happy

i dont wanna do this anymore.

i should stop.

stop not because i'm giving up, but because you do not give a damn about it.

life is just a bowl of cherry
sometimes it is sweet filled with worries
dont be afraid
when things go wrong
just be strong

soul

what's wrong with you?

you are given hope but hope is not what you seek

you pretend not to understand when in fact it is obvious

you want someone to hit you hard on your face so you can wake up to your sense

you prefer the truth yet you shut your ears so you hear nothing

untitle

exam pukul 2.30-5.30pm.

wouldnt it be nice if ap wish me gud luck?

wouldnt it be nice if you wish me gud luck?

ape?? tak nice? hahahaaa.. fine!


permudahkanlah Ya Allah. amin.


doakan along dapat A ye mak :D





i wish..

dreams

ok second entry for today. haha..

people say "fight for your dreams"

i have many dreams. not sure whether all of them are possible to accomplish.

a friend told me that everything imaginable is possible to obtain. which implies i can get what i want, i can get what i dream of, provided i try hard enough.

do i try hard enough? or did i tried hard enough?

other friend told me, if we didnt get what we want, that's because He has a better plan for us.

keep dreaming, keep hoping, keep praying, keep living.

the world aint slowing down for no one..
it's a carnival calling out to u
it sounds like a song
hits u like scripture
u paint the picture
with colors squeezed from ur hand
werent u the kid
who just climbed on the merry-go-round
hey look, the world aint slowing down

the world aint slowing down by ellis paul. suke :D

spell "s" "o" "n" "g"

i'll be there for u
when the rain starts to pour

hehe.. it's raining actually. windy n cold!

a very "convenient" study environment for student like me heheheee :D

i'll be there for u
like i've been there before
i'll be there for u
cause u'r there for me too

songs do remind me of specific person or specific time or specific place.

jika teringat tentang dikau
jauh di mata dekat di hati
sempat terfikir tuk kembali
walau beda akan kujalani
- teringat mase duduk asrama time form 2. time tu kat sek.men.batu kikir. dekat je ngn rumah tp gatal nk dok asrama. tahan setahun je. mase form 3 dok rumah balek. haha.. kite suke melalak lagu nii mase iron baju kat dorm. hehe..

kini dengarkanlah dendangan lagu
tanda ingatanku
kepadamu teman
agar ikatan ukhuwah
kan bersimpul pada
- zaman SAMURA (sek men sains muar). the good old days! miss the school, teachers, frens, dewan makan, court volleyball haha. sume2 la.

dikejar bayang-bayang resah
bila hatimu masih tak berubah
enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
belaian cintaku ini
- spider in the house!! relaku pujuk. kite mmg suke suara tam spider. lagu ni reminds me of jaz. hahahaha.. he's married on 2006. awal gila mamat nih kawen. mase umur 22. he has a reason that until now kite tak tau patot percaye atau tak.


hidup kite penuh dengan lagu. tp kite realise that kebanyakannye sume lagu2 yg dah lame. mcm hidup dalam memory. mungkin bila dah balek malaysia nnt akan update dengan lagu2 baru. heh.

i dont know which one is more worst..
not being able to remember or not being able to forget.

pelangi cantik!

wahai hati
ada apa dengan cinta manusia
sehingga engkau alpa dan leka
menanti ternanti bagai nak gila
dihujungnya cuma duka dan sengsara
wahai hati
carilah cinta Ilahi
kerna ia cinta yang suci
cinta abadi cinta hakiki
membawa kita ke syurga pasti
wahai hati
jangan engkau lupa
jangan hanyut dibawa arus dunia
hidup ini cuma sementara
bila Izrail mencabut nyawa
yang tinggal hanya cinta kepadaNya
yang tinggal hanya cinta dariNya

andainya engkau tahu
kiranya engkau peduli
wahai pemilik sekeping hati..


p.s. petang tadi ade pelangi. cantik. bukan senang nk nampak. suke2 :D

mamat laundry

best jugak berebot buat laundry ngn mamat seblah rumah nii hahahaaa. terperanjat berok dia tgk byknye baju yg kitorg nak basuh :D
sorryy bang!

kami terconquer semua washing machines and dryer. sementara menunggu baju dlm machine siap di basuh, die pon berkate "tinggalkan satu dryer tok die pleaseee". kite senyum je. haha.. mesin basuh tu plak buat hal. asek terstuck je bile spin. penat nk btolkn. mamat tu pon da tak sanggop nak tunggu lalu dia pon merajok dan berkata "i'll do it tomorrow". heheheee.

semalam kami buat bacaan yassin dan solat hajat. jeni kate die merajok ngn kite sebab tak ajak. huhu.. tak tahulah merajok btol2 or maen2. if btol2.. i am so very sorry!

ptg tadi kua joging dgn daye. kat kelburn park lah mcm biasa. but this time tak dpt nk round park tu sbb mcm ade msians yg tgh maen bola. seganlah. kite kan takdek hidung. hahaha.. tapi tak sure sgt btol ke tak tu msian sbb tak pakai lense. haha.. but daye kate mcm je. then kitorg jog straight to everton and jln2 yg ade di situ.

hmm.. 29hb nih da start exam. tapiiiii kite belum start study lagi. bile nak ade mood study niii???? hb takdek kat rmh since siang tadi. pergi ke rmh izz kot. mesti pegi study. huaaaaaaaaaaa!!! haruslah start belaja niii. cuak oh! beliau sgt bersungguh-sungguh.

kite sgt malas belajar sepanjang tahun ini =(

sahabat

baru lepas berbual dengan daye, hazi and izz. about the past, present and future. hahahaaa...
i love hanging out with them. i love spending time with them. i love talking to them. most of all, i love their presence. even when we have nothing to say at all.

their presence makes me feel like "hey u r not alone or hey u r a normal person u have friends!!!" hahahaaa..., their presence makes me feel comfortable. makes me feel happy. loved, appreciated. that's not too much aye? hahaa..

it's the same feeling you got when you are at home i guest.

well friends are indeed very important in our life kan? beside family members i mean.

no man is an island. remember? i cant imagine how people can have no friend. i cant imagine how they can stand being alone?

i hate the feeling of loneliness. i feel suffocated, cant breath. cewahh!! no air no air. it's like all oxygen in this earth has been absorbed by a giant pump? and none left for me. haha.. or maybe it's like i'm in the middle of Pacific Ocean, with broken boat, cant swim, no life jacket, no radio communication, all i can do is waiting, waiting and waiting for other ship to come and save me before i get all drown and died. hahahaaaaa tragik gila. tsktsktsk. tipu niii.

well.. everyone hates to be lonely kan? enough said.

lonely..
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody
for my own
-Akon

hehe... hope things gonna be the same when we are all back in malaysia.
hope everyone stays the same. even after you guys get married. (and i'm not! hahahaaaa =P)

my flight ticket has been confirmed today. December 18, 2009. i miss wellington already.


p.s. i hope the pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams.

just wondering

sometimes she wonders..

how people perceive her.

what people talk about her (if they ever did la haha..)

and if they did.. was it a bad or a good thing.

sometimes she wonders..

is she too arrogant?
is she too shy?
is she too antisocial?
is she too taciturn?
is she too reserved?


she thinks everyone but her makes lotssss of friend here.

haha..

she wonders how many knew her existence here.

she wonders how many of them will say "oh i know her" when u utter her name.

sometimes she wonders why is she like this? hahahahaaa...


truth is.. she's not arrogant. she thinks she talks a lot. and no she's not antisocial. she would love to hang out with other people.

it is just that she doesnt know how to begin.
it is just that she doesnt know how to start.

but then.. maybe that implies she's SOMBONG.
is she that sombong? is she is she?


p.s. grandma said, sometimes we have to take into account what people talk about ourselves for they can see our mistake our weakness.

p.p.s. i think she's doing fine. she's just wondering. u know.

dan aku terus..

menyanyi lagu ini untukmu
walau berjuta mendengar
lagu ini hanya untukmu

hehehe.. ade sape2 nk maen gitar lagu nii utk kite?????????????????





^_^

hari ini dan semalam

semalam..

dpt chatting ngn S. lame gile da kitorg tak borak. masing2 busy. die jarang online and kite jarang call. haha.. i'm so glad that we finally have some time to catch up on things. hehe.. glad to know that u r doing fine babe.

u said u are no longer with him. i said "hahaha.. yeke? so now ko single ke taken?" and u replied "penah ke aku single?"

hahahahaa... sengal ah ko!!

i'm happy as long as u r happy =)

why for some people love is that easy ha? it's like sekali petik jari sepuluh datang.

not for me though. haha..

she told me to berkawan dgn lebih ramai lelaki so that peluang lg cerah. hahahaaaa.. wot the??


hari ini...

me, cik izah and saghahh pegi open house held by pali, qilah, fazuin, iqa n jo. so dapat lah makan nasik kerabu. sedap2.

oh arini sabtu. sabtu means Nur Kasih! hehehe..

susahkan hidup bermadu? mesti akan rase jealous punye ah kalo ternampak suami kite tgh berkasih syg dgn org laen depan mate. huhu.. tak bole tak bole!


esok..

ade potluck klik klik welly. tapiii cik izah kate esok hujan. so taktaw la nak pi ke tak. lagipon assignment byk tak siap lagi ni. hehe..


anywayy..

nenek i kate.. no one knows what tomorrow brings. so live life to the fullest!

esok tak semestinye ade untuk kite kan? hmm~~

the rain is falling on my window pane

but I am hiding in a safer place
under the covers staying safe and warm
you give me feelings that i adore


it's raining! it's raining! sukeeeee hehe.. bunyi hujan mendamaikan jiwa kan kan?
tapi hujan yg biase2 mcm malam nih la.

bila dah lebat sangat, takotlah pulak. dulu mase kecik2.. kalo hujan turun lebbbbattttt gile and time tu pulak mak and ayah takdek kat rumah.. mesti kite nangis. hahahaaa.. klaka2.


they start in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
wherever you go


hmm.. arini hari last lecture. maksudnye takkan ade lagi lecture to attend kat VUW unless kite sambong master or PHd wOW! kat sini. hahahaa...

perasaan? sedih + happy. sedih sebab maybe pasnih takdek peluang lg da blaja kat VUW. sedeh sebab tak dapat jumpe lecturer2 yg disarangi. sedeh sbb tak dpt jumpe pencerah2 agong di kelas. hehehe.. happy pulak sebab tak sabaq nak abes belaja (buat mase skrg laaa). penat oh study!!!! heppi sebab takkan ade new assignment. heppi sbb da tak payah gune R or Excel. heppi sebab tak payah pening pale pikir mcm mane nk siapkan asgn!


what am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

tragedi oktober

ok,
kite sememangnye sukeeeeeeeeeee memblogging di kala kerja sangat byk betimbun-timbun!! :D

dan,

kite sememangnye sukeeeeeeeeeee melalak kuat2 (menyanyi kuat2 bukan menangis ok) bile tension tak tahu nk buat keje mane satu dulu.

tadi,

cik izah telah melayan kite berkaraoke di utube selame hampir 2 jam. hehehe.

kawan kite cakap die berazam takmahu ******* sorg budak ni until budak tu ******* die dulu. mampukah die lakukan? haaaa.. kite tunggu dan lihat. kenape kawan kite nak buat camtu? sebabbbbbbbb.. die kate asyik die je. so die cakap die nak tunggu pulak.

usually, i dont mind waiting for others.
and most of the time, i hate people waiting for me, so i ask them to go/to start first.

sometimes.. i wish people can wait for me.

but I (you) should know by now that waiting is (very) painful. dang! hehehe..

bak kate nenek i, penantian itu suatu penyeksaan.

indah sinar sang suria
merdu irama sang bayu
tiada seindah wajahmu
tiada selembut suaramu

gud luck fren.

semua kan baik-baik saja

duhai hati
mengapa bersedih tentang duniawi
bila akhirat itu suatu yang pasti

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hadapi dengan senyuman
semua yang terjadi biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua... kan baik-baik saja
semua... kan baik-baik saja
semua... kan baik-baik saja


relakanlah saja ini..

take care

For me,

"take care"

is just a simple word
yet has a very deep meaning.

saying take care to someone shows that s/he has a special place in my heart,
that s/he is someone that i care, that i love and afraid of losing.

i dont simply throw that word to random people.

i noticed that some people like to say take care to everyone, whether or not that everyone matters in their life. why eh?

and i noticed that some people usually saying take care at the end of conversation (especially bile berchatting). why eh?

do they really mean it? or is it just a longer version of full stop or a "goodbye"? haha..

of course i dont go spitting any curse vocab that i've learnt at you if you say take care to me; "you" who has nothing to do with me and my life..

kite terime je if org cakap take care.

but the thing is.. i will ponder about your intention/honesty. hehehe..
and sometimes will lead to misunderstanding.

so, dont sukehati say take care to me if you dont really mean it.
how i hate it!


i read somewhere,
hate is just a word for someone you love but no longer believe in.

betol ke betol ke? haha..

ntah.. kite tak penah lagi benci orang. rimas dgn org penahla. sungguh tak best perasaan itu. rase bersalah dgn org tu pon ade. rase cam diri sendiri sangat jahat. alhamdulillah sebbaek perasaan itu dah hilang. tanak lagiii huhu..


p.s. saket perot da ok. alhamdulillah.

hari yg indah

arini matahari tak merajuk dengan i!! suke suke =)
cuaca yg indah.. tapi angin macam biasa la. i pegi mane2 pon nk ikot. hehe..
hmm.. nnt bile da balek msia mesti i rindu angin wellington ni.
kat msia pon ade angin.. tapiii tak same lah dgn angin wellington!
hehe..

angin..
walaupun kite tak nampak die..
tapi kite dapat rasa bila ia ada..

begitu juga dengan kewujudan Allah..
walaupun kite tak nampak Allah..
tapi hati kita..seluruh jiwa raga kita dapat merasai kewujudannya.

nak tahu? i selalu impress dengan orang yg pandai tulis sajak. pandai sungguh bermain dengan kata-kata. i suke je nak tulis sajak. tapi tak retiiiiiiii!! takde bakat. hahaha..

arini i macam ade mood nak buat sajak. sebab i heppi!! kenape heppi?
rahsia lah! hahahahaaa.. tapiiiii tak reti la kan.

hmm...

jiwa rasa gelora
kasih pada teruna
bukan kerna intan permata
kerna budi bahasa..

HAHAHAHAAAA obviously nih bukan sajak yg i nk tulis. tetibe terklua lagu ni pulak.
takdek kena mengena dgn mood i arini ok. yg nih lagu untuk org berchenta. tak sesuai langsong untuk i! hahahahhaa.. next pls.

smlm i call mak. cakap nak kawen. hahaha.. mesti mak terperanjat. sebab i never brought this thing up before. dan2 je cakap nk kawen. she said boleh je. pergilah carik org yg sesuai. that's a green light no?? hahahaha... boleh kawen awal yeay! errr apekah?

next year boleh mak? 24 isnt that early no? lambat dah tu. isk3 =P


\/ ^_^ \/

10 Oct

kamu tahu tak "istiqamah" itu adelah suatu perkara yg amat susah untuk dilakukan??

huhu..

mase cuti mid sem aritu.. kite berazam nk start buat assignment applied math. alih2 sampai bukak uni tak sentuh pon.

pastu now.. berazam nk siapkan at least 1 assignment sehari. tapi tak siap jugak! alasan tak siap ialah sebab susah.

rase otak da lembab gile. mungkinkah Allah da kurangkan nikmat kecerdasan otak? huuuuu...

tak baek fikir mcm tu. sebab Allah sayangkan sumorg. kalo die tarik any nikmat pon, semuanya ade sebab dan adelah yg terbaik utk kite kan?


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ade sorg kawan kite ni. die bergurau ngn kite. mengaku die da betunang. kite pecaye gile. haha.. sebab die takdek reason pon nak tipu kite kan. arini die ym kite ckp die tipu je.

iskisk.. tell me a lie and i will believe u.

kenape kite mudah percaye kat org eh? i mean mudah percaye kat org yg bergelar seorang kawan.

please dont lie to me. ever.


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cite laen?

hmm... sekarang ni kite selalu fikir.. kenape kite yang kene mulekan?


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ahhh.. abaikan!!


fighting!!