hatii

ada kalanya hati itu sangat teguh. tiada apa jua dapat mengubah setiap perkara/tindakan/keputusan yang diambil/dilakukan.

namun ada waktu hati itu lemah..

sehinggakan seringan-ringan perkara kelihatan amat berat untuk dipikul/dihadapi.

mencari semangat dan kekuatan bukan perkara mudah. ada yang tewas dalam perjuangan. tetapi mengalah sebelum memulakan langkah bukan tindakan cerdik pandai.

harapan merupakan sesuatu yang mampu memberi sinar dalam pencarian.

apabila hilangnya harapan itu, maka hilanglah semangat dan kekuatan. lantas hilang tujuan. dan ketika itulah hati dilemahkan.

persoalan hati itu suatu yang subjektif. kadang kala pemiliknya sendiri tidak berupaya untuk memahami. pelbagai soalan diajukan.

teguhnya hati/lemahnya hati itu bergantung kepada individu. jangan sampai hilang punca/arah. hidup itu penuh dengan dugaan.

jagalah hati. bila ia lemah, kuatkan. Dia sentiasa menjaga kita. usah gentar.

pbhttt!!

my fren posted this on fesbuk.

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Notice: These tips are applicable for Malay girls’ blogs only. My international friends may think it’s weird but our cultures are different so they may not think that these tips are cool.

How to Write a Girl’s Blog.

1.Talk About Fun Things

Leave it to men to write intellectual blogs, your blogs are about your sweet memories, hobbies, dream and fantasy. Say that you don’t care about the politics and economy because they’re boring so you don’t wish to think about them even for a minute. Talk about your favorite movies, shoes, food, actors and etc. If you want to do something fun in the future, say that you can’t wait for the fun moment. Don’t forget to also tell people about your dream and fantasy.


2.Show Your Shopping List

I have never met any girl who doesn’t admit that she’s a shopaholic. Thank God, they help to keep the economy moving but unfortunately their spouse’s wallets are getting thin. Make a list that shows the stuffs that you want to buy or you dream that you could have them. It’s better to show pictures of the exact things that want to add to your HUGE collection. I’ve seen body parts being added in the list as well. Oh, those girls probably want to have a plastic surgery someday.


3.Talk About Your Stress

I would make an official statistic if I have time but for now, I believe that 98% of the word ‘stress’ in all blogs in the world is in girls’ blogs. Rant about your school, work, co-workers, assignments and everything so you can to tell people how stressed you are.


4.Talk About Your Crush

Guys have crush too but they don’t write about it in their blog. Girls have to describe how in love they are since they first met the ‘handsome guy’. Explain the details like the guy’s hair, chest, eyes, arms, smile and etc. Don't do that if you're not single. Instead, talk about your boyfriend and say that he’s really sweet.


5.Add Background Image and Music

Don’t use plain background color. Instead, use fancy background image with suitable color that makes your blog looks ‘cute’. Be sure the background image is fancy enough to make it’s hard to read your posting. If you know how to do it, add background music as well. It may be annoying as hell but who cares, it’s your blog!


6.Simplify Your Words

This is more obvious in girl’s IM, Facebook wall post and SMS rather than in blogs but there are some girls who also simplify words in blogs as if they’re too lazy to move their fingers. This is an example: “ble ah nk abes prjk nie, dh tensen dah ni.. tringin nk gi shah alam jpe membe, windoo kat diowg..kes kes kes.. nti ujonk bln ak ngan bbdk ofis gi trip kat sabah, abes duwet gji ak, hahaha..rse mls nk gi tp dh diowg ajk so ak on je la ;-)”


7.Decorate Your Blog with Capital Letter and Symbol

This is not interesting. ThiS iS iNteRestiNg ;-). Don’t mAkE yOUr bl0g lO0k plAiN and dull, usE cApiTaL letteRs and sYmb0Ls to dEcorate iT. Don’t uSe 1337. 1337 aRe fOr n00bs, nOt giRLs.


8.Show Pictures of You and Your Friends

What kind of girl’s blog that doesn’t have pictures in it? Shows you and your friends’ pictures and say that you really miss them. It could be old pictures or photos from your recent holiday trip. Be sure the pictures are cute and you don’t look fat in the pictures. Be sure all your female friends look nice in the pictures too or they will be ranting about it in the comment section.


9.Show That You Know About Brands

Don’t take it wrong, it not about the brands of cars, basketball shoes, laptops, game consoles, cell phones and operating systems. It's about the brands for fashion. Share your knowledge about the nice brands for shoes, perfumes, skirts, make ups, dresses, handbags and anything that you’re dying to have them. Remember, it has to be the latest brands, not the old ones.


10.Talk About Entertainment

This might be confusing because anything can be entertainment. For me, seeing Dr Khir Toyo loses in election in an entertainment. What I mean about the entertainment in girl’s blog is MTV, Hollywood, filem Melayu, America’s Next Top Model and the new album of a handsome rock singer. If you have a lot of knowledge about them, then why talk about the economy? Talk about the entertainment!


11.Poems and Lyrics

If you wrote a poem, then share it in you blog. If there's a song that touches your heart, the share the lyric in your blog!


12.Overall
Here’s a good rule of thumb. The more people’s IQ drop when they read the blog, the better the blog is.


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well..

1. maybe he's not the one who wrote this in the first place.

2. i dont know what was the writer's intention. maybe saje2 nak kongsi pendapat or maybe berniat untuk mengutuk kaum perempuan?

3. i did most of the things mentioned. so what? macam lah lelaki yg tulis blog tak buat. and macamlah perempuan mat saleh tak buat.

4. aku rase writer ni memang saje nak kutuk perempuan melayu.


pbhttt!!

Bday N Wii

today kami celebrate birthday dayang.

after that kami menggilaaaaaaa maen Wii. we sport. we fit. we cheer. heh heh.

in conclusion, harini sangat penat sampai tak larat nak tulis in details.













\'-'/ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYANG!!!



p.s. photos courtesy of mohammad izzuan termedi. grazie mille!

RAM

laptop aku previously gune DDR2 533Mhz ram. tapi speed yg asal time aku beli laptop ni ialah 400Mhz. aku, cik izah and cik sarah nak upgrade ram. disebabkan kitorg buta IT, kami pon tanyalah beberapa orang yang pakar. actually kami tak payah nak susah2 tanye if kami gune ram yang same speed. tapi disebabkan ram yang sale tu speed die 667Mhz, kene la tanye orang. kang kalo dah beli tak compatible naye je.

so ade yang kate 533 bole je kalo nak gune 667. and ade yang kate tak bole. nanti die tak detect. or cair. and pendapat yg paling up sket ialah nnt laptop tu meletop (hahaha..ops..maybe org tu exaggerate sahaje.) but being me, yang naive hakhak, innocent and buta IT haruslahhhhh percayee kan?

one of us memang sah2 tak mahu gune 667. tapi aku dan lagi sorang amek tindakan berani mati(konon la kan) beli jugak.

nak tahu result die?

bolos saja ram itu!

hahaha. bolehhhh bang. actually kalo DDR2 ram bole je nak upgrade speed lagi tinggi. for example mcm laptop aku yg asalnye speed 400Mhz, bole je nak gune 553, 667 or even 800.

anywayy aku berani sampai 667 je la. 800 tu semacam tinggi sangat. kang meletopp. hehehe =P


p.s. sometimes we have to act and think differently than we used to do. sometimes we have to take risk. maybe it will trouble us. but it will definitely make us discover and learn something new.

spie5

weekend yang relax gile!

.:ini kami:.

penggune totallyspie5. heh heh.

beriani

the little taste of mathematics =P

mathematical logic

combinatorics

rase macam nasik beriani yg tak berape nak gam + kurma ayam yang aku makan dinner tadi.


haha.. tipu gile! that beriani and kurma ayam were far far more better than mathematics.


and one thing for sure..
one feeds my stomach. the other one makes me hungry.

rasa..

cepat sungguh masa berlalu...

rasa baru semalam ambil upsr.
menangis time ambil result. sebab dapat 4A 1B. hahaha. budak2. sains dapat B. actually da expect. sbb time sit paper tu aku diserang sakit kepala. tapi sbb sume kwn2 rapat aku dapat 5A, aku rasa sedih la kan.

rasa baru semalam ambil pmr.
time result keluar, aku on the way balik kampung belah ayah aku. aku singgah sekejap kat sekolah. tapi result belum keluar lagi time tu. so aku terus balik kampung. aku pon taktau kenape aku tak tunggu sampai result kua. then petang tu dalam pukul 2 or 3 aku pi sekolah balik. semua kawan2 aku da ambil result and dah balik pon. da takde student lg da time tu. aku sorang je. aku pegi office and mintak result. tetibe makcik kerani tu cakap congrats. haha. rasa macam blur la pulak. lagi satu, aku terlepas sesi fotografi untuk budak2 yang dapat stret A. ade 4 orang termasok aku.

rasa baru semalam ambil spm.
aku sekolah kat sains muar time ni. so datang sekolah sehari lebih awal dan tido kat dorm dengan junior. ambil result kat dewan. ikut kelas masing2. sebab result dah ada dengan guru kelas. tak ikut turutan pon. sape rase dah sedia nak tengok result pegi mintak kat cikgu. aku tunggu kawan aku ambik dulu, then baru aku ambik. alhamdulillah. 100+ dak2 sekolah aku dapat stret A time tu.

dan..

rasa baru semalam jugaklah aku jejak kaki kat bumi wellington. tup tap tup tap dah 3 tahon berlalu. dah dapat degree pon.

cuma tinggal setahun je lagi. setahon jeeeeee lagi untuk habiskan honors ni.

tapi..

tadi haz and izzu dah drop combinatorics. dorang amik differential geometry pulak. membuatkan aku kembali berfikir adakah aku telah membuat keputusan yang betul.





tolong aku.
aku harap masa akan berlalu dengan pantas tahun ini.

potensi

aku ada assignment due hari jumaat ini. masih belum siap. tapi tiba-tiba aku dijangkiti penyakit malas dan bosan.

"malas" yang aku hidapi tidak meliputi semua perkara atau aspek dalam hidup aku.

contohnya, aku malas buat kerja sekolah tapi aku rajin meluangkan masa aku dengan aktiviti yang kurang berilmiah. kurang saja. bukan langsung tidak.

"bosan" pun sama. aku cuma bosan mengadap buku berunsur akademik tetapi aku tidak bosan dengan buku berunsur kurang-berakademik.

aku tidak tahu dan tidak faham bagaimana dengan sikap cepat malas dan cepat bosan yang aku hidapi ini boleh membawa aku ke tahap ini.

mungkin aku bernasib baik.

atau mungkin.. seperti dalam cerita 'Jo dan Faridah'

*** you've got the potential!***
***P to the O ti the T to the E to the N to the T to the I to the A to the L***
***POTENSI***
*** P-O-T-E-N-S-I***
***awak ada potensi!***
***potential dalam bahasa inggeris. potensi dalam bahasa melayu***

ahh. sudahlah!

we've all got inborn potential. cuma kadang-kadang kita tidak sedar dengan potensi diri. banyak tidur mungkin. atau banyak berangan?

sOoOo.. kesimpulannya..

hoi! kau tak reti nak bangun ke? nak tunggu 'potensi' kau mamposs?

ops. kesatkah bahasa ku? minta maaf.

combinatorics

everyday class aku start pukol 9am. except ari rabu. punyela malas kan nak pi class pagi-pagi. namun aku harus kuatkan semangat. heh heh.

arini rase down gile lepas class combinatorics. ntah ape2 ntah yg colin tu ajar. ibarat masok telinge kanan kua telinge kiri. subjek tu depends 100% on internal assessments. so sangatlah cuak memikirkan mcmmane nak jawab soklan2 assignment die nnt.

anyway petang tadi aku pi joging kat kelburn park. angin sangatlah kuat. tapi stil nak pegi jugak sbb nak bace buku malas and dah tido pon before asar tadi. cam agak ramai orang gak la kat situ. some tengah practis maen cricket. rasenye laa. i'm not very sure sbb tak pakai spek or contact lenses. haha. ade gak yg tengah joging. and maen bola sepak. sume mat saleh la tapi. malaysian tak nampak pulak. lagipon if ade dak malaysia nak maen bola, dorang selalunye maen kat boyd wilson.

this coming may 20 is my graduation day. cik izah ade presentation on that day. so she couldnt come. hopefully jeni can make it there.

pesta makan

hmm kehidupan aku sebagai honors student masih belom terserlah lagi. aku masih tidak pasti lagi dengan subjek2 yang aku ambil. ntahla. kalau nak tuka pon sebenarnye aku takde pilihan. so tepakse ahh stick dengan subjek tu. aku suke 100 level math sahaje. integrate and differentiate. tak payah nak serabot kan otak dengan theorem yang berbunga2 bahase die.

since ari sabtu aritu rezeki aku melimpah ruah. my food marathon started last saturday with bbq party at flat 3 waiteata. last year ade fish n chip. and banyak bende yang kitorang boleh makan compared to this year. kali ni kami cuma makan burger cosLo (haha) and sayo sayorAn panggang. alhamdulillah. masih beruntung. cume xdekla sesedap makan nandos kat courtney place. heh heh.

then after that bbq party, we went to ila's house for their house warming party. lots of delicious food! on sunday pulak, we went to everton 21 for kay's birthday party. mereka tempah food from Cinta. aku melantak mi goreng hot cinta dengan suka hatinya that i feel like i dont wanna eat any more mee goreng for the next one month. hehe.

and todayyyyyyyyy... university hall's pizza nitEE! ade vege and seafood pizzas. yang seronok nye we had a game before the pizzas arrived. we are given a hundred dollar note during our entry (fake one opkos). during the game, we had to challenge anybody with that money and collect as much money as we can. u can do whateva u want. tossing coin. play scissor, paper n stone, or we malaysian played burung, batu dan air. haha. i lost the only note that i have to Ain. arghhhhh. then after that, Hanna (she was my RA last year) gave me another two hundred dol. yeayy! but anyway i also lost that money to Shaza and Fred. huhu. i'm not that lucky with 'gambling' huh. Fred managed to collect 14 hundreds. i tot he can win the challenge but there was this girl with 37 hundreds in her hand. wOw!

i was SoOoO kenyang makan pizza. but bile balek rumah, i open the periuk and makan nasik+sambal ikan bilis. haha. penat o cik izah masak. i just being NiCE. (haha alasan si kuat makan =P).

nonaa

haz sudah bertunang. ila juge sudah. dayang, sarah, and cik izah bakal bertunang. end or this year or takpon next year.

hmmm..

aku mahu bertunang juge. or kawin terus. aku tak kisah. mane2 yang datang dulu. mungkin aku patot suruh mak ayah aku start carikkan jodoh untuk aku? tapi aku nak jugak carik sendiri. jatuh cinta dan bercinta. ops.

aku tak boleh la kan nak carik sendiri ni. sebab..

1. orang yang aku suke tuu selalunye lemak berkrim disukai ramai. susah nak bersaing2 ni.
2. aku antisos? mungkin.
3. aku sombong dan tak pandai bercakap? mungkin juge.
4. aku kekok dengan opposite gender. sbb hidup aku dikelilingi wanita2.

aku suke orang yg tinggi. tak gemok. tak kurus sgt. ala2 sebesar Awal. or pierre andre. rambot tak skema. panjang serabot2 pon takpe. rambot perm macam Tajol dunia baru or vokalis Hujan pon aku suke. aku suke orang yang nampak cool dan macho. hahaha.

aku tak suke perokok. tapi aku selalunye tersangkot kat org camtu. buktinye ialah jaz seorang perokok. haha. mungkin merokok nampak mocho? hmm. aku tak setuju.

anywayy abaikan bende di atas. sebenanye aku teringin nak masok pengacara jemputan Nona. itulah angan2 aku sejak Nona mula mengadakan pertandingan tersebot. heh heh.

p0c0

menari poco-poco. pada waktu malam. with friends that u treasure. will be one of my sweet memories that some day will lit a smile on my face n lighten my heavy heart when i'm standing alone near the window, getting all worried, waiting for my love ones to come home safely.

really it doesnt take too much effort to build one sweet memory with people that u care/love. just do any activity together and enjoy that very moment.




aku nak cakap yang seriously aku tak reti menari.

haha. tapi..

aku akan buat yg terbaek untuk memperbaiki step poco-poc0 aku. hakhak.

juxtapose

firstly hepi birthday to razif. aku kenal dia masa buat preparation kat uniten. i dont know him that much. but i can say that he's a nice guy, suke buat lawak. dia sambung honors kat vic uni this year. now ni ade banyak budak2 ppou kat sini. selain razif, ade haz, izu, sarah, dayang, ija, ila, pali and kung. bile masuk class, rase mcm kat malaysia pulak. sbb banyak malay. and rasa macam.. kami yg conquer class tu. hehe. conquer in terms of bilangan lah. i cant say anything in terms of understanding the materials that we've learnt. it's like "apekahh itu?"

today's the end of the first week of the first trimester. still not busy yet. i'm still marking 100 level math assignments this year. nothing much has changed about me and my life since i've finished my undegrad degree last year. i'm still that person that u've known before. i'm still staying at flat 5 waiteata though i've moved to a different room and have new flatmates. i'm still eager to get pin legs haha. i know dayang have heard that for million times! i still cant let out my anger towards other people. i still want to take care of other's feeling though it means i have to ignore my own feeling.

i wonder how it feels to be different than what i am now. i'm not saying that i'm a nice girl. but u can say that i'm nearly one. haha. anywayy i think maybe i should be more honest towards myself and people. marah bile rasa nak marah. say it out load whenever ada rase tak puas hati dengan orang instead of keeping it close to myself. would that make anyone around me turn away and leave me?

i dont have new years resolution for this year. and i dont think i ever had one. i mean the one that i really mean it as a resolution. untuk suke2 jwb org tanye maybe la ade. kot.

oh aku harap more bahagia akan datang untuk aku tahun ni. bukan nye selame ni aku tak bahagia. cuma i realllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy hope that He will topup my bahagia level. hehe.

ops dayang n sarah da ajak ber-poco-poco. ciao!

kapal terbang kertas

i'm still here. in wellington. doing honors. yes people. honors. despite of my thousand vows i made to myself before this that i'm not gonna do it. heh heh.

well.. i can say that interesting things happened on my way back to welly. i'm not feeling very well a day before my flight back. i arrived in Kota Kinabalu at 12am. my next flight was at 9.50 in the morning. by the way its domestic airport is different from its international airport. huhu. kenape aku tak tahu? so i took a cab to go to the international airport that is just 5-10mins away and it cost me rm30. sooo expensive. huhu.

oh before that in LCCT, i have to pay rm45 for the extra 3kg of my check-in luggage.

both handles of my luggage was broken.

malangnye!

anyway my flight that was scheduled at 9.50am get delayed because of a serious fluid leakage. malang lagi.

so we all waited in the departure hall until further notice. i told u before that i'm not feeling well. i threw up 2 times while waiting for that plane to get fixed. however, we discovered that they gonna take a longggggg time to fix it.

fyi, royal brunei flight transits in bandar seri begawan before flying to auckland. in that situation, i think of nothing but my connecting flight to auckland which is at 7.30pm. that i'm gonna miss it.

fortunately, there was another flight to bandar seri begawan at 6.05pm. i prayed hard that everything will go smooth. no more delay. no more fluid leakage. and that i will arrive in bandar seri begawan just in time for my next flight.

in the meantime, we all been transfered to Novotel Hotel in KK for a few hours. free food. free room. but worries suffocating me still.

i can only breath out a relief after that 6.05pm flight landing safely in bandar seri begawan. i went straight to the transfer desk to pick up my boarding pass. after a few clicks, she told me that all the seats in economy class were full and she had to upgrade my ticket to business class. hehehehehe. senyum lebar :D. *petanda naseb malang ku sudah berakhir* hopefully.

i arrived safely in auckland the next day. as scheduled. and took another flight to wellington.

best o naek business class! hehe.

that's all about my journey back to welli!

p.s. banyak polis cute kat KK international airport that day. haha.