run liza run

me and dayang still fasting today. but i'm so not gonna sleep this morning. yesterday i was attacked by headache for the whole day just because i slept after bersahur. s0o0o rather than doing some academic reading on this early morning, i opt to babble here. it keeps me awake! hehe..

this is my final year and this semester is very important for me as what will happen next depends on what had happened this semester.

- if i pass all the paper (insyaAllah..pray for me too), i only need to do ONE paper next semester and pass that one paper to get hold of a degree, BSc, majoring in mathematics and statistics. then i have these choices:
**do that ONE paper in that semester or
**apply for honors program next sem, and if i ever get the chance, start doing some honors papers. so thats mean ONE + one honors paper (at least one, but at most two =P).
**and continue with honors programme next year. which mean that i can stay here for one more year (yeay. i love welly!), which mean a year of merane^200 to go. thats not a yeay :(

- but if something terrible happen this semester (that i wish for not), i need to do ONE + whatever number of papers that i stuck this semester. that number range from 1 t0 3. so thats mean i need to do 2 or 3 or FOUR papers next semester.

oh tidakkkk!! 2 or 3 or 4 papers next sem equal to merane^100. i just want to do ONE (for a deg). please please pleaseeeeeeeee.

so0o0o.. i SHOULD merane this sem and to ensure that my merane this sem paid off and paid well. "well" means i pass all the papers, so as not to merane^100 nex sem.

in my world at this moment for this sem, study = merane. hahaha..

1st and 2nd year were honeymoon albeit merane a bit. heh!

see it? 3rd year is "lonjakan paradigma". whatever that mean. haha.. but the point is.. i feel that the percentage of difficulty in its subject (3rd year subj) is so0o0o sudden and frightenly shocking for a student like me. that i have to build a shield around me to keep me sane, to keep me be a student.

i am wondering whether all the choices that i have made till this point of my life are the right one. like coming here, doing math and stat.

what happen if i choose to stay in matriculation? i think i will become a doctor then. hehe.. doctor liza. cause i dont know what else to take in uni other than medicine. plus i was in the same matrix with shida and fiza (they all doc wannabe now ni, so most probably me too!). i am so adamant to become a doctor since i was little (beside all my other cita-cita), and becoming a doctor was always in my list whenever i handed in the form that teachers in school gave every single year. what my life would be then?

it is all about the choices that i've made all these while..

what if in the next 10 or 20 years from now that i finally realise that i dont suit to become a teacher?

Run Fatboy Run. he chose to leave his fiancee on their wedding day only to realise five years later that she is the one.

hehe..

anywayyy.. be positive. it's not about whether you have made the right choice or not. it's about making the choice that you have made the right one for you.

i'll keep that in mind =)

run liza run. run for that "segulung ijazah". f.i.g.h.t.i.n.g!

btw, running is fun. i loike!