triste

9.14pm.

i can hear the sound of the rain
pouring down heavily outside
just like the invisible tears on my cheek
running down heavily and endlessly
it took my spirit little by little
each and every moment
all i hope is that..
i will survive till the end

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim..tabahkanlah hatiku untuk menempuhi hari-hariku, berikanlah ku kekuatan and permudahkanlah segala urusanku. Amin.

hujan

while sleeping, i heard rain was falling down heavily. haha.. i don't know how..but my brain automatically told me that it was 7am (without even looking the clock). duhh! i can't went out for morning jogging. then i continue to sleep soundly. ahaks!

but wan told me during breakfast that the rain was started at 4am+ and stopped before 7am. heeeee.. :D

alasan takmo pi jogging. pandai pandai!

only 5 weeks of classes left. can't wait to finish the exam.

5 weeks = 35 days = 840 hours = 50400 mins = 3024000 secs.

jom kire!

1 2 3...

(that 3 dots is known as "3 magic dots" in mathematics. we used it to denote terms that follow a given sequence when it is obvious what comes next)

in everyday language, i think "..." equals to "blablabla"

hehe.. =P

si rama-rama

wuuuuuuuu.. pening pale mcm nk pecah. algebra test?? waaaaa.. tak terkate. no comment. huhu.. actually wanna finish statistic's assignment now. but my brain IS really busy coping with the headache. so it can't be disturb with heavy stuff like statistic. hahaha.. alasan! it's due this wed. (so got time kan? ekekeke.. =P)

cik izah suda sampai arini. yeay!! hidupku kembali meriah. haha.. btw, dayang tgh melagha now ni. she's in my room, watching tv. tomorrow we're gonna jog. me and dayang. at 7am. ahahaha.. yeah.. she won't make it tomorrow. i bet. ahahaha.. (ntah2 kite pon tak pegi. hehe..)

ingat lagi tak lagu zaman kecik2 dolu..

contohnye..

"izah oh izah, zuru nak jumpe, di taman tasik perdana, izah malu-malu, zuru kenyit mate, zuru kate i love u"

haha.. i sang this song to cik izah some time ago. but she said she never heard it before. instead, she sang me this song..

"rama-rama bintik, ikan keli panjang, izah cantek, zuru sayang"

haha.. guess what?? this time kite plak yg xpenah dengaq lagu tu..

cik izah kata maybe lagu camtu ikot location kot. selatan laen. utara laen. lagipon kat perlis takdak tasik perdana. ada tasik melati ja. hahaha.. klaka klaka. tapi kat negeri sembilan ade pe ikan keli and rama-rama. tp ceq xpenah dengaq pon lagu tu. huhu..

sebut pasal rama-rama, teringat time blaja komsas kat skolah dulu. ade satu cite ni tajuk die "jangan bunuh rama-rama". cant recall what it is really about. hehe.. lenkali learn by heart. mcm belaja naek basikal.. bile da pandai, kalo lame tak naek beskal pon stil taw mcm mane nk bawak.

i've tried to learn but heart, but there are things that my heart didn't want to learn. contohnye.. math311, math312 and stat333. but i need them for my degree. so0o0o cane cane?? hahaha..

saye nk belaja menjahit baju kurung dan baju melayu dan membuat kuih muih dan kek-kek dan lauk-pauk dan bile senang saye nak membace novel.

that's what my heart wanna know and wanna learn. iskisk..

soal hati.. neverending~

scuola ha cominciato oggi

- 1st day school after 2 weeks of holiday.
- cik izah sampai arini. yeay!
- algebra test at 5pm. huu.. cuak cuak.


renung-renungkan..
solehah women smile in trouble, gather strenght from doa and grow brave by istighfar and solah.

ciao!

btw, the word "ciao" comes from italian language. it can be used to mean hello or goodbye, depend on the situation. a formal way to say hello is "salve" and goodbye is "arrivederci".

kakikukeko

am suffocated with algebra.

found this one while "stalking" blog. haha..

jom exercise!

Ketam ketip kuku kakinya. Kawan karib Ketam, Kodok, kata kepada Ketam "Kenapa kau ketip kuku kaki kau, Ketam... kenapa?"Ketam kata, "Ku ketip kuku kakiku kerana kuku kakiku kelurut...kakakku kata, kalau kuku kaki ku kelurut, kita kena ketiplah!" Kodok kentut kekeliruan. Kodok kata kekalutan,"Kadang-kadang kalau kukuku kelurut, ku ketip kenapa keluar kudis?" Ketam ketawa, Kah..kah..kah. .kah..kih..kih..kih..kih..Kuh..kuh..kuh..kuh!! Kodok. .Kodok..kenapa kadar kebodohan kau ketara keterlaluan?" Kodok kata kepada Ketam, "Ketam. Kenapa kau ketawakan ku?" Ketam kilas, "Kelakar." "Kelakar ke kurang-ajar?" kata Kodok. Kerana kemarahan Kodok keterlaluan, Kodok keperok kepala ketam kuat kadar kilat."kelekuk !", kepala Ketam kehancuran kerana kena keperok Kodok. Ketam kata, "Kodok.. Kodok.. kenapa kau keperok kepalaku? Kan kesakitan."Kesian Ketam, kepala kena keperok.

hmm.. is keperok = ketuk? haha..

mr.gump

just finished watching Forrest Gump. i don't really like the ending. i prefer it ends when he met jenny and little forrest or on their wedding day. but still a good movie though.

"life is like a box of chocolate. you'll never know what you gonna get"

but chocolate kinda good thing to get right? ade ke orang tak suke coklat? hehe.. but life doesn't always good to us.. kan? sometimes we fall down, sometimes we get hurt, sometimes everything seems to go against us.

..but we always keep moving.. with our own way, at our own pace.

that's life.

p.s. if you fall down x times, get up x + 1 times. mathematically. hehe.. =P

oyasumi!!

menunggu

aku lihat
dia di situ
menanti sesuatu
biar tak mungkin berlaku
aku tahu dia juga tahu
masa terus berlalu
namun dia masih menunggu
kerana dia degil
kerana dia tidak mampu
untuk berganjak walau selangkah
kerana selangkah
bererti dia kalah

aku lihat
burung-burung berterbangan bebas
layang-layang menyusur megah
namun dia masih di situ
umpama paksi bumi
berdiri teguh
tiada berubah
masih terjerat dengan langkah
dia cekal dia pasrah
dengan
penantian tiada noktah

aku tahu
dia juga tahu
hidup bukan hakiki
yang hidup pasti mati
namun aku juga tahu
selagi dia masih bernyawa
selagi nafas masih di dada
selagi ada daya upaya
dia akan tetap di situ
menunggu
dan terus menunggu

-nma-

final!!

Ayuni has just told me that the exam timetable was out (",). thx ayuni!

jengjengjeng..

saye sungguh teruja

:(

math311, 21st june, 9.30am
math312, 23rd june, 2.30pm
stat333, 25th june, 9.30am

a very nice number perhaps!

it's berderettttttttttt!! tp maseh ade sediket mercy di situ. think positive. it's not 3 days in a row. ok ok. bernafas dgn normal.

25th june is the last day of exam. i (with some other lucky students) will be the last person in that exam hall. saya sungguh teruja!

and thats mean i only have a week of holidaysss before the new sem starts. teruja once again.

do i have enough time to catch my breath? the courage to face the exam result?


p.s. saya amat pasti cik jeni merdeka dgn sgt awal. saye teruje utk mengetahuinya!

p.s. dayang merdeka on 23rd. but i still have ayuni on 24th! =)


25th june, a date to look forward!

run liza run

me and dayang still fasting today. but i'm so not gonna sleep this morning. yesterday i was attacked by headache for the whole day just because i slept after bersahur. s0o0o rather than doing some academic reading on this early morning, i opt to babble here. it keeps me awake! hehe..

this is my final year and this semester is very important for me as what will happen next depends on what had happened this semester.

- if i pass all the paper (insyaAllah..pray for me too), i only need to do ONE paper next semester and pass that one paper to get hold of a degree, BSc, majoring in mathematics and statistics. then i have these choices:
**do that ONE paper in that semester or
**apply for honors program next sem, and if i ever get the chance, start doing some honors papers. so thats mean ONE + one honors paper (at least one, but at most two =P).
**and continue with honors programme next year. which mean that i can stay here for one more year (yeay. i love welly!), which mean a year of merane^200 to go. thats not a yeay :(

- but if something terrible happen this semester (that i wish for not), i need to do ONE + whatever number of papers that i stuck this semester. that number range from 1 t0 3. so thats mean i need to do 2 or 3 or FOUR papers next semester.

oh tidakkkk!! 2 or 3 or 4 papers next sem equal to merane^100. i just want to do ONE (for a deg). please please pleaseeeeeeeee.

so0o0o.. i SHOULD merane this sem and to ensure that my merane this sem paid off and paid well. "well" means i pass all the papers, so as not to merane^100 nex sem.

in my world at this moment for this sem, study = merane. hahaha..

1st and 2nd year were honeymoon albeit merane a bit. heh!

see it? 3rd year is "lonjakan paradigma". whatever that mean. haha.. but the point is.. i feel that the percentage of difficulty in its subject (3rd year subj) is so0o0o sudden and frightenly shocking for a student like me. that i have to build a shield around me to keep me sane, to keep me be a student.

i am wondering whether all the choices that i have made till this point of my life are the right one. like coming here, doing math and stat.

what happen if i choose to stay in matriculation? i think i will become a doctor then. hehe.. doctor liza. cause i dont know what else to take in uni other than medicine. plus i was in the same matrix with shida and fiza (they all doc wannabe now ni, so most probably me too!). i am so adamant to become a doctor since i was little (beside all my other cita-cita), and becoming a doctor was always in my list whenever i handed in the form that teachers in school gave every single year. what my life would be then?

it is all about the choices that i've made all these while..

what if in the next 10 or 20 years from now that i finally realise that i dont suit to become a teacher?

Run Fatboy Run. he chose to leave his fiancee on their wedding day only to realise five years later that she is the one.

hehe..

anywayyy.. be positive. it's not about whether you have made the right choice or not. it's about making the choice that you have made the right one for you.

i'll keep that in mind =)

run liza run. run for that "segulung ijazah". f.i.g.h.t.i.n.g!

btw, running is fun. i loike!

cerita

sepi malam
berteman kilauan bintang
indah melakar cerita
cerita tentang dia
cerita tentang saya
kisah duka
kisah bahagia
ada tangis hiba
ada gelak ketawa
lembut membelai jiwa
perit menghiris luka
masa penentu segala

-nma-

p.s. 1st poem. rewritten so as to put them in one place.

liza sensei --> liza si tukang jahit --> liza si penyajak. =)) gelak guling2.

if this habit continues, i'll have enough poems to be publish in a book. thats mean $$. and if mendapat sambutan, thats mean more edition to come and thats mean more and more $$$. gile berangan and gile mate duitan. haha..

btw, mcm ada publisher jaa nk terbitkn. ah-ha.

dusk

seketika di jendela
melihat kejadian alam
indah mempersona

senja berlabuh
malam membuka tirai
nun di ufuk barat
sang suria mengundur diri
memberi ruang kepada bulan
bersinar bercahaya

semua tersusun rapi
biar kelmarin atau hari ini
tiada beza
tiada satu cela
tanda kehebatan Maha Esa

semua di depan mata
namun masih alpa
itu lumrah manusia
timbul tanda tanya
adakah esok masih sama

-nma-

bagai bulan dipagar bintang

woke up at 6.30am, perform subuh prayer, begadoh dgn diri sendiri whether to jog or not. haha.. pagi2 da saiko. finally pegi jugak. but just for 15-20mins. then doing laundry + making breakfast. while having breakfast with dayang, some questions being raised. dunno how we can jump into it. anyway.. will looking for the answer when i got nothing else to do.

- macam mane bole ade 4 musim?

- kenape bukan sume negare ade 4 musim?

- bulan sejenis bintang ke?

- bulan kawal pasang surut air. what if asteroid langgar bulan and bulan tu hilang, ape akan jadi kat pasang surut air di Bumi? if ade bulan, thats mean planet tu ade air ke? haha..

-ade planet yg ade byk bulan. how come ek?

- dayang ckp, dolu2 ade asteroid langgar Bumi dgn kuatnye (something dekat India), then hasil pelanggaran tu menyebabkan ade object naek atas, and jadi bulan. hmm??

nampaknyee topic bulan sgt interesting. hahaha.. but some questions may have no answer. like.. how come ade byk bulan. xdek jawapan kot. haha..


while browsing thru internet i found this:

1. mercury - 0 moon
2. venus - no moon
3. earth - 1 moon
4. mars - 2 moons
5. jupiter - 62 moons
6. saturn - 33 moons
7. uranus - 27 moons
8. neptune - 13 moons
9. pluto - 1 moon

p.s. saye pernah bercita-cita utk jadi astronomer dulu. haha...

heroess!

1 2 3 go


these are my lecturers for this semester. brilliant men they are! inspired to be like them. but need extra work of course! am not born as genius. huhu.. the thought of doing honors scared me damn much. me doing master + phd?? pengsan berhari-hari. hahaha.. but again.. it's hope and dream that keeps me moving and keeps me happy. s0o0o no harm to berangan jadi supergenius like them kan. =P

wondering about my future as a sensei; disarangi pelajar? bahan kutukan? guru cemerlang? guru pemalas? ahahaha.. we'll see.

math isn't just numbers

have been studying algebra for a couple of hours (hours include eating + daydreaming + nap-ping + chitchatting + studying. haha..)

1>0. obviously. it has being nailed in my head since i was kindergarten. in math312, i need to prove this. haha.. i can't. seriously. can i just answer Chris (my math312 lecturer) that it is obvious?

i read these somewhere..

:: lOvE is when you can't hate. no matter how much harm is done to you. and if you can love beyond all hurt and pain, then it is lOvE.

:: loVE is about letting go the one you love with a smile and good wishes, s0 he/she can be happier. if his/her partner can make the one you love laugh and smile and be at his/her potential best; then kudos to them and be happy for them.

for me, at this very moment, love is.. troubling, heart-wrenching, and full of lies. haha.. need to change the telescope to view it in different ways. one day perhaps. telescope mahal. tak mampu nk beli. ahha.

i recall one of our famous words: sume lelaki same je. tapi yang same tu jugak laa yg dicari. haha.. true indeed.