sukesuke

do not worry - we will mark them all and take the 6 best.

hehe.. suke hati!! and the feeling of taking advantage of that extra questions that i did over other people is dissappeared. hahaha.

i have finished all my exams for this semester. hence unofficially graduated with BSc majoring in mathematics and statistics! provided i pass all the exams lah. hakhak. insyaAllah. aminnnn.

i will be leaving Wellington for home on Nov 11! weee..!! but a bit worried though. coz I'll be stranded at Melbourne airport for 20 hours. huhu.. what i'm gonna do with that ample time? of course sleeping is s0o0o out of topic. i got nobody to take turn to sleep and watch over my belongings. haish! i dont know whether i can stay awake for that long. that is something that i never did before i guess. but i can sleep for 20 hours for sure. hoho..

huhu.. rasa berdebar macam nak amek exam!!

debaran

dag dig dug di dalam dada
jantung berdebar aduh cuaknyaa
sat lagi peksaaaaaaa!!

buat 2007 punye exam - "ok2. boleh kot. at least bole jwb half dgn konfiden"
tgk 2006 punye - "yg ni cam soklan tadi. takyah buat la. boleh kot. alamakk.. soklan ni plak camne. taktaw nk buat. hmm.. 06 punye cam lagi susah dari 07 la. haish. untung gile student last year"
2005 - "wahhh apsal betambah susahhhh??"

now aku da cuak. semua formula dan definition dah berterabur dalam otak. da mixed up.

estimate untuk beta adalah [(x'x)^-1] x'y

sum of square regression is y'x[(x'x)^-1]x'y

definition of unbiasedness, week consistensy, relative efficiency, uniformly minimum variance unbiased estimator, Rao-Blackwell theorem, Lehmann-Scheffe, Factorisation theorem, bla bla bla..

hoh??

mak, doa along dapat A ye? hehehehe..

psiko nye budak ni. hahaha..

mak, doa along pass ye!

pensel

tadi pensel oren aku hilang. baruuuuuuuuuu je sekejap tadi ada kat tangan. ila text aku kata nak datang sekejap. so aku pegi laa kemas bilek yg semak ni sket. pastu time nk sambung buat statistic ni balik, pensel oren itu tiada. aku lupa laa kan letak kat mana! short term memory. huhu..

then berserabot otak memikirkan mana aku letak. tak boleh buat kerja o bila pensel oren tu takdek. hahahaha.. gundah gulana. perasaan tak tenteram. korang tak pernah rasa macam tu ke? tak boleh buat apa-apa selagi tak jumpa benda yang hilang tu?

kalau pensel tu ada perasaan, mesti dia gumbira melihat betapa dirinya dihargai oleh aku. hidup tak tenteram bila dia tiada di sisi. cewahh! (rasenya ni effect caffeine yang aku ambil semalam laa)

oh aku sangat cuak nak ambil exam esok.

p.s. teringat karangan jenis autobiografi yang belajar masa sekolah rendah dulu. aku sebatang pensel, aku sepasang kasut, etc..

mata

did i ever mention that caffeine never works for me? well. good news. it works this time. tapi salah waktu. huhu.. counting sheep juga tidak membantu.

just finished bersahur. today is the last day to qada' puasa. =)

i need my sleep. pls pls pls.


something yang berkaitan dengan mata...

"tak sangka mata yang cantik rupanya hanya dapat melihat tetapi tidak memandang"

"biar tak dapat memandang asalkan jangan pekak"

"biar pekak asalkan jangan buta sampai tak nampak apa yang dicari"

"biar tak nampak apa yang dicari asalkan hidup ini tak sunyi dan sepi"

"tapi saya nampak parut nakal di bahu kiri awak"

haha.. from mr.cinderella. as far as i can remember la. ketepatan ayat tidak dijamin. huhu..



one more..

dari kerana mata yang mempunyai kuasa
oh aku tergoda
aku tergoda terkeciwa


hahahaha.. ok i really need my sleep.

merapu

huh. i can take this no more. my brain is so tired looking at these statistics' stuffs. i've been looking at these things since 7 days ago. nonetheless, i haven't been remembering much of them. huhu.. the exam will be on thursday. one more day to go. and i'm soooo not ready for it!

anywayy despite of my unproductive brain at this moment, i cannot shut my eyes to sleep. i slept till 1pm today. huhu.. plus i just took caffeine like an hour ago. am so worried about this coming exam. i've tried 2007 exam paper. to be honest, i cannot do those questions without looking at the notes/ assignments/ tutorials. haish. parah2.

tetibe terfikir benda merapu la kann..

besides that exam.. i'm also scared (very much) that no one wants to marry me. huhu.. confession confession! this is crap i know. or perhaps not. haha. i can't help but to think about it some time, say..when there is no integration/differentiation problems that my brain could work on. huahuahua..

hey betol ape! if u are still single at the age of 22, does that thought never cross ur mind? even once?

no??

guess it is just me laa kot. huhu..

ever watch Friends? i cant remember who makes deal to whom. but the point is.. one of the girls made a deal to one of the guys that if they do not get married by the age of *something* (i cant remember), they're gonna marry each other. haha..

i think i should make a deal like that hahaha..!! nonsense! but anyway i dont hv any boy friend to make a deal with laa kann. i dont have any close boy friend and i only have a small circle of boy friends.

my sis already have one. plus she's working now. a nurse at uni malaya medical centre. so the possibility for her to langkah bendul is high ok!! hoho. tak mahu tak mahu.

ok2. enough merapu. should start counting sheep.

p.s. anyone wants to make a deal? HAHAHA.

1 2 3 4 5 6 sheeps da da da

salahfaham

once upon a time;

dia: liza
huhu..saje kaco ko
bile duet nk masok ni

aku: huhu
tula. xtaw bile
dak jpa da dpt da

dia: ko ade emel cik pah x
dak jpa dpt utk 2 bln


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ok stop kat sini. apa yang kamu faham dengan ayat yang diboldkan itu?

1. dia tanya ada alamat emel cik pah or
2. adakah aku ada hantau emel kat cik pah?

make a guess make a guess. lepas teka baru bole scroll down ok. honesty is the best policy. huahua.


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continue...


aku: emel yg dulu jugak die gune. ko xdek ek emel die yg dulu?

dia: yg dulu?

aku: sharifahratina@something. huhu..
jap nk bukak emel

dia: oo. aku bukan tye emel die la. huhu
aku tye ko ade bg emel x kt die tye psl duet. huhuhu

aku: hahaha. salah tone la kann.

dia: aku phm2. ko tgh bz stdy kan.


hakhak. see.. guna YM boleh salah faham ok. bahaya.

kalau korang pilih 1, means kita sama wavelength la tu! haha..

tapiiiii... kalau semua orang pilih 2, maknanya something wrong with me la kot. hakhak =P.

puasa

masih awal. matahari pun belum terbit. mungkin ada mulut yang berbicara "paginya budak ni bangun". seolah-olah tidak percaya?

hahaha. aku faham. aku tahu aku sinonim dengan tidur banyak. ops. dan bangun lambat. tapi aku berusaha untuk bangun subuh =). lepas tu tidur lah balik. duh! tapi memang aku bangun awal hari ini. bangun bersahur. aku dalam usaha mengganti puasa ramadhan. *mungkin ada yang tersengih. ketawa kecil perhaps?*

oi! aku perempuan normal. kau tak belajar biologi kat sekolah?

tapi sampai sekarang aku masih pelik. pelik dengan lelaki.

bila Ramadhan menjelang, pastinya akan ada ucapan selamat berpuasa kan?

dalam banyak-banyak ucapan daripada kaum Adam ini, mungkin ada yang seperti......

1. selamat berpuasa. aku tahu kau puasa tak penuh.

2. kau puasa berapa hari kali ni?

3. selamat berbuka puasa. puasa tak? **sambil meletak icon smiley bergigi rapi**

what the?

sungguh mereka suka bergurau senda dengan kejadian yang satu ini.

aku tidak marah. ambil hati pun tidak. tiada perasaan barangkali dengan usikan seperti itu. kadang-kadang aku senyum. ketawa juga. anyway point aku adalah.. aku pelik.

memang lelaki suka mengusik perempuan mengenai hal itu kan?

konklusi: proven. haha.

teringat aku suatu peribahasa.

sudah geharu cendana pula. sudah tahu bertanya pula.

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by the way, ini hari ke-4 aku mengganti puasa.

ape sengih-sengih? duh!!

p.s. aku tidak lagi sedih seperti semalam. hehe.

s.e.p.i.

aku sepi
bila dunia aku terhenti
tapi dunia luar masih berputar di paksi
penuh dengan tari
tapi tarian aku mati

sepi aku bila
hilang dari pandangan mata
tiada nada
tiada gurau senda

aku sepi
bila dia menyepi

angin bawa daku pergi bawa bersama sepi.

-nma-

p.s. sepi my version

emo?

it is so cold outside. despite of the hot shining blazing sun. uhuh. i am not doing any study or revision today. the weather swept away my mood to study.

feeling a bit sad today. like a friend said, when someone appears to be strong doesnt mean s/he is strong, when s/he appears to be happy doesnt mean s/he is happy. the list goes on and on. you got my point. i'm kinda like that i think.

i dont want to write anything explicit here. about my life. about my feeling. there might be people who read it. its not that im doing something terrible that i could go to jail for that. its just that i dont always reveal my true feeling, the true me in front of any people.

there were times i felt like i'm giving up for this one thing. i always believe in faith. believe in Allah. and i believe He knows best. but u know.. sometime u just dont know. u just dont know what plan He has on you. and sometimes u just cannot wait for that to happen. u sick of waiting. worst is sometime u sick of this life.

Sepi?

sometimes i feel like i want to delete this blog. i want to stop blogging. because i dont know what to write. because there is nothing worth to write about or to mention. because i am not a good writer. because i cant put what i really want or what i mean into words. good words i mean.

raya celebration was really awesome here! open houses here and there. good foods. good friends. good company.

watched Sepi two days ago. i like it. no. i love it. better than Cinta. that's what i think. hahaha.. i told kak elun that i wanna slap those who think it the other way around. just kidding anyway! hehe. everyone has their own perception, their own thinking. it's ok.

Adam and Ilyana were sweet couple. we don't know whether the one we have now is really "the one". anything can happen in split second.

Sufi and Marya. most people dont like their story. they said it was not appropriate because Marya was someone else's wife. and most of all, she had a good husband.

but i'm sure their story happens in real life. cinta tidak datang hanya sekali. cinta juga datang tanpa kita sedari. kadang-kadang cinta datang ketika masa yang tidak sesuai. just like theirs.

it scared me tho. to think what if it really happens in my life. what should i do? be like Marya? or maybe i should ask for a divorce? haha. gile.

Imaan, Khalil and Ean. i like their story because those guys didnt have to fight over one woman. hahaha.

anywayy.. i would love to watch Sepi for the fourth time. but study is my priority now. nerd. ahahaha.. i know. but my first paper is next Tuesday. 4 days to go starting from tomorrow. and i have only covered 2% of the whole materials!! duh!

i've started to jog again. since 4 days ago kot. hehe..

i run because i want to breath. hell yeah. AHAHAHAHA. no no.

i run because i want to lose weight. (haha..sket laa)

actually.. i run..

because i like to run! wekkk =P

hati

sometime she just want to be left alone, spending time observing things own her own, sitting on a chair in a big mall, watching people passing by. yet she was terrified when no one stay by her side. she scared and she hates the feeling, the air, the sound and the smell of loneliness.

the past is over. future will come. just live the present. people said you will miss a lot of things if you keep waiting. so why did some people wait? is it because they never heard the phrase? or they did, but it is the best thing to do?

is world a better place to live today than yesterday?

heart. do we have a good heart? there are a lot of bad things happened just because of our heart. it is so scary to think that this little piece of ours could do damage to others, to the whole world. why cant we have a pure, innocent heart? why there must be a black dot on it? why harm our own self? did your heart happy looking people shedding their tears? did your heart feel glory when people bleed their blood? did your heart be at ease when others are suffering?

maybe our heart, your heart is bleeding too, suffering too, shedding tears too.. but we are so damn ignorant of our own feeling that we can't feel anything. numb.

smile. smile when your heart is aching. smile even though it is breaking. smile. what is the use of crying?

it is very difficult to see our own mistake but pointing others is like a breeze.

again random thought. heh.

jenny

saye teramat busy. ade project due on the 6th and 8th oct. sudah dapat awal2 lagi. tapi baru hari ni terhegeh2 nk buat semuanya. takdek mase nk berpenglipurlara.

anywayy.. di kala sibok2 ni, ku terfikir;

aku belajar untuk jadi cikgu. bersusah payah dan bersungguh-sungguh. tetapi ada orang yg belajar bukan untuk jadi cikgu tetapi akhirnya jadi cikgu sebab dah takde pilihan. in other words, teaching is their last resort. dan jika orang2 tersebut mempunyai ijazah lain, bukan Bsc, contohnye Engineering, tangga gaji mereka berbeza dengan kami, dan lagi tinggi?

apekah ituu? adakah kami tidak setaraf dengan mereka?

huhu..





p.s. gambaq untok jeni, di ambil di wellington botanic garden, 28 sept 08 semase tulip festival.
p.p.s. pencerah agong kuu minat lagu jenny-the click five keeeee?? i hate u jenii!! huahuahua..