finito

oh.. officially all my lectures end todayy. yeayyy!! it's a good thing. but what's not good is.. lectures end=final exam is around the corner. uhuuuuuuuu..

if possible, i would like to open a free-of-exam school. hahaha.. fun kan. no stress. no worries. no headache. anywayy..sungguh tak logic. haha.. nnt camne nk taw sape yg pandai, sape yg layak masok uni, etc..

but i can evaluate them by internal assessment kan?? internal assessments aren't as scary as examinations i suppose. coz you can do it at home, leisurely, with your frens, with hot coffee or tea or iced milo + junk foodss + choc + duvet + etc + hahaha...

soOoOo make it free-of-exam-just-internal-assessments school. oh.. bestnyeee! hahahaha..

"oh girl..i want to see you tonite" (sambil tiru aksi mamat bwh nii)
ahaks~

Cut off Your Hands - 'Oh Girl'

hahaha.. klakaaaa gile. dengan aksi tersepit die. rambot tak tahannn. suar carrot cut. huhu.. ape2 ponn.. lagu nii bestttt!!

i am... i said

saye sukeeeeeeeeee lagu ini. originally sang by neil diamond but i like brooke's version more :D

i am... i said - Brooke White

L.A's fine, sun shines most of the time
And the feeling is lay back
The palm trees grow and the rents are low
But you know, I keep thinking about
Making my way back

I'm Arizona born and raise
But nowadays
I'm lost between two shores
L.A's fine, but it ain't home
Arizona's home, but it ain't mine no more

I am I said
To no one there
And no one heard at all night
Even the chair
I am I cried
I am said I
And I am lost and I can't even say why
Leaving me lonely still

Did you ever read about a girl who dream to be a queen
And then became one
Well except for the names and few of the changes
If you talk about me
The story's the same one

I've got an emptiness deep inside
And I try and try
But it won't let me go
I'm not a girl who likes to swear
But I'll never care of the sound of being alone

I am I said
To no one there
And no one care at all night
Even the chair
I am I cried
I am said I
And I am lost and I can't even say why
I am I cried
I am said I
And I am lost and I can't even say why
I am I said
I am I cried
I am I said

dengarlah matahariku

1 week of classes to go. soOoOo closeee to final examination. sangat takot!! kite nak pass je. it's more than enough for me for this sem. kalo bole turn back time, kite takkan amek paper analysis and statistic tu. kite nk amek algebra/ mathematical logic, statistic yg dyg, ila, pali n eja amek, plus satu paper merepek, maybe japanese..sbb cik izah amek japa this sem. i don't know what is gonna happen. but i pray to you Allah, please help me. sesungguhnya Engkaulah sebaek-baek pembantu.

last time i told kakmun that lagu matahariku by agnes monica tak sedap. huhu.. but i take that now. bole kan kakmun? hahahha..

~matahariku~

Tertutup Sudah Pintu, Pintu Hatiku
Yang Pernah Dibuka Waktu Hanya Untukmu
Kini Kau Pergi Dari Hidupku
Kuharus Relakanmu Walau Aku Tak Mau

Berjuta Warna Pelangi Di Dalam Hati
Sejenak Luluh Bergeming Menjauh Pergi
Tak Ada Lagi Cahaya Suci
Semua Nada Beranjak Aku Terdiam Sepi

Dengarlah Matahariku, Suara Tangisanku
Kubersedih Karna Panah Cinta Menusuk Jantungku
Ucapkan Matahariku Puisi Tentang Hidupku
Tentangku Yang Tak Mampu Menaklukkan Waktu

burn. huhu..

first degree burn. huhu.. palm tersentuh hot plate time masak td. sebbaek sket ja yg kene. swell a bit + redness. pedihhhh!!! iskisk..malang tidak berbau.

some tips for minor burn:

For minor burns, including first-degree burns and second-degree burns limited to an area no larger than 3 inches (7.5 centimeters) in diameter, take the following action:

* Cool the burn. Hold the burned area under cold running water for at least five minutes, or until the pain subsides. If this is impractical, immerse the burn in cold water or cool it with cold compresses. Cooling the burn reduces swelling by conducting heat away from the skin. Don't put ice on the burn.

* Cover the burn with a sterile gauze bandage. Don't use fluffy cotton, which may irritate the skin. Wrap the gauze loosely to avoid putting pressure on burned skin. Bandaging keeps air off the burned skin, reduces pain and protects blistered skin.

* Take an over-the-counter pain reliever. These include aspirin, ibuprofen (Advil, Motrin, others), naproxen (Aleve) or acetaminophen (Tylenol, others). Never give aspirin to children or teenagers.


Caution:

* Don't use ice. Putting ice directly on a burn can cause frostbite, further damaging your skin.

* Don't apply butter or ointments to the burn. This could prevent proper healing.

* Don't break blisters. Broken blisters are vulnerable to infection.


tapi time kat umah..kalo tesentuh bende panas mak suh letak minyak gamat. hmm..

math and love

these are the graphs of cardioids. more or less like a heart shape. kan kan?? hahaha..

so instead of saying "i love you" to your lover, why not say "1 - sinθ" for example. huahuahua.. ~wondering what kind of reaction you/I/his/her will get~

if you have a graphic calculator, try draw them. don't forget to switch the mode to "polar".

p.s. ade org kate "tak macam love pon, macam buah epal la, adjust laa kasik tajam, etc.."

to orang itu: terimelaaa seadenyeee. hahaha.. =P

i am legend

oh..in spite of the busy-nesss i've been complaining about, we managed to watch another movie this evening. hahaha.. rosak sungguh! we watched i am legend. someone said it is quite scary. hmm.. not really kot. but some scenes did get me shocked. but not as scary as watching ghost movie though. i like will smith. hehe.. also a good movie. but i got lots of questions in my head about the storyline. maybe i'm thinking too much. just accept as it is laaa. haish!

another movie cik izah? hehe..

appreciate

appreciate.. seems like a small word. yet give such a big impact in everyone's life i suppose.

we appreciate nikmat Allah by perfoming solat, berzikir, bersedekah, tolong-menolong, etc.

how do we appreciate people around us?

susah sgt ke nk appreciate ape yg org dah buat kat kite? a "terime kaseh" will do.

"we dont know what we have till we lost them"

is it always that way?

should i be that "lost thing"?

will i then be appreciated?

what if people don't even notice they lost me?

hokkien chow mein

yesterday, cik izah got a new invoice for her medical treatment. but she had already paid for it. so we went to wellington hospital to settle it down. but she has to come again on monday because the finance office was closed. we planned to eat at Cinta and met kak farah and kak nuha on the way. they were going there too. they were having kinda small "celebration" for some medic students who will be away at some places for some weeks for their clinical practices. hehe..so we joined them.

i ordered hokkien chow mein and wanted it to be extra pedasss. haha.. in need of eating pedas food! but turned out that you can't have it extra pedas. neither mild nor medium. no hot also ok. haish2. maluu jaaa.. ingt sume food bole request tahap kepedasan. but the uncle gave me kuah kicap with cili potong2 in it. but i didn't eat the cili. i just like my food tasted hot without having to eat "the real cili". hehe..

takpelaa.. next time order malaysian mee goreng . die ade tahap kepedasan. huhu..

it's weekend again! but i'm not satisfied for what i am last week. so0o0 not productive. many things being procrastinated. duhh!! as a result, i am super busy now. got assignmentss due on monday, tuesday and friday. arghh!! btw am really grateful because i didn't have assignments to mark this weekend. Steven didn't got the time to print solutions and sort them out. hehe..

mimpi semalam

mimpi kene patok ularr. bukankah ade org kate itu tandenyee nk kawen or ade org masok meminang or sth like that. huahuahuahua.. dush dush!!

over her dead body

last night, instead of finishing our assignmentss, we chose to watch "over her dead body". it's a romantic comedy movie about a ghost, named Kate (acted by eva longoria) who dead on her wedding day after being crashed by an angle. hahaha.. it's actually an ice sculpture of an angle. anwayy.. after her death, she tries to sabotage her former boyfren's relationship, Henry with a girl named Ashley. she's a phychic. Kate managed at first but then she realise that the reason why she can't cross over is to make sure that his boyfren will move on after her death. so again..she goes to Ashley but this time to ask her to go to Henry. this movie is funny, sweet and most important has a happy ending. hehe.. give it a try. go watch.

rubik's cube

this guy is cool. hahaha..

part I:



part II:

games

i dont play computer games that much. and my laptop doesnt has any other games except those that being installed when i first bought it. then in Uniten, i installed these games called Drug lord and Icy tower. got it from maz, my housemate. drug lord is a very interesting game. haha.. it's about making money by selling drugs. you have to decide when to buy those drugs, what kind of drugs that give you more money, selling them when the price goes high, prevent yourself from police, fly overseas to get cheaper drugs, etc etc.

hahaha.. i learn many drug's name though. mda, hashish, pot, opium, ice, esctasy, heroin, etc etc. the highest title you can get is "drug lord". i never get one. but almost-drug-lord kot. but didnt remember what is it call. it's been a long time since i play it. maz and zati penah dpt drug lord kot. it's like when you make lots lots lots of money that you serve the title.

Icy tower is fun. you need to climb the tower before time's up. of course you can increase your speed by continuously pressing the key and climb with style. those who have play it before surely know what "style" mean (kot. hehe..). you can jump like 4 or 5 steps at one time. then you will get bonus mark when the word "good", "excellent", "amazing" etc..appears while you climbing. the higher you climb, the shorter the time, the more difficult it will get. of course la kan. hehehe..

other games that i played are minesweeper and solitaire. hahaha.. every computer has those two games i think. my best times for minesweeper are 11 secs for beginner, 55 secs for intermediate and 247 secs for expert. wanna beat those times, but still haven't manage to.

and during last summer holiday, i've been playing sudoku at home. then get bored by it. perhaps the book that i bought is easy. the expert part has like 21 numbered boxes (i barely remember). then i saw this sudoku puzzle with only 16/17 numbered boxes. so that "expert" part in that book not really "expert" kan. haha.. that's why i wondered senangnye sudoku ni. but the 16 numbered boxes is susAh. huhu..

now i'm craving for rubik's cube. ngeh3~~

and da lame tak maen chess. hmm.. masih ingatkah macammane nk maen..

a parcel from japan

i can see a courier van stopped in front of my house through the window. i can see he holding a parcel on his hand. i know it's from japan. and i hope it's for me. but whose from japan would send me a parcel? i know i like someone from there. heh. but i'm no one. so why would he send me one kan.. duhh perasan! and of course it's for cik izah. hahaha..

i notice that receiving mails and parcels from family and friends can make my day.
send me one send me one.. puh-lizzzzs. ahahahaha..

norani II

Not to say that all the views are false. We have lovely and beautiful flowers when spring comes. Roses and tulips in the botanical garden are so0o0o damn gorgeous. Sadly no snow in Wellington. Huhu.. can’t walk in the snow. Can’t look the snow falling down through my bedroom window. Sometimes I wonder how it feels to have snow here. I went to mount ruapehu last winter. skiing. Not as easy as I saw on terebi. can’t control my feet and kept falling down. Ahahaha.. saket pungkok.

Anywayss.. the most challenging thing as an overseas student is that i have to be strong, every single day. Mentally and physically I should say. Physical is nothing about running here and there, doing heavy work, struggling to find a job to feed my stomach, etc. it’s so0o0o not that. I mean physical as in stay healthy. No cold, no flu, no infection. Nothing but healthy. medical treatment can cause u a fortune. Huhu..

Mentally strong? Being away from family is very hard for me. I’ve been to boarding school before. But it is not the same as that. I can go home at least once a month. Here, I should be grateful for having the chance to go home once a year.

Sometimes i feel that i am all alone, even when i have good friends around me. It is always not easy to cope with emotion. i feel like wanna cry out loud, feel like wanna go home at that very moment (if only pintu suke hati is available), feel like to give up everything that i have reached so far.. you know that kind of feeling.

Yet i can’t simply quit. There is a big responsibility on my shoulder. i have contract with my sponsor. i carry my family name. i carry my future. Giving up will only destroy everything.

Tired? I am. Tired to be strong when I am not. Tired to stay calm when only Allah knows the feeling inside. Tired of the never-ending assignments. Tired of competing with the time. Tired to be brave every time the exam is coming. Huhu..

But take it as a challenge in your life.

I didn’t face hardship every day. I didn’t feel tired everyday. Most of all.. i didn’t feel homesick everyday. Just sometimes.. when the little devil crawling out.

Plus..i learn a lot.. about life, about friendship, about family, about myself, about people, learning to appreciate more, to be more independent, more tolerate, more patience, more thoughtful, more loving, more caring, and macam2 lagi.. ekekeke =P

I think I might be a different person as what I am now if I’m not here. Hehe..

Back to kaktih.. I think I might be a bit difficult to let her go if one day she managed to get an offer to study overseas. Cause I am just afraid.. and worried.. she’s still a little girl that i used to know. Hahaha.. tu baru adek, if anak camne? Jengjengjeng~~

norani

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to norani,
happy birthday to youu!!

yesterday was kaktih's 13th birthday. welcome to the world of "teen"ager little girl! wish you the best in life. i always told her to study well, to get good result so that she can fly oversea.

honestly, studying oversea sounds so great to me when i was at her age. little or zilch did i know about them geograhically, culturally, environmentally, etc etc. i assumed they all have four seasons. winter and spring were the season i like the most, that i wished we in Malaysia could have. skiing, snowboarding, snowman-ing, walking in the midst of snow where everything seems pure and white or just by looking the snow falling down through the bedroom window, while flowers bloom everywhere during spring, that may lead your heart to bloom with happiness were the things that always overwhelmed my heart with such a wonder, admiration and amazement at that time.

well..that's the view that i got from terebi. sume indah- indah belake. hehe..


to be continue..

ramen

Me, Wan and Dayang went out for groceries shopping today. spent like 3 hours in Pak N Save. haha..it seems quite a long time. but we just can't help it. nk pilih oat pon lame. hehe.. met Jeni and her housemates there too. anyway..i know i didnt have enough money in my current account to pay for the groceries. i forgot to transfer it before i went out today. but i am very curious (saye mempunyai semangat enquiry yg tinggi; salah satu punca Renaissance ye! if u can recall high school history. hehe..) to know how the eftpos-swipe card-machine/thingy will response to my card. hehe.. then after i keyed in my pin number..

taraaaaa.. the word "decline" appeared on the screen. "o0o0o..camtu rupenye kalo tak cukop duet". hahaha..

ni sume gare2 ehem2 jugak senanye. die da 3 kali xcukop duet dlm current account. so i justtt wanna experience that too. hehe.. then wan bayaq barang2 tadi. it's not kinda embarassment to me though, having the word "decline" appeared on the screen, in front of the cashier. it's called curiosity. hahaha.. lagipon cashier tadi girl. heeeeeee..

and we all bought ramen. made in Korea okay. haha.. takyah pi korea =P

wan poyo jaa amek hot and spicy. nak challenge kite la konon. time makan tadi dia dok berhingus2 + berair mata menahan kepedasan. hahahaha.. tulaaa. lenkali jgn belagak. ekekeke =P

tak terurus

my life revolves around books, assignments, turorials and lectures. no play play arr. haha.. "all work and no play made Jack a dull boy". huuu.. that's why my brain seems to go so slowww now. ahahaha.. but if i go out to play, i don't have time to take care of "my planet". nnt everything goes wrong and then collapse. takdek tempat tinggal n tempat bergantong da. huhu..

last nigh, i slept with wan. i thought i brought along my handphone a.ka.a jam loceng. ruper-rupenye kite bawak pencil. haha.. see.. pencil pon bole jadi henpon bile terlalu involve dgn keje. iskisk.. my room was so messy + miserable with papers. on the desk, under the desk, on the floor, on the bed. duhhh.. feel like EVERYWHERE. analysis assignment + stat tutorial due today. this mon, analysis test. then tuesday, algebra assignment due. then wed, stat assignment. before wat assignment kene bace dulu sbb tak paham and tak ingat. aiyaaa!!

no life no life. tachycardia.