom tooth kuu mengilaaaa arini. saket. called like 20 numbers but no dentist available. fully booked konon. huhu.. so pegi vuw student health. ade doktor but no dentist. got a temperature. 38.4. memang demam. gum around the tooth swelled. pipi pon swelled. was prescribed amoxycilin, ibuprofen n paracetamol. she said tak bole cabot lagi until the infection fully gone. tak bole cabot like NOWWW keeeeee?? =(

omsik. nak balek malaysia. omsik. omsik. omsik. sedeh. saket. saket. =(

saket amat

demam dan saket gigi yg amat sangat. nk bukak mulut besaq2 pon xbole. tadi nk makan ponn berchentaa. huhu.. cik izah ajak p jumpe doctor. tp kite ckp tunggu smp isnin. huhu.. aritu wisdom tooth ni da stop growing. tapi now die nk kua balek. dgn sangat mengganazz plak tu. huhu.. saket gile teramat. adekah akan kene operate?? sbb gigi tuu semacam sgt rapat dgn dinding pipi and semacam takdek space utk die. huhu.. takotnye!! cik izah kate takdek pape. takkan kene operate. tapi saye tak pecaye. O Allah.. please lessen this pain.. =(

meroyann

cuti semacam sudah bermulaaa bagi diriku. walauponn officially it'll be started this saturday. ngeh3. sbb esok ngn luse kite just ade satu class jaa. saye suke final sem nii!! bersusah payah dolu, bersenang-senang sekarang. hahaha..

let's recall some of lagu2 dangdut yg suatu mase dulu kite terhafal. huahuahua..

*bolehlah boleh datang ke rumahku
asal kau jumpa dulu orang tuaku

*100% cintaku
hey hey hey hanya untukmu

*dimataku dihatiku dijiwaku hanya ada kamu
matamu senyummu
buatku jadi tak tentu

*cinta oh cinta
penuh ceria
berwarni warni aneka cinta
cinta oh cinta
makin cinta makin indah
yang tak kenal cinta
jadi dicari salah sendiri
tak kenal cinta
cinta oh cintaaa

*bosan bosan bosan bosan bosan
dengan tingkahmu
pergi pergi pergi pergi pergi
dari sisiku

*duh aduh aduh aduh
aku tertipu
duh aduh aduh aduh
aku merana
duh aduh aduh aduh
aku sengsara
duh aduh aduh aduh
robek hatiku

*sengol-sengolan, cubit cubitan
aku bernyanyi kau petik gitar
senandungkan cinta
bunga berseri kumbang menari
asmara kita makin bersemi
semoga abadi

*pasir putih tepi pantai
ombak saling berkejaran
kau lari aku mengejar
di antara deru rindu
kita berdua

*dia tidak cantik mak
dia tidak jelek mak
yang sedang2 saja
yang penting dia setiaaa

*terang bulan malam ini
kerlipan bintang seribu
yang ku damba saat ini
hanyalah engkau yg satu
di dalam hidupku
panas panas panasnya mentari
tak sepanasnya cintaku ini
kepadamu yang aku kasihi
hingga akhir hayat ku nanti


hahahaha.. ade lagii nii. sambong next time. percayelahh kite mmg hapal lagu tu. huahuahua..

hail

sebelom terlupe.. tadi wellington hujan batu. dont know wheather it's a good thing. but that was my first time experiencing hail. hehe.. gumbira gumbira. hail sudeh. snow bile lagi nk turun kt wellington?? hehe.. here's a pic taken outside of my house.

nampak that small ice?

p.s. other than hail, i really really hope that malaysia can get at least a gold to bring home in Olimpik. go go team badminton!!

1% of evrythg

"it is very difficult to find someone special in life. but right now, i realize that everyone can be someone special for others. even if it's only a 1% chance. it's not that difficult. just make it happens. everyone has a special thing inside them. use it as i did, even it's just 1%. i wish that everyone can find that special thing, that 1%. everyone has that 1% but it depends who can find and use it. when you find that 1%, then life will be happily ever after. it's only 1% to be special. let's find that 1%"

huhu..if only life is as simple as that.

oh korean drama.. you make me live in my wonderland and never want to let go.

ayah salu cakap "pecayelaa dgn cite bohong tuu" bile die caught me menangis tgk tv. ahahaha.. sebab die suke tgk "kisah benar" sajo as in berita, 999, majalah 3, those sort of things. but kite always "melawann" ahahaha cakap it's really happen in real life. and cerita2 tersebut nk kasik pengajaran dan nasehatt kepade para penonton. heh heh.

but crite2 koreaa tuu btol2 wujud ke dalam real life?

kawen contract. love conract. tak suke sesame sendiri but then end up falling for each other and live happily ever after. huhu.. fairytale fairytale. but still... i wanna believe it. hehe..

lucky

this evening i found cik izah's earring while i'm trying to fix the blockage in our bathroom sink. lucky eh? ahahahaha.. it fell into the sink some time ago and we thought it's gone forever. heh heh. sile belanje saye makan ye cik izah. huahuahua.. subang keramat tu. kuang3~~

penah tgk movie just my luck? best gile kalo se-lucky itu. ah-ha.

i'm not that lucky lucky. but i am lucky enough to have live this life till this very moment. maybe esok luse.. malaikat maut datang menjemput. sape tahu kann?

p.s. cherish evrythg we have.

sile vacuum bilek

my advanced graduation form has been submitted to the school office today. weeeee~ hopefully i'll pass all my papers this semester so that i can have enough points to graduate. the ceremony will be held on 9 dec. my parents wouldnt be able to come tho. huhu.. sedey2. jeni, dayang and the cameraman aka kak farah also cant make it. they are all going back home on november. majok ngn jeni esp. ahahaha.. sebbaek cik izah ade and she already confirm grad this comin dec sebab da ade enough points.

will be quite/super busy this week. and next week also. got assigments to mark this weekend, have to study for multivariate test which will be on monday, statistics assignment to be handed in also on monday and statistic's project due on wednesday. should i skip the statistic's assigment? haha.. coz the mark doesnt count towards the final grade but we are compulsory to hand in at least 75% of the assignment. so tak buat 1 esemen kire ok laa kan. takponnnnn.. buat half je. heh heh.

last night sangat tak productive. the reason was the flu. menjadikan saye tak mahu buat any aktiviti berilmiah. haha.. tgk chuck, rearrange bilik, survey2 pasal shipping + melagha ape lagi ntah. asik betanggoh je nk buat keje. cube kalo start study multivariate mlm tadi. huhu.. cepatlaaahhhhhhh cutiii. ketidaksabaran!

p.s. semacam makan oranges dgn sgt byk. tapi still dpt flu. makan berlebihan kah smp jadi reverse effect atau my immune system da lemah ataupon petanda bilikku gile berhabokk. da bape lame tak vacuum ek?? haha..

regret

i think i fall in love with frank sinatra. hahahaha..

this is a song by him, My Way. some may describe this song as mengantok, lagu org tua, etc. ade aku kesah? haha..

And now, the end is near,
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life thats full,
I've traveled each and every highway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention,
I did what I had to do,
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course,
Each careful step along the highway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill, my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels,
And not the words of one who kneels,
The record shows I took the blows,
And did it my way!

just want to point out about regrets. did i have done anything that i regret later in my life? aaaaaa.. not very sure. but maybe this can sum it up.

"Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention,
I did what I had to do,
And saw it through without exemption"

haha..

i always want to be a doctor before i chose this PPC programme, which i'm certainly aware that i'll become a teacher not a doctor. decision made. period. maybe at one point, along these 4 and a half years of studying, i've regretted this decision. but maybe not, not even once. yeah. definitely sure. no regret. ahahaha.. but somehow, undeniably there are times that i wonder what my life would be if i do not leave matriculation. do i really really become a doctor? dah la pemalas. tido banyak! camne nk on call. huhu..

anywayy.. i'm so adamant to become a doctor at that time because i don't know what else to be. feel like no job suits me right. ahaha.. of course laa bile tgk tv akan terpengaruh nk keje mcm tu. but in the end, i'll always end up with doctor. however, i'm thinking about teacher a few times while watching this japanese drama series, Great Teacher Onizuka. heh heh.

dont worry my fellow students. i am a teacher. a real one. hahaha.

ayuni

sebelom terlupee, nak wish selamat hari lahir to ayuni. i'm pretty sure u'll read this. hehe..

and nak bgtaw mlm tadi ang dengan nazri ade dalam mimpi kite. nazri nk bwk ko kua makan, pinjam tarago someone yg seolah-olah pn.siti (jpa) sbb pn.siti adelah mak angkat nazri. die ade skali ahh dalam kete tu. then kite ngn wan(kot), p kejar korg sebab nk wish burfday. then nazri terus ajak ikot p makan. so kami pon ikot ahh.

tapi tetibe dalam tarago tuu ade plak dak2 jpa yg kantoi exam. and bile smp satu tempat nii, pn.siti suh depa2 turun and buat satu game untuk determine naseb scholarship dorg.

pastu mimpi da jadi semaken merepek. haha..

in conclusion, i wonder why in the first place i dream about u? huhu.. maybe i'm thinking too much about when is exactly your burfday. coz u r so secretive about yours kann. hehehe.. do you remember the trick i used last year? i said i wanna look at your passport. something to do with the visa. and you gave yours. ahahaha.. kene tipuuu! actually i wanna look at you ic no. heh heh =p.


selamat hari lahir ayuni~

^-^

feeling

cik sharifah just reply my email today. i asked her about whether i will be imposed any disciplinary action if i do not do Honours. and she reply this.

It is our policy that all students graduate with honours. However, those who fail to do so will not be taken any disciplinary action but bear in mind, you will have some difficulty in the future. It will be impossible for you to further your studies (Masters,PHD)if you graduate with a GD (general degree) not to mention there might be a difference between a teacher with Honours and a teacher with a GD in terms of salary.

sOoOo that's mean (in my understanding of course), i can choose my own path.

if i decide not to do, i should understand and accept the consequences of my action i.e. less paid, difficult to further Master/PHD. heh heh.

i had this feeling before, when i had to choose whether to stay and fight for my analysis course or give chris the white flag and surrender from the battle. ahahaha.. i chose to stay and fight. and miracle happened. i made it! Allah wont put your effort into a waste. keep that in mind.

however, now it is a different story. i feel like i dont wanna fight anymore. i feel like i wanna go home for good at the end of this year. one more year of KPLI and i'm done. a teacher, that's what i am then.

it's the matter of feeling and choosing the right thing. can i trust my feeling? because now it's telling me not to do honors. hahaha.. i hate making decision.

duhh!! perasan gile macam dpt buat honors. sekali sebenanya tak layak pon. hahaha..

elle persuade me to do it, she gave me 1001 reasons why i should do. but i still can seek comfort in cik izah. ahahaha..

kuatkan hati, percaya naluri. huhu..

keputusannya.. biarlah rahsia. huahuahua~

bridge

last nite, aisyah taught me a gymnastic step called bridge. it was difficult to push my shoulder and head up at first but after a few attemps i managed to do it. heh heh. semacam bangga sebentar. in other word, BANGGE SIOT! ahaks~

me doin bridge

i know it's not furrfect. but there's a room for improvement kan and my grandma salu ckp prektis makes furrfect. ahahaha.. (ceh. takdek keje nk prektis buat bende alah ni tiap2 ari. gilo apo! huhu..)

buah cempedak di luar pagar,
ambil galah tolong jolokkan,
saya budak baru belajar,
kalau salah tolong tunjukkan.

hehehehe :D

kelepong

aisyah came to our house this morning. she and cik izah study together for their comin com law test. heh heh. study ke kak? ceq dengaq ampa dok gelak2 jaa. me and cik izah fasting today and we have prepared food for bersahur during the nite (semangat. hehe..). but unfortunately i didnt hear my alarm clock this morning. BUTTT cik izah did woke up. BUTT she didnt woke me up!! huhu.. kehampasan sungguh.

but i cant put the blame on her tho. coz i know why she didnt do that. AHAHAHAHAHA.. gelak guling guling. sorry cik izah =P

anywayy i'm pretty happy today coz aisyah knew what kueh kelepong is. her grandma is from negri sembilan and always use that word when refering to ondeh ondeh@ buah melake as other people might call it. hmm.. i wonder wheater there are negri sembilan-ian yg taktaw ape itu kueh kelepong. might ask pali or hazirah. hehe.

sangat takdek mood nak buat assignment. i dont know what am i doing with my time today. pejam celik pejam celik it's already 9pm. huhu.. time is running faster than i can imagine.

it's 1 syaaban 1429 hijrah today. lagi sebulan Ramadhan menjelma. kite penah denga bahawe selaen Ramadhan, Rasulullah SAW paling banyak berpuasa dalam bulan syaaban berbanding bulan2 yg laen. mari memperbaiki diri, niat dan amal ibadah. semoge mencapai kemanisan iman dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaNya. insyaAllah.

demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian. melainkan orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal salih, dan nasihat-menasihati dengan kebenaran dan kesabaran. (surah al asr)

rojak

final episode of american next top model. won by saleisha. kenapeeeeeeeeeee dieee!! kenape?? i prefer chantal tho. because she's pure sweet+ innocent + cute mcm barbie. tak macam saleisha.. evry single thing she done, evry word she spoke, every smile she gave, every pose she made kite rase semcm dibuat-buat. menci menci menci!! i shud be the judge!!! AHAHAHAHA.. anywayy i just cant understand how they judge their photos especially in term of high fashion-cy.

i've read 15 pages of the lord of the rings, the fellowship of the ring. yeayy!! i skip the prologue of course! sangat bosan. huhu.. don't know when i'm gonna continue reading it. heavy reading ok! maybe when the time comes, i will completely forget what had happened in the first 15 pages. heh heh =P

neither pn.latifah nor cik sharifah reply my email. uhuuu.. cepatla cepatlaaaaa reply pls pls plssssss!!

i wanna confess something here. jeng jeng jeng. actually.. i only watch first 5 episodes (as far as i could remember) of sindarela, and i dont bother to follow the series because last semester i was extremely busy. but 2 or 3 days ago, those bloggers said they like its ending. huhu.. firstly, pardon my so called semangat enquiry yang tinggi. i went to tv3 website and homed in for the last episode. ahahahaha.. not that bad i shud say. i cant really judge. sbb tak tgk all other episodes. see.. am not that patient. huhu..

most of the time, when my frens introduce a movie or a book to me, i will surely ask for the storyline and of course its ending. heh heh. cos i don't actually like wasting my time just to find out that by the time i finish watching/ reading it, it's not the ending that i want it to be. i prefer happy ending ...and they live happily ever after, those sort of things. because i believe everyone deserve to live a happy life.

i like those words uttered by zoela before the series wrapped up.

dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya
senyum kerananya
menangis semahunya
sakit

bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata mahu rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya

for some of us finally we realize
that life isn't a fairytale
we need to start over

demi sebuah impian
tak salah untuk kita berkorban
bilamana hati kita rapuh
menghadapi realiti
nangis..
nangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkan hati kita terus rebah

sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian

in life we have to learn to let go
and keep on moving
the more you wait
the more you miss

bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi
sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip
mampu goyah
because of love
because we are human beings

mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati percaya naluri
just admit it
lafazkan cintaku mahukan dia

oranges

near midnite. doin nothing since asar. shud buat esemen. but nahh. procrastination is gud for health =). heh heh. after bukak pose lepak bilek cik izah tgk cite korea, 1% of everything. jae in comel!! he's a very hot tempered kind of guy, but when he tries to smile.. he looks dem cute. hahaha..

at this moment, i'm stuffing my stomach with oranges. sudaa mau tido sebenaye. juz nak bgtaw now nii saye suke oren!! oren sgt sedap!! you don't have to give me anythg on my burfday but oranges. i would be the happiest burfday girl eva. ahahahha..

people do change. don't they? i might hate orange one day (hopefully not. hehe..). anywayy.. tika dan saat ini, i'm juz so in loooooovee with oranges, to be specific navel oranges. p.s. takdek kaitan ngn cite korea ok. hehe..

some health benefits:
+ a healthy dose of vitamin C for antioxidant protection and immune support. p.s. kalo selesema elok makan oranges.
+ protection against cardiovascular disease.
+ a very good source of fiber. bole reduce high cholesterol level, keep blood sugar levels under control-healthy snack for people with diabetes, protection from colon cancer.
+ help prevent ulcers and reduce risk for stomach cancer.
+ prevent kidney stone.

oyasumii ^-^

great teacher

cuti skolah akan bermula soOn. yeayy!! saye dan cik izah akan p melepak umah yusma. which means dpt makan sedap2. insyaAllah. huhu..

i took advanced graduation form from school office yesterday. but stil haven't fill it up yet. i just don't know whether i want to graduate this comin dec or not. it's depend on my decision on doing honors or not. can i escape?? anyway, pn.latifah doesn't reply my email yet. we'll see. huhu.. i don't feel like wanna continue studying anymore. feel like i have enough. ahahaha.. i just want to be a teacher. great teacher =). hehe.. i dont have that dreams to pursue master, phd and become a lecturer. i just want to be a teacher. i just want to be a teacher.

kenapa perlu begitu
kenapa setelah sekian lama
dia masih tidak berubah
terus melukakan hati
mereka yang ada di sisi
kenapa tidak menghargai
setiap pengorbanan dan kesetiaan
perlukah mereka pergi
supaya dia sedar
dengan kesalahan diri
mungkin dia tidak nampak realiti
mungkin dia hidup di alam fantasi
bukalah mata
bukalah hati
sungguh kecil pintaku ini
aku tidak mampu bersuara
pasti aku akan melukakan hati mu
dan aku tidak mahu itu
aku hanya mampu berdoa
hargailah mereka
sebelum aku putus asa
sebelum hati mereka tertutup untukmu.

mengidam

now nihh winter. lately plakk slalu ujan sepanjang ari. perot asik lapaa. kalo tak lapa ponn nafsu makan sangatla menjadi-jadi. maybe psychology. sejuk = mau mkn. heh heh. berat semacam mempunyai pecutan seragam. *alert liza alert*

arini sangat craving tok makan something selaen drpd nasi. memandangkan sume choc/biskut/junk fud suda abes.. kite semacam berfikir-fikir untuk membuat kueh. donut? huhu.. tersgtlaa lame baru siap. perot da tak menahan. soOoO ended up buat kueh buah melake. sonang yo nk buek eh.

acad said it's not kueh buah melake. it's kueh melake. lantak p kat hang la. ceq tak kesah mane yg btol. ahaha.. sbb mak ceq tak panggil both. mak panggil kueh kelepong. i don't know whether it's well known in negeri sembilan or it is just my mom. huhu.. but still.. it is the same kueh.

perhaps, after this buat donut plak. but kene p new woL beli icing sugah. hmm.. semacam mengidam roti bakar juge. aiseymen! ari ujan.. camne mau turun bando.

oh kelas

6am bgn solat subuh. then lepak2 sat. around 8am tidoq balek.
10am bangon. hmm..wat pe ek?? abeskan mark esemen kot. denga lagu. borak2 ngn elle.

elle: clas ko kol 1pm kan?
me: aah (dgn confidentnye. huhu..)

11.30am mandi sebab nk pi clas

dlm shower: tgh semangat mandi. suddenlyy..tingtong(bunyik loceng umah).
me: wahhhhh..sure cik izah dpt parcel ni. jeles2.

tak lame pastu...

elle: lizaaaaaaaaaa!! clas ko kol 11am laaaaa. (ila dtg senanye. die amek stat331 same ngn kite.)

me:*blurr sebentar*. ape??? demmmmmmmmm! arini rabu. clas stat331 tu kol 11. bukan kol 1.

arghhhhhhhhh. kan da terskip kelas.

cik izah gelak hell. duhh!!

p.s. like 3 weeks ago cik izah asked me to do timetable. dgn angkuhnye saye berkate.."xyahlaa buat. class sket je. mesti ingat punye."

moral: sile buat timetable besar gajah. hahaha..

fighting

let's love like we've never been hurt before
let's dance like no one is praising us
let's sing like no one is listening to us
let's work like we don't need money for it
let's live like today is the doomsday

let's love like we've never been hurt before

don't turn your back to the past
but don't worry about the future
just work hard as each day goes by
and live life to the fullest
fighting!


da abes tgk kim sam soon!! heeeee~~

p.s. she told them. but indirectly. actually, it's not that indirect for her. but maybe they have different wavelenght. so they didn't get the actual point. but she's happy with that i think. at least she doesn't lose the thing that she's afraid of losing. perhaps tomorrow or 1 year from now, they will figure it out. perhaps they never will.

my name is kim sam soon

melayan korean drama series bertajok my name is kim sam soon.

"a person i can proudly introduce to my parents and sisters that he's my man and introducing me to his parents and friends that i am his woman"(kim sam soon, episode 2).

samsoon ckp camtu sbb ex-bf die didn't intoduce her to anyone. huhu.. kesian gile.

ape barang sorok2. kalo ade lelaki macam tuu, tinggal sudey. tak berbaloi.

to quote from a guy, "jangan pecaye sangat kat lelaki". ayat ini dikeluarkan oleh lelaki sendiri. hmm..pelik bin ajaib. lelaki sendiri yg ckp diorg mcm tu. what should we expect? depan pompuan manis mulut. pijak semut pon tak mati. belakang kutuk.

sepi

i think it's a big

NO

hahahaha.. she can handle that. she can.

p.s.

officially added one more subject. no more lecture-free-day. huhu.. berusahalah!!

watch p.s. i love you 2 or 3 days ago. surprise surprise. i didn't cry!! ahahaha.. bagaimanekah? kite stop kat part yg sedeh. then tidoq. esok tu sambung tgk. ahaks~ anywayy.. cite tu takdeklaa sedih sangat ponn. takleh challenge kesedihan cerite "mann".

p.s. saye rajen. hehe..

differentiation

some people say things that they do not mean to say. some people telling lies. some people telling jokes but deep inside they really mean it or they are serious about it. but she, a normal human being who does not possess a super power cannot always differentiate, cannot always tell, which one is a lie, which one is the truth, whether they are joking or they mean it. sometimes she got confused with them, sometimes she took the matter seriously, when they are suppose to be not.

she can ask them for clearity. she wants to tell them her feeling so that she won't regret it one day. maybe they feel the same too, she thought. but that doesn't seem as an easy task to her especially on that very issue. a sensitive one she supposed. being a "she" maybe. instead of "he". perhaps if she ever asked, she will lose them, lose the precious bond that exists between her and them.

she wants to tell her feeling. she wants to hear nothing but the truth.

she have to ask.

but she doesn't have the courage.

is this their fault? or it's hers? not be able to differentiate emotions/expressions/ facts/ jokes but did pretty well in mathematical differentiation.

sigh~